Would you change your mind...?

What is your opinion on abortion?

 

Are you Pro-life?

or

Pro-choice?

Are you causing a holocaust in our generation today? 

Could you be the next Adolf Hitler?

 

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Make a difference today. 

Stop MURDERing the future of your nation.

What Faith Can Do

Everybody falls sometimes,
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes, to make a new beginning .... :)


For the past one year, so many things had happened. Today as I was doing my devotion, I realized how far I have come this one year. Further than all my christian years added together.

I treat my family different, I approach my leaders, my members, my situation, my workplace...everything becomes different. My worldview, my perspective changes. And I began to realize, I can let go bit by bit, what I WANT what I NEED in life....and began to let others have what they need, what they want first. Not always successful of course. But something just changes in my heart. Supernaturally beyond words.

In my Christian walk, it is never an easy one. I am not talking about the persecution or the taunting, but the battle within self that is the toughest. The habits, the stubbornness, the ego, the certain thing you always feel you shouldn't give in....in this walk, you have to give it all away. For a good cause of course.

But each time, a situation challenges us to do something more, something of the unfamiliar, something of discomfort to our natural habits, we are scared to death, we squirm, we whimp....but then, the moment a step is taken, everything becomes easy, everything is taken care of.

All these while, the "aftermath" I often expect after I took a step of faith, is never as bad as I have always imagined. Every single time, things are taken care of. How can I then deny, that my God will not take care of me? Surely enough each step I take, He was there with me...

Today, after this one year of moulding God has done to prepare me for the next phase of my life...I have learned to give, to love, to forgive, to step back, to submit, to honor, to let go, to be less legalistic, more gracious, more loving, more balanced...more excellent.

In this chapter, I have many ups, many downs, many regrets, many lessons, many blessings, many heartaches and pain... much more accomplished from here, I have gained many insights, revelations, and much courage to be bold, to live like there's nothing lose. Still a lot to improve of course, but I am getting there.

It is in this chapter, that I experienced true brokenness, where the situation forces you to either be broken and give it all to God, trusting Him and living for Him alone...not for your self.....OR, I choose to let go of God, let go of all these crazy stuff I need to deal with and go through, and just live for my self.

It is in this chapter of my life, I have learned, that I am totally far....far off....very very far, from perfection. And precisely because of this, I cannot live without God. I wouldn't have the stamina, strength, and courage without Him. I am grateful that I went through all I need to go through. I couldn't thank God enough for seeing me fit for the test. I want to keep going....but this time, hand in hand....with my Daddy in heaven :)

You...you who are reading this...

Don't you give up now...
The sun will soon be shining :)

Even when you fall sometimes, You gotta find that strength to rise...
Just keep believing. You can never imagine, what FAITH can do =)

Love always.

Rock of Ages

I read Isaiah 26:4 today. The word "Rock of Ages" jumped at me (related to Verse 4).

What does it mean?

Then it sinked in. Rock of Ages...
Rock is something that does not rot nor decay.
Rock is firm
Rock is hard
Rock is the foundation to many buildings, and to many building materials.

Rock signifies strength
Rock signifies dependability
Rock signifies solidness
Rock signifies an anchor

Rock of ages is our God.
Our strength, our hope
Our foundation, our truth
Our anchor, our root

One we can depend throughout all ages
One we can trust for the rest of our lives...
Yesterday, today and tomorrow.

MY ROCK OF AGES....ROCKS!

Live Like There's Nothing to Lose

The news just declared today, that Steve Jobs passed away...
The man who made APPLE famous in the world, and change the world's view on technology advancement...

These are his words that gave me an impact today:
Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose...

Living like there's nothing to lose...

Recently in my life, there has been a lot of experiences that brought me to a cross road.  - to stay safe, or to risk it all.

Those who knows me well, know that I am a terrible worrier, afraid to take risk, calculative of my gains, and fearful of the unknown. These two months, God had really pushed and taught me what it means to STEP OUT and live like there's nothing lose.

I am proud to say...even though I am not perfect, and compare to many others I am totally far out of line. But I have given my best, and I have risk it all the best I know how. I have begun to understand what it means to conquer my fears, rather than letting them conquer me.

