Even though nothing much related with Abel's sharing, but certain parts of it got me thinking.
I have signed up for many trips this year. NONE of it I have regretted. Myanmar, Korea, Chengdu...all of it makes me feel so so so so excited. I am so thankful for people around me who constantly challenge me to go trips with them, to experience the world while I am still young, without kids running around me. Hehe.
I realized, that even though I do not regret signing up, and in fact am very excited...as human I can't escape from getting worried if I can financially pull through. Will I raise / save enough?
But today, I suddenly am reminded why these trips are so important to me:
1. I have the opportunity to go reflect my Father's heart in Myanmar. To raise money to go be part of this meaningful expedition. Even though it requires sacrifice, but it is truly worth it.
2. I have the opportunity to spend amazing time with my family and loved ones OVERSEAS!!! :D
3. I have the opportunity to worry about raising fund for MISSIONS, when others have to worry about raising enough funds to feed their family. :))
Even when I get worried, I am never without peace that I wouldn't have enough to go. In fact, I know somehow or other, God will provide just enough for me to make it. I am really really blessed to be honest. God has always provided for me somehow or other. And it has been proven true time after time after time.
Most importantly, I just find an amazing meaning to NOT being rich, but still be able to give. NOT rich, yet still be able to live life to the fullest. Well, I am a "big" girl now. I can fund myself without asking money from parents. Can do budgeting and plan financially some more. haha!
Honestly, I come from a well-to-do family, and it is not difficult to just go back to daddy for more finances if I need more. Daddy will always want to provide for his little girl. But, when I do all of this on my own, the sacrifices brings a whole new meaning. I become really grateful for many little things. When I go mission, I will always remember, that it is not that I DESERVE to be given the best hosting experience since I am going for mission, but I will remember that I am HONORED to be given the best experience. And the best experience can be anything.
I don't deserve anything. Going to mission is not God's privilege, it is MY PRIVILEGE. Going for vacation is not what I deserve. It is MY PRIVILEGE. And even for 10 20 30 years down the road, I will never want to FORGET what it means to sacrifice so that I can go mission and bless someone.To sacrifice so that I can spend quality time with the most important people in my life.
This is the Father's heart. This is MY Father's heart.
For this experience, I will always always be grateful. Thank You for the privilege, God. The Honor...is always mine. Thank You for ALWAYS ALWAYS giving me new insights and revelation in life.
:))