I invested, loved, given, embraced, cared less about persecutions, embarassment, being accepted.
Toward my family especially, my friends, my leaders, my members, my career...

Even though the return is one that is unexpected, not enough or negative. I am no longer bounded by the fear of those results.

Now, in preparation to step out beyond the familiar circle....to the strangers on the streets, the needy, the hurt. Gotta really prepare my heart for that. I am ONE step closer.

Live like there's nothing to lose. You will never know if you ever lived to see the sunrise tomorrow :)

Signing off. With love.

简单就好

It kinda hit me recently.


I love the simplicity of life...When I was younger, things used to be really simple.

In the world I once knew :

- I used to lie down in an open field, watching the night sky naming stars

- I used to tell the world how I admire living in a country side house with white picket fences

- I used to get all excited over rainbows after a rain and take pictures of them

- I used to sneak out to make phone calls in the middle of the night and get all happy just because I get to talk to my best friends

- I used to sit in an open car park chatting with my best friends and it feels amazing

- I used to hike up an empty hill and shout my discontent

- I used to “head bang” to some Linkin’ Park songs randomly with my friends and laugh about how silly we all looked

- I used to hug every single person like there’s no tomorrow

- I used to say “I love you” to all my friends because I treasure them very much

- I used to talk about anything under the sun, and it made my day so long as I was with the people I care about

All these are simple, but it made me really happy.

Some things I have lost as I grew up, being drowned with the busyness of life, work, being overwhelmed by the changes, trying to adapt, to cope, to grow, to excel....

Some things don’t seem to be all that significant anymore as I grew up.

In the era of science advancement, proofs and reasons are needed for every occurrence.

In the era where businesses are blooming, every connection, conversation, incident needs to be beneficial.

Even though some things do pass with maturity, but some things should be preserved. I miss the simplicity of life where I enjoy the simplest pleasure just by being with the people I am close with.

These few weeks I have been going back to the basics, and I kinda enjoy the simplicity of it all. Simple is good.

I love this new saying I learned from a friend. It is in Chinese: 简单就好

Sometimes, simplicity is all that we need to be happy.

Taken...

I can't deny....a LOVE so true...breaks me down till I've got nothing to hide...

You have taken me....and set me free

Prayer Meeting 6th September 2011

This prayer meeting was a significant one for me. I was on stage singing as a vocalist..then a voice came...I was presuming that it was God. This was the conversation:

God: Get ready for a new season, a new anointing....GET READY to embrace that call...

*silence*

Hazel: God is that You? Please let me know if it is You. Give me a sign
God: Fire...
Hazel: You mean when I open my eyes now, I will see a ball of fire, then I will know it is You? (*shock and tries to peep*...this is too huge a faith! Please don't do this to me)

God: No, Keith will say the word "fire"

Wow....that's a very low likelihood too aye? (*thinking to self*)

Hazel: God...you mean anyone who pray with me use the word "fire" is it?

I was trying to bring up the probability so that I can be assured that God was speaking to me....

God: Have faith! Keith will say the word fire...

Lo, and behold...after praying so much, Keith has not  even mentioned the word "fire" or anything that is close to that word.....So I thought....well, I must be thinking too much. Maybe its just me.

Then, the final passage that Keith read, was on the screen....as Keith read on and on and on....and my eyes screen through the projector screen....my heart beat faster and faster and faster....

1 Kings 19
¹¹ Then He said, “Go out, and stand on the mountain before the LORD.” And behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind tore into the mountains and broke the rocks in pieces before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake; ¹² and after the earthquake a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice.

So, I SAW and I HEARD...
That sentence followed after the word "fire" pierced me like a double-edged sword...


And God spoke:

God: Hazel, do not look for a proof, do not look for a ball of fire....I am in that still small voice.

(*repent*)

And then, we prayed in tongues for 10 minutes....it felt like 1 minute. This was an amazing encounter. Thank You Lord.

The memorable 17 June

 I still remember the times when I really prepared for this retreat. We started preparing two to three months back, wanting to go melaka, wanting to getaway from the busy KL to refresh ourselves before we prepare for a new season.

And I remember the countless late nights, preparing and cooking a sermon that I hope God would use to change the lives of many. We were all excited and eager to receive from God. Expectant. For something to happen. 

That morning, my housemate came to warn me to be careful on the highway. Immediately I felt a strange feeling, and I quickly messaged all the drivers and interns to pray before we start our journey. So we prayed. I fasted that day, in preparation for God to use me. I was really excited. And then we started our journey...we managed to wave through the jam and finally got into the highway. Two cars were convoy-ing behind one another. The other two went separately because they knew the way.

In the midst, I saw a car seeming to be stepping on its brake. So I took it as a signal to slow down, and slew down, only to realize, it was a total stop. Trying to avoid, I couldn't and afraid the jam brake would throw my passengers off the window, I tried to not to jam brake (of course by now you would know how foolish I am because CITY has ABS system. Haahaha). 

Nonetheless, I crash on the car in front of us, and the car behind came crashing following after. Concern for my members, I went down, checking on the car behind. members were in pain. I was really concerned, not to mention panicked. First person I called - Shirley Boon. There when I was talking to her, a tow truck guy came and talk to me.....we moved our car to the side of the road, and then the first vehicle I have crashed on, left. We suspected a trap that has caused the accident. But my members were in pain. So couldn't be bothered. Lesson learned. FIRST THING, write down the number plate....

Anyway, immediately I requested for PLUS people to fetch them for a checkup. They told me ambulance was on the way! GOSH @@ Frustration at why they do not have any urgency. Anyway, I called my brother after that, and he called my dad. So Dad settled with the tow truck guy. Tow truck guy: insisted to drag the car to the workshop. Dad said: NO! ...so finally, it was towed to the nearest police station which is 15 minutes away. Guess how much is it? 300!!! the cost for NOT letting them tow your car to the workshop. Sheeessh....sucha blood sucker aye :P

All these aside...!

Through this incident, I have so many things  to thank God for. Let me do it one-by-one:

• Thank God I slowed down, and crashed - my passengers weren't wearing any seat belts
• Thank God I was the second car. CITY was built in such a way that it will crumple upon hit, but it will absorb and minimize impact
• Thank God the car behind us, ALL PASSENGERS were wearing seat belts.
• Thank God while we were waiting by the road side, another car of our members passby, we exchange passengers and went ahead to the hospital quicker.
• Thank God Shirley Boon calmed me down and talk to the tow truck guy
• Thank God I called my first brother, thereafter calm my dad before talking to him. 
• Thank God my dad came, saw the car and decided it is more important I am saved. 
• Thank God nobody was hurt after checkup
• Thank God we have FOUR angels who rushed down to our aid as a moral support, and car support: Shirley Boon, Anthony, Jeffrey Choong, Eng Kim
• Thank God the retreat didn't cancel.

At that moment, when my dad said he is coming down to get me and to get me home....my whole head was spinning despite of all the errands t o be run, I was thinking....HOW NOW? Can the retreat continue? As I decided that it should continue, and asked my intern to preach instead (since I got to go back), Shirley Boon called and said, she would come to comfort and minister to them. This is a great lesson of sacrifice to me. To me, she didn't just TELL me what to do. She came to HELP when all else is impossible. She made things possible. She stood in the gap. I was so blessed by her action! So so blessed.

We lodge police reports, and finally, she went on with the rest to retreat. I went home with my dad. The emotion then was of guilt, and of many other things. We were so expectant of God to move, and then now, everyone got traumatized in the trip that we are suppose to be refreshed by God. Everyone was affected emotionally and psychologically. Some members had issues with their parents. I was devastated. But God was really really good. God sent many others to comfort me. Assuring me, the best had been done. And it still happened. And the fact that there is such a resistant for the retreat, all the more it should continue. Shirley said, she will help minister to all who were traumatized.

I was relief. Now knowing for sure that they are all in good hands. Went home with still trauma and fear. But it was really a memorable time at home. Everything turned out for good!

• Dad didn't scold
• mom didn't scold
• dad offered to buy a better car : volks wagon
• Had a good time of chit chatting with brother's wife
• Retreat was amazing : report from members -- the presence of God was really really strong.
• All had fun, all was ministered
• Turned out to be the most memorable retreat ever.

God turned a bad situation into a good one. One that has caused all our members to be closer to one another. One that has taught me so much about sacrificing for the sake of members. So much about mercy, so much about grace. As a family E45, E30, we went through everything together. I remember receiving sms-es from members, them wanting to come and visit me the moment they knew I arrive at KL, all these brought us closer together. God is amazing.

God was there every moment and every step of it. And I am glad today, I could find the strength, and the joy, and the reasons to thank God for. Without Him, where would WE be today. Without Him...all things wouldn't have turned out for good. 

Thank you, dad...mom...brothers....for really caring and showing me love time I needed it the most.

Thank you, Shirley, Eng Kim, Anthony, Jeff....for coming to our rescue. Things wouldn't have been so smooth without you guys standing in.

Thank you, E30 & E45 for staying strong, firm, loving and united throughout all these. You are the gems of my heart. thank you for being a family.

I could not thank God enough. Last but  not least....Thank God for everything!

This year many big events and big decisions happened in my life. FUH!! It must be all for a reason. I am anticipating the coming days. I know the best is yet to come.....

This will be one of the greatest testimony I have so far, for many days to come. my life, my family, everything was preserved and strengthened. I am really blessed. more hopeful for the future than ever!!!!!

New day...new dawn! :)

Heartfelt moment...

Today, as I witnessed the baptism of one of my member, Amy....I felt really touched.

Looking at the lives dipping into the water, rising up again, people cheering....non-believers may not understand. Even Christians, sometimes do not understand what it means. Part of a Christian process some would say.

But I have all along knew that baptism is something really significant. So much so, that even non-Christians understand that you are never really a Christian unless you get water baptized. my mom always thinks that way. That is the reason why, she often think that so long as I am not baptized, I am still not really a Christian and can "slide back" to my old religion.

Today as I went and looked at those beautiful people immerse and rise again, tears begin to well up in my eyes. Today so many people have decided that they will DECLARE their faith and love for God. And that from today onwards, they will be identified with Christ. Living not a life of their old. The old is dead (dip into the water), the resurrected is a new life (up from the water again).


I want to be FULLY identified with Christ. And I know the moment I decide that, I can no longer turn back, and each and every action I take I represent Christ. Asked my member how she felt after being baptized, she replied "I feel really really really good". Indeed, it is not just an activity. Something spiritual does happen when one is baptized.

I am anticipating mine. A FULL life as disciple of Christ. I will be joining the next baptism with one of my very close friend. Even though we know this decision will lead to many possible consequences, but we know, it will be worth it. There is a significance we anticipate to be part of. There will be a difference.

Can't wait...=)

I love birthdays...

I love birthdays....especially mine :P

Really pampered this year. So many things happened, and so many blessings. Just a little lazy to type all of them here. Oh well.....

I will do it SOON!

Procrastination in posting blogpost seem to be a very common thing to me now :S
oopps~

This is YOUR LIFE

"This Is Your Life"

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be?
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be?
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life are you who you want to be?
This is your life are you who you want to be?

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

And you had everything to lose 

As I was driving home, I had the longest flashback ever (with the rain and the jam).

It was long ago since I heard this song. But it spoke to me so much. 

I was brought back to the first time when I received Christ, on how I really became so passionate in preaching the gospel, in showing love, in becoming better. my lifestyle was exciting every single day. In doing so many things. Deep inside, I have a sense that I CAN do great things for God. And at that time  it doesn't matter what my circumstances were. I didn't care! I couldn't care less. I just want to love God, worship Him and do everything I could for Him, I found something to live excitedly for every single day. Not one day was boring.

As we grew older...this sense of passion seem to vanish somewhere. We often think of the "yesterdays" of life...the "good old days" so-called. When times were simpler, less worries, less responsibilities. Now, it is harder to cope...so lets be more lenient on ourselves. You are not young anymore, why push yourself to the limit? Working hours is already 8 hours! You need rest....Ah...but "Yesterday" you did it all...you did well...wow, how you wish you were in yester years, where times were not so busy, and you can do more things...

But hello, the yesterdays are wrinkle the forehead. it is consumed by time, it is dead and over, and indeed...it is a promise broken.

We always tell ourselves...when I am older, when I have more freedom, I have more money...this is the person I want to be. I want to make a difference. I want to brave to speak for the broken, for the underprivileged, I want to shower love, I want to go to Africa, I want to go to the homeless children, the abused....its all but a promise broken.

Today, as we reflect on our lives. Is it the ONE that we expect to live, the ONE we have dreamed it would be? FULL of fire, FULL of passion? When the world was younger, when we were younger, when nothing else matters but our passion, our dreams, when we were fearless and have nothing to lose. Everything to risk. We are just so consumed by our passion. Where is it now?

"We are busy now and have more responsibilities"....some would say

Now that we are grown up, all these are like distant away. Practicality comes first, passion comes later. Earning more, do not take risk, stay safe, what ifs of being rejected, or things will never turn out the way we hoped it would be and we will have to face embarrassments, insults, circumstances, shame....etc etc

ENOUGH! I had everything to lose once. I should have even more now. Today, as much as it is important to be wise, to be practical, I want to live a life that has everything to lose....without regrets, without what ifs....Live everyday, like it is your LAST

Step one: Let the LOVE REVOLUTION begin!

Just passed my 24th birthday...time to rekindle the "old flame"...the passion of the to-do list I once had. Let's go dig it out (wait for my next blog). Shall not wait till I am 30, and when I have 5 kids to juggle, with house chores, a husband and a job. Hahaha! Funny scene.

What about you? Are you afraid to revisit that dream or that passion buried deep down within? To be a singer? a writer? "too old" perhaps you feel?

This is your life. Are you who you gonna be? 

TODAY IS ALL YOU HAVE GOT NOW!!!

Sometimes.....

Sometimes, when I am tired, and I have a lot of things to manage and do...
To complete within a day, and I ALREADY need much more strength and focus and energy than usual (because I am tired), I'd appreciate some peace and quiet (This is especially NECESSARY when I am very tired).


There are times for us to finish up our tasks, there are times to hang around and talk. I don't mind talking, but to me, the setting, the place, the TIME is very important. I need to switch mode. I cannot be at TWO modes at once. I feel very divided. Unless if I am very PEK CHEK and I need an output to rant my feelings. Other than that, I really cannot "layan" talks about many many others. You can talk to me about yourself. But not others.


I realize recently, I kinda feel my privacy invaded when people keep looking for me to just talk. Talk about others, talk about things that will not change or solve anything. Just ranting, gossips, empty talks. What joy does it gives? I don't find it fruitful. Maybe it is an output, of stress release for that person. Sigh...I should be more gracious. But I feel, perhaps, at a time when we are all done with our work, we can talk about it? A better time, when I am more ready to listen?


Have I become an INTROVERT gradually? *gasp*....sign of old age. hahahaha! Hmm....perhaps I am just too tired with the deprived sleep recently. Not very used to it after OFF college life. Easily frust without full 6 hours sleep. LOL. Sigh...alright, I need to keep giving love. Be a good listener. Be patient.


Ultimately....I need to sleep FULL SIX HOURS! I don't care whether it is an aging matter or what. But, without that, anything can drive you up the wall! Like seriously! Lol.

Jialat.

I can't Believe

Can't believe I am living at such an exciting times like these.

Can't believe I am part of such a GREAT vision. Doesn't matter what is going on with life, there is always a greater that is worth living for and going on for.

So many things have happened. Wish I had the time to blog all of them. Perhaps after work today. :)


This is it....! The greater cause the greater call. Here I am. Send me.

Random Thoughts

Sometimes I hope I can get married to a rich guy SOON!!

Haha....why you ask?

Just so that I do not need to work already (financially stable) and do what I am really passionate about FULL TIME. Redeem the broken lives, in the dark alleys, and the back streets.

But then again....it is important to SHINE in the marketplace. Just a random post, random thought. haha. :) Oh well, if it is His will, we'll know! God is good. Renewed passion. New season.

New day, new dawn.

Precious...

I'm in a season whereby there are many crossroads, many decisions, sacrifices.

The question that constantly haunt my mind: How long more do I have before time runs out? (Lol...sounds like I am dying, aye?) ...Am I making a full use of it? What am I called to do? What can I do to build on my passion, to fulfill the destiny and the purposes I have been called to? I want to give my best in this life to do all it takes to fulfill the call of life.

Jesus often answer: Great! But the question here is, are you willing to lay down your precious, for the course of My call?

Last Sunday was really faith-stretching for me, when I decide to give my precious to God. Tears just streamed non-stop down my cheek, as I hand over what I have considered to be truly all I have had for a future I am looking forward to the comng year.

As I gave it away.....there's a strong pull in my heart. Haha. Because this is really very precious! I feel the pain in giving it....and  as I kept praying and casting my trust toward God, God's peace came upon me....and a certain realization came into my mind.

In life, treasure and precious could be anything. Precious doesn't mean just the material possesions, nor does it only come in monetary form. Treasure could be anything. Anything that is dear to your heart. Sometimes we are willing to sacrifice certain areas of our lives for God to move. Sometimes, we refuse God to touch some other areas of our lives.

"God this I can give. No, that I can't...not that...Oh, this, You can take it...."

Aren't we just so contradicting sometimes? We often tell God...we will trust Him with every step we take. But along the way, we begin grabbing things and insist, these are the areas we expect a certain result so much so that we refuse God to touch that part in fear of another result. The common struggle between the human flesh and the human spirit. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.

I have been meditating on Gal 2:20-21. A verse that encourages us to be selfless. Selfless is not just about putting others first. When life does not sail the direction you expect it to be, laying down all the struggles in your mind, just trusting God, and His sovereignity. That is being SELFLESS.

Trusting God cannot be just a saying. Confessing with your mouth have to couple with believing it with your heart. If you do not believe, whatever confessed is void. Faith is the currency where exchange of heavenly fruits begin to occur.

This year, the theme of my life, is to: DIE to self. It doesn't matter what I feel, or what I want, or what I expect. I want to place all my worries, my circumstances, my doubts on the altar....and trust Him each and every step. No matter how frustrated, how unwilling, I will attempt to do what He wants me to do. Ain't it true, that dying to self, simply means dying to the precious in one's life? SELF talks about what is IMPORTANT and PRECIOUS to me is the most important. Selfless talks about what is important and precious to me is secondary.

Not easy. Can we truly DIE to the preciouses in all aspect of our lives....and give it all to Him? I will definitely attempt my best.

Truly, the only way to be selfless, is when we give away our precious, fixed our eyes on Jesus, the source of strength and breakthroughs in life.

Let's lay down our precious. Take up the cross and follow Jesus. One step at a time.

Time

Wish I had more time to pen my thoughts down like I used to. But obviously as you grow older, you only get busier with the increasing responsibilities in life. Nonetheless, I am determined to squeeze out time to spend time with my life team, my ever amazing disciples, and also to work on my passion.

Recently, I find myself becoming quite interested with business. Learning a lot of negotiation skills from my boss. And also to deal with different circumstances at workplace. Its eye-opening!! Woot! I am determined to find ways to start my own business, hopefully be a successful social entrepreneur in the near future. Working on it. Not gonna jump into it, but one step at a time. I believe all these experiences are worth it (even though it can be quite stretching at times).

Yesterday, I was approached by the director of Redeeming Roses ministry. Boy, I didn't know Malaysia have such a ministry. I was searching for it, but the nearest I could find was to be at the streets to meet the needs of homeless. But when I found out about Redeeming Roses ministry (to help women recovering from abuse and exploitation)...I am quite taken aback. Something close to my heart, and I'd like to look into very much.

Excited of what is ahead :) Life is short. Seize opportunities and make a difference.

Emotions

Emotions....can be really scary

They can be your best friend....and make you feel really good.
Or they could be your enemy...toiling your heart up and down, juggling act of clown.

But, emotions is one thing that differentiates us from the non-living things around us. Emotions allow us to be human, allow us to understand, to love, to laugh...to LIVE.

Without emotions, we are all dead. So celebrate having emotions!

But....be cautious about being emotional.
The smartest communicators are those who are able to MANAGE emotions, take control of it...and not make emotions their master.

How does it feel like when emotions are your master? You listen to it...do what it ask you to do...most of the time, you don't think...you just FEEL...and that is enough to drive you to act.

Master your emotions. Feel what you need to feel, by all means feel it...but not follow its lead.  You are the leader. Not your emotions.


But there is a fine line to it. To be emotionally controlled, and emotionally rigid.

Emotionally rigid is a result of shutting off to avoid oneself from feeling more pain...and eventually numb out other feelings from entering the heart. This is danger. This could make a person a cold-hearted robot instead of being human.

So how to be healthy emotionally? Ask God... :) And never ever act based on your feelings. You always end up regretting. Act according to the Word of God, and according to the right principles and virtues. Be an honorable person, respect others and respect yourself.

The quote of the day: Master your emotion, and not make emotion your master :)


With this....live life without regrets.

Perfect

You are not perfect..
But you are made perfect in Him :)

You do not need to try very hard to be someone else
You do not need to try very hard to be righteous or accepted

It is done for you. You are made righteous, accepted, made in the image of God.

The realization of this is important....to HUMBLE one person, and to make him/her more and more in love as well as dependent on God.

Seek not perfection in life. Seek His face and you'll find perfection in His Joy.



Psalm 51:17
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,

A broken and a contrite heart—
These, O God, You will not despise.

Happy New Year 2011!!

So, this is it! 2011! Woohoo...

This year I plan to blog more. Oh well, we shall see :)

2010 has been an amazing year for me. Went through many ups, many downs...learning how to live life, and be more like myself...be who God wants me to be. Juggle between many huge transitions of life. Successes, failures, hopes, disappointments....you name it! Told ya 2010 isn't gonna be the same when it came last year.

Now it is 2011. And I think it is going to be way different and whole lot more amazing than before.

In 2010, I did a thorough research on quite an interesting specimen. Yes. Human specimen. Don't worry, I got all the paperwork straightened out. No ethical issues involved. But mine, she is quite amusing.

Introducing.....tat tat tat daaa *trumpet blowing*

SPECIMEN S355164!!

I know right? so cute...Applause please!

I often hear of people saying...actions speaks louder than word. So throughout 2010, I studied S355164. As she lives on the motto "actions speak louder than words", the motion of action, keep doing and doing and doing and doing became so much more significant than years before.....it is good I would say, but not all  good (trust me, I experimented with it). People who keep going and going without stopping to think or ponder, begin to become more robotic, more technical, saying more of "it must be done now", more impulsive, feeling more and more busy (but are they?)...less relaxed, more uptight, results-oriented.- Labeled as the Type A Behavior (wow, I remembered! :P)

Often time, life isn't suppose to be that dead serious. See, people could miss out fun...but they thought they were doing something real important that could seriously cause world doom's day, should they stop being serious for a minute. So they punish themselves, and abstain from fun. Or rather, thinking they were being useful, so long as they are not associated with fun.

Ah! Humans....pfftt....the measure they would take just to feel a little better about themselves....LOL...I finally get to see what it is like for S355164, working...white collar world, being in the "career-y" environment. When the office attire is put on, many specimens, including S355164 suddenly just transform into another person. Reminds me of the Zimbardo's famous experiment (of wardens and prisoners). Even mindset could be transformed in mere split second.

Amusing, isn't it? So in 2011, Specimen S355164 informs me that she is about to try something new. The art of balancing reality and imagination. Why you might ask? Specimen S355164 see the importance of equipping herself with the world's knowledge.....necessary details to allow her function in society. Yet, Specimen S355164 wants to live in a world where she is STILL allowed to dream and see those dreams come to pass (breaking away from rigidity - side effect of aging). Not something easily done. A little mix of hard work, perseverance, faith and hope.

Ooo...she is gonna add on the FUN factor into everything she does as she accomplish her 2011 resolution! Hmm....I wonder how. Oh well, let the creative juice flow as the year unveil its surprises...! Well, it is not easy for mankind to notice the dominion of one side of the world, in all honesty. I consider Specimen S355164 quite blessed to have noticed this in the early stage (before rigidity becomes a permanent disease).

Rock on Specimen S355164! You made it to this point, thus far. Great 2010! Yay....now get ready to dive!

Welcome, 2011! Woohooo
*wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle*