Stay Still = Being a vessel

Certain unpleasant things in life happen repetitively again and again when you step foot into that particular place.

Sometimes it seem unbearable...sometimes it drain the best of you, and you keep wondering, when will those events take a toll and stop happening? Sometimes you wish you have the guts to walk away and call it quit...stop caring. Sometimes you wish you can just not step foot there again, but you know that would be something wrong to do..

Tonight as I was meditating on the Word of God, 10.02pm...God said this to me:

You want your life to be a vessel for Me
You said you would lay your life on the altar for me
Well, sometimes I do not need you to do anything fancy...but by merely putting through with the the toils and  brokenness, the storm in your life...
If you are willing to bear, if you are willing to persevere...if you do not give up...you will be My vessel, you have truly put your life on the altar for Me to work with.

Don't meditate on the fact that things drains you, even if it repetitively does.
Don't doubt a single minute that things will not change....
If you stay there long enough, if you keep allowing Me to use you as a vessel to go through challenges strong!...the change will come and you will be the reflection of Me in the darkest place.
You do not need to do much, but just merely stay there, be strong...and wait...do what I would be pleased with...and keep doing it even when nobody appreciates it. You are My vessel...and you have to know your place and your appointed time. Don't miss My plan.

Honestly it didn't occur to me that staying still in negative situations would mean being a vessel for God sometimes apart from all the mission works and ministry - it didn't occur to me that clearly, until now. I hope it encourages anyone of you who are going through certain circumstances and you feel like you really want to escape but you know you shouldn't?...yes sometimes God used you as a vessel by just you choosing to stay through in those places. And do what He wants you to do, react how He wants you to react...

Stay strong! =)) If God is using you as a vessel to stay in rough circumstances, He will not leave you and stroll away before He comes back again. He is there providing you the strength to stay.

Be blessed! =)

A chat with God

In the midst of studying for finals, Hazel decided that she would have a little chat with her beloved God...

Hazel: Daddy..

God: Yes, dear?

Hazel: Got something to ask You (anticipation shown all over the face)...very important one!

God: Haha...what is it? (smirking - a sign of Him knowing what I was about to ask)

Hazel: I want to ask right, how to know what are the things I can do and is correct one and what are the things that are not?

God: What....I know what you are worrying about right now la...

Hazel: Hee...You know good la...then then then...what are the things that I can be sure is correct and is OK for me to do and the things that are not jek? (cling on to God's arm like little girl)

God: The things that you cannot do and is not OK are the things that I have labeled as sin in the bible and labeled as against the law by the government...

Hazel: Some more?

God: And the things that I have revealed to you that is not OK wan loh...like certain things you feel you feel it is good or nice to have then suddenly I show you that it is not really such a good thing or option...neh...those times ah when I show you...remember or not?

Hazel: Remember.....(silent a few seconds)....then for things that You didn't reveal anything one leh? Means can do ah? Or should do?

God: =_='''' I didn't reveal hor....means it is ok to do lah...but that doesn't mean it is a MUST or a SHOULD la...you figure out and choose la you want to do or not. You do it also can, don't do it also won't do you harm.

Hazel: Then then, I have been having this issue la...I don't know what is the right thing to do wor...then You some more didn't reveal. Then now I ask You la, what should I do? If i make a choice to take path A also got certain struggles, if  take path B also like not correct, also struggle...what to do oh?

God: You decide lor....

Hazel: Maybe I should fast and pray about it. But I did that before!

God: Yealor...I know...I didn't give you any answer ma...means you decide loh...haijoh! Take path A also can take path B also can...I cannot tell you what to do la. Then I violate your freewill already you know or not.

Hazel: Yealah...but You see ah, like my biological parents right, sometimes even they ask me to make decision right, they still got preferences wan...so what is Your preference jek? I want to do everything in Your perfect will ma...

God: Nah girl,...see ah...Number 1, I am not your biological parents, I got no preference...Number 2, if I got no preference and ask you to choose, means whatever decision you make will not be a wrong decision, but still a decision in My will...Number 3, freewill is freewill...you have to learn to decide for yourself...Life is about making choices. If I make all the choices for you, then you become My robot already...

Hazel: ....

God: And Number 4, got exam tomorrow...GO STUDY NOW!

Hazel: hehehe...ok...after I blog.




Hrm....ever come across situations where you hope that God will just tell you what to decide on and do so you do not need to think so much what is the right thing to do? I have been there countless times...

Anyway, just posting this out of randomness...and to quote that at times there are situations whereby there is no such thing as the ONLY RIGHT OPTION...sometimes either option you choose, it will also be blessed by God. But the journey would be very different. So then it bogs down to one thing again...where your heart and passion lies, what you desire to journey...I guess that sometimes is a guidance to decisions like these...

BUT BEWARE. This blog is strictly not about partial obedience. About people ASSUMING God didn't give them any clear answers and go with whatever they "feel" is right or what they "feel" God tells them is right even when it is CLEARLY not. =)))

Just a random thought for you to ponder. Be blessed! Hit the books now. Toooddlleesss~~

Baby Keira is OUT!

For those faithful blogger readers, just for your information...Baby Keira is out this morning...

Wow...salute Keith. Last night while he was preaching he told us how he wanted to stay back in Malaysia just to support Juli and to wait for his baby girl...because her baby only comes out ONCE in a lifetime....He wants to be there to welcome her....wow.....(hmm...guys a.k.a male homo sapiens should take notes :P)

And now she is out! Congrats Keith and Juli!...Surely a blessed stay and such amazing parents you will be :)

Heard that she is really cute. :)) Can't wait to see. 

Asia Conference Week....A chosen Joy

It has been an amazing week! While everyone was in Asia Conference, I was back in KL. Being released from my responsibilities of being a choir leader or a cell group leader, I was allowed a lot more extra time to finish up my left over assignments, as well as to really spend really really quality time with God. When I knew I wasn't able to attend Asia Conference, my heart sank knowing the fact that I would not be able to experience God in a powerful way with others, that I am not able to hear great sermons from the top 5 world class speakers. But there was one thing that I told God and I prayed about eversince I knew I could not attend Asia Conference. That I would not be left behind, that I would still capture and grow to the next level of spirituality...growing hand in hand with the rest even with the limitations I have.

God was indeed amazing. Initially I have asked my beloved intern and disciple, Ben and Sophia to record each and every sermon and send to me every night. Unfortunately the files were too big, and to send via email would take a very long time. Therefore, we decided that it is best if they just directly pass the sermons to me when they come back to KL. Nonetheless, I would say, I have still spent one of the best weeks alone at home...praying loudly and hearing from God.

This week, I was reminded of my visions, dreams, my journey with God, and even had time to tap into a few pastoral cases. God indeed had made my stay in KL a fruitful one. I have learnt so much, and researched so much on my studies...

Last night's service was amazing. I would say I heard one of the best sermons of 2008. Keith taught about not losing the joy in God. The joy of the Lord is our strength! This is something real that do happen when responsibilities grow...and I personally experienced it. At times when we are so pressed and pressured by the responsibilities in life, we become so lost and depressed. This season, or rather this semester is one of the busiest semesters I have experienced my whole life. I would say....in college, I felt such a peak in pressures that it was even more pressurizing than leading a cluster...LOL

I remembered twice I almost broke down because of too much pressure and expectations from group mates. Imagine having to run three big project whereby the due dates are so close to one another. What more, running the projects with three different groups of people who all at the same time demand your time to meet up. To me, it was really a battle of time, and a battle of fulfilling responsibilities and doing it excellently. There were many times that I felt so tempted to just combine cell group with Shirley so that I needn't have to be so pressured...oh but God really rebuked me for that...repent! :P

This is something real, that at times as a person with a lot of responsibilities, you do get tired, and weary. That is why people burn out, that is why people gave up. But I remembered one thing that Shirley said: that our responsibilities will never decrease, only increase. It is true you see...responsibility do grow with age! And with that we have to learn to cope with it, learn to have joy in it. Like what Keith said. One word that was really true was this : that the moment we start to prove ourselves to people, to show how good we are, we began to live for that person not for God. The moment we start focusing on how good a result we want to produce, our focus becomes the result, not God...then we would lose the joy as we lose our purposes, everything becomes meaningless...Well, indeed there are a lot of things that can cause us to be upset and frustrated in life...but is it really worth it? Exchange your joy for energy wasting frustration, anger, whatever u call it, and feel terrible the rest of the time? Haha...humans!...hmm....

Thus, that two times when I almost broke down, the one thing I did, was I threw everything aside, and I began praying even with the limited time I have to complete the assignments. But those prayers were the one that strengthen me...keep me moving...because I have renewed joy. And a lot of time, when I explain to my members, I told them to depend on God? It doesn't make much sense to them at times as they do not know how it works to relieve us by just depending on God..what are the elements that will cause their frustrations to go away?...by merely blindly depending and waiting?.... Well, actually it is more of A CHOICE to renew your strength with God...and through prayers under pressure...the way God renew strength is through giving the joy...reminding you why you are doing this in the first place, what your right focus should be...and how we should do it...and how you can trust him at all times, like old times...but it is a choice you have to make to rejoice!...as most of us know that our minds can be really clustered and negative especially under tremendous pressure...you have to really want it and choose to positively analyze the situation. Else praying, crying and expecting God to forcefully insert peace in your heart when you persistently do not want to let go of your frustrations, worries, or emotions will get you nowhere for sure....It is a choice!

Finally being able to put them in words...wow! I just feel impacted and liberated...now I know how Shirley can always be so joyful in the midst of all her crazy weeks :D Indeed, joy only will come if we choose to be joyful.

Haha....Ok...a very silly picture... but full of joy, alright!!

Last night Coleen taught me a great deal in singing...more than just singing :D Well, to me it is something significant. I remembered myself practicing so much at home...sit ups, singing everyday loudly for one past five days...(nobody at home you see :P)....and wow....at home I felt like I am able to do it on stage already....But on stage with the mic..suddenly my voice got swallowed up...lol...throat become tight. Voice can't be projected, become shaky and soft...phew*...stage fright? I don't think so....but I know I am very conscious about how I sound on the mic...not used to it...but one thing she taught that was very significant to me...learn to love your voice...and not focus on how it sound...I have been focusing too much on it, too conscious about it....but of course one thing I really need to work on is the projection! I can be better! Exercise Hazel!!! - go jogging! :P

wow...great week! The best is yet to come!...and muahahhaha...I am awaiting the sermons recorded so I won't miss out....oooOOooo live webcast is starting now....catch up later :) Be blessed...choose to be joyful today!


Love always...

Declaration of FAITH...the fulfillment of dreams

1. Campus Outreach will launch the first successful event by February 2009!

2. Cell group will hit 20 people and multiply.

3. Asia Conference that I will be able to receive sermons recorded by Sophia Lian! And sent by Ben to my email!!! --> Those who doesn't want to miss out anything in Asia Conference, let me know. I will send to you IF i receive it!

4. Arise and Build will have abundant part time jobs and creative ideas to raise fund. Those who wants to offer job, I am good at writing!! That the entire building fund will be able to collect a hit of more than 3 million! We can do it!!

5. Discipleship : disciples rise up! Strong in God, loving people!

6. Salvation :  Family and friends coming together in the new church building worshipping God with all their hearts...

7. Studies : I will do well! And I will score the CGPA I want!

8. Passport : That I will get back my passport ASAP. So that I can go to conferences, missions, emerge in Singapore, other Asia Conference to come...and SOT!!!

And all these shall come to pass....AMEN!


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Something to PonderToday as I did my quiet time, the one thing that God taught me, is to declare positivity into the things I want to see happening in my life, and the visions that God has put in my heart. At times, dreams died, at times dreams were delayed....but one thing stay true...the One True God we worship. Today, God has brought me through my journey of life once again...and I really have to say, eversince I came to City Harvest Church, my journey with God had been divine and blessed...I really thank God for a great leader like Shirley who was placed over my life. As busy as she is, she never cease to support me, and help me fulfill the visions of God in my life. The dreams i have...

When campus outreach started and nobody wanted to give us the covering to kickstart, she offered her covering over this campus outreach, urge us to start....and came to support as well as teach us and equip us for evangelism.

When my cell group started off with a rough start, she came in, protected me and guided me step by step....allowing me the chance to get my hands on discipleship, challenging me to do beyond my comfort zone, bringing me along to counseling sessions to help me learn.

When I couldn't attend Asia Conference, as busy as she was with all the administration work, she took time to help me call Singapore, and check out if there were live webcast....

When I was in financial difficulties, she sat down with me took out a pen and paper to help me plan my finances, and brainstorm with me on how I could spend and save.

Sometimes, she rebukes. Sometimes we might merely joke and laugh about things in life. And at times it might seem like we are just having casual talks. But little she know that each time when we talk, whether intentionally or not, one word or two that she speaks will somehow impart certain knowledge, impact me or cause me to realize certain things. That is the anointing of God she carries in her speech and conduct...

When I faced persecution (I will remember this for life), and when everything else seems hopeless, she was there to push me on...calling me every night, telling me to keep moving forward, that she is there for me...and that she will walk through with me...convincing me that I am stronger than all these!

And when I am stress in my studies, she would encourage me, and at times would even help me by having combined cell meetings just to ease my burden. Nonetheless, this was in the past. And I know in order for me to expand, I cannot keep relying on her by combining cell unless really necessary (LOL :P, repent repent)

What more, she even looked out for seminars, and hand me broschures after broschures on conferences that I can go to in order to learn more about the human mind...psychological disorders...for me to expand in my studies in my future careers.

My leader picked me up in broken pieces and helped me to come back to God by constantly loving me and preaching a strong word into my life. Truly, one way or another, wether directly or indirectly, she has been helping me fulfill my dreams, and my visions in Christ. Guiding me to walk in line with the path of God, in the perfect will of God. Indeed I am truly blessed by her.

And with that, I will always run her visions, and her dreams....always...

I thank God for all the blessings He had put in my life. The right people, the right place, at the right time...I pray, someday in the future, I will be a great leader just like her. Touching lives, changing people.

Passion....Your Call, My All

Faith like a child

Moves my heart to see kids worship God like this :D





and
arrrghhh....i love her so so much *pinch pinch pinch*

Mary and Martha

In life sometimes, we feel that there are too many things to be done, too many responsibilities to fulfill, and too many expectations to meet. That at times, we become so concerned about the results that we can produce, we forget to stop and listen to the silly chatters of people, look at the flowers. Talk to people, catch a breath or two, comfort a friend, hear the band sing, enjoy the morning breeze, enjoy good company.

This season of my life, it just hit me that at times we can be like a machine...doing something for good intentions, but we forget that we need to enjoy and experience the journey. Then we begin wondering why certain relationships drift apart, certain things in life are not as simple as before anymore? It is because at times, we felt we are overwhelmed by the many things in life that it is okay if we should skip certain journeys and certain people just so that we can produce good work and finish everything in time = we thought people would understand, we thought we wouldn't miss that much. "Those are not important" some would say. Nonetheless, it is not the results of what you achieve that is going to bring impact to the world. It is the journey that you have brought them through, the journey that you have experienced with them. The same goes: It is not the results that God is concerned about. It is the journey.

People will not remember you for the things you achieve for long. But people will remember the countless moments you were with them. The good times, the bad times. The cheerful, fun times, the gloomy times.




Relationship is the one thing that makes all journeys worthwhile. A kind word, a listening ear, a happy smile, a firm pat on the back make all the differences. As the effect of the results wither away, it is the memory of the journey that stays imprinted in our mind forever. Choose to experience a good journey today as you strive for great results. The JOURNEY CAN determine the results. It doesn't have to be "either or". We can have both a great journey and a great result.

Be more like Mary instead of Martha. For Mary earns the favor of Jesus. Walk WITH Him, not ahead of Him.


:)) Remember this always.....Hazel

In this City, my city...

It has been a long time since I last blogged. My schedule is so tightly packed with emerge coming up and etc, the call ups in church, the crazy making sure everything is arranged, the discipleship and so forth. It is not easy in this journey of clustering, I am sure Clement, Nickey, Si Xuan, Joel, Jenny, Bobby and Siew Min would agree with me (LOL). Nonetheless, one thing I realized this morning as I was doing my devotion, that all these things have brought me to a new phase of life that I never thought I would have entered. At least that is what I feel now. I am no longer the same person as when I first started with the cluster. I just feel different inside out. Emerge fever is kicking in! So are you ready to emerge? WE dare YOU! yaaa!!

As human, I get tired too especially this season, but my refreshing and renewing of strength comes from seeking the One above every morning. With God, the whole day usually runs in order. This season is truly a good training ground for me as Shirley said. If the cluster leaders can learn to lead these big groups of people, we can lead a subzone one day. Yea! I am visualizing that now. =D I always wonder how Shirley did it. Now, I know it is not easy. All the more this process of leadership makes me appreciate my leaders more. With 200 people under my cluster, not my subzone, whose pastoral issue I needn’t have to worry about because they have their own cell leaders, I am already feeling that it demands a lot from me. What more for Shirley and pastor.…leading more than 200 people!!! And inside there are so many pastoral issues that they have to personally deal with….they’re amazing!

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I went to Passion Conference last Sunday night. Honestly I was really tired, whole day being in church for all the competitions cheering and so forth. But, the conference was totally awesome.

Chris Tomlin’s worship on Sunday night had ministered to thousands (4 thousand attended the conference that night). Will the problems and storms in your life stop you from singing to God? The truth is, the overwhelming joy and confidence of victory in God only increase your desire to worship the ONE TRUE GOD all the days of your lives. Nothing can replace that, not even the deepest darkest problems. Not stress, not what people talk about you behind you….But if we allow these petty problems to stop us from singing, then God is not the ONLY One we worship nor the FIRST in our lives.

Many of us cried so much last Sunday night. The presence of God was really strong. Especially when Chris Tomlin sang…man…it was portrayed inside out that he is truly a man of God. The anointing he carried is indescribable. The atmosphere was just so full the spirit that people just naturally have visions and are restored and healed and refreshed. My mindset was that preaching of the Word can only have such a strong effect. No doubt worship can too, but it just didn't occur to me that I can experience it other than only knowing by fact. In Passion conference, not only me, but many others were ministered at the same time. Passion conference was all about being passionate for Christ. About outreach for Christian, about Christ for the non believers.

A lot of time we hear people saying, our country, our campus, our marketplace, they are all our responsibilities. Yes truly we know that. But how many of us will actually claim the city for Christ? How many of us will say, yes God I will be the salt of the earth and make You famous…then really stepping out and doing it. Or rather, we are those who at that moment of time, we were touched, so we said yes…after that, we doubt or we were too lazy to step out to do it even.

“Too radical” some would say…or maybe… “It is not my calling!”…. “I do not have the time!”….I believe all of us at some point of lives or maybe until this very day still saying this. The truth is we do not need thunder, fireballs falling from the sky and God’s audible voice to tell us that reaching out and crossing over to bring the gap closer between the living and the dead is our calling. THIS IS THE HEARBEAT OF GOD. A true Christian will know that what God desires all of us to do at the end of the day, is really mission. His desire is to restore the whole world back to their original purpose, that is to believe in Christ and be reconciled again with Him. Then what is with the denial of the responsibilities we have in Christ? I would personally say…fear….fear of not being able to do it, fear of nothing happen, fear that we might not be the one, fear that we are not good enough, fear of being criticized, fear of looking like a “holy” person, fear of investing time, fear of commitment, etc….Yes, and I am no exclusion from all these claims. 

Outreach, was the greatest thing that God has implanted in my heart this very season of my life. I remember, when I was urged to lead an outreach in my campus, I turned away from God and rejected Him, claiming that I was too busy, suspecting that it may be only my imagination. Besides, I have too many assignments, exams, too busy to plan that. Second time when God called me, I said yes this time, but with many excuses of not being able to find a room, a good support to start this whole thing. Third time when I was urged, He said this: If you don’t want to take this up, I can call somebody else. It doesn’t have to be you!

Immediately I realized how disobedient I have been, and take up the call. There and then when I decided and started planning, God showed me the possibilities of making it happen, a place to gather, the right people to support. I really do not want to miss out in what God can use my life to be part of. The week after that, few of us just gathered behind a classroom and we began praying and interceding for our campus. And the meeting stands till this very day. However, honestly, I have been discouraged big time by this outreach. I told God this:  You asked me to start an outreach, but there is no planning or ideas to go with it. What are we to do next other than praying? And still only 5 of us? How can we make any difference? It has been so long, and we are still here. It doesn’t seem like we are progressing at all. What am I suppose to do? Are we healthy spiritually? Did I hear You wrongly? Or is it I have done something wrong that I could not hear what You want me to do?

Well, this doesn’t seem biblically right I know, LOL but hey…I am human too. I know God works according to His own time, but I was desperate for something to happen.

I have been trying to twist God’s arm, wanting Him to make things happen according to my time! My way of seeing the move of God, is through the results. God’s way of moving is through mysterious ways that men cannot possibly understand. In fact this is the word that God has put in my heart since the beginning of this year…that it is not the result He is concerned about but the quality of my relationship with Him...And it just hit me that He is preparing me for this season. In Passion Conference, God asked me one question that I will never forget: Child, the outreach is not ONLY for you to reach out, but the outreach is also for you to build your trust toward Me. Will you continue waiting and keep on keeping on even when I do not move for one year, two years, five years? Or will you just stop doing everything? Will you keep on having faith in me even when all else seem hopeless and impossible and people are mocking you? The choice is yours. That night, God put in my heart two pictures to meditate on:

One of it that i find biblically significant and encouraging was this:

Jesus, leading us through the woods. Quietly, we followed behind, not uttering a word. He walked on the water. We all halted our steps not wanting to step in, being afraid. We all know the story of Peter, but we were not brave enough without the hands of God with us. Jesus turned around, reached out his hand, held ours…and said: Come…at that moment of time, we are in the midst of decision whether to step in or to say, "its ok! we are fine on dry ground." In the end we did...His grip was so secure that I personally just trusted Him. And then as I walked out I put out my hand for another person at the edge of the island uttering the same word, "COme!", and he step in too, then that person do the same to another, then another…then another…and the whole sea, was filled with people walking on the water with Christ taking lead.

As Christ has done for us, we did the same to others…that we may all cross over to the promised land and nobody is left behind. And people just follow and become Christlike. But first it takes us to be Christlike before that happening. Imagine, who will trust us when we say "come!" if we do not carry the anointing and the image of Christ. At the end of the day, the glory all goes back to Him. We are just a vessel. But we have to be willing to turn around and say "Come" before we are able to be a vessel. And even before we turn around to ask others to come, we must be the one who step into the water first! It is living a life of example! Wow...

 And it began to sink in my mind, that my family, my friends, my campus, my city, my country, my world….is truly my responsibility. And to impact the world, I have to start with the people I have first. I was in a mode of amazement, looking at the picture of Kuala Lumpur. Compassion and growing fire unbelievably began to overflow from within. And as I closed my eyes and worship I decided there and then that I will not allow disappointments to tear down this vision in my heart. No matter what it takes, I CHOOSE and DECIDE that I will not allow it to affect me.

To HUC ambassadors of Christ, let us all pray for our campus. Will we walk strong together united despite of denominations and cultures to make Christ famous? It is truly the love of the people that will spark this desire within us and the unity among us. To reach out is not a specific calling for certain people, but it is for all of us to make disciples of all nation. To be a part of God's hearbeat is a choice. It doesn’t necessary have to be through joining the outreach movement, it can be just merely a decision of wanting to reach out. But the question is will we join together and intercede for our campus? Remember…Our appointed time is ALWAYS NOW!  

Let's do it!

And to all outreach members. Do not give up! Stay strong. Let's all be FRUITCAKES for Christ.

For greater things have yet to come,

And greater things are still to be done,

In this city…

Malam ini...

Malam ini bulan mengambang....

LOL...

1. I just finished my assignments. Boy, I have not been sleeping for days! The assignment craze. My eyebags look scary

2. To release stress, me and my roommates went to Midvalley to practice "carthasis"...LOL...and we watched "Hulk" to use it as projection to release our natural tendencies to be aggressive...ahahha :P (my goodness, me and my psychology...)

3. I tried on a few nice clothes but all were too big for me. I must eat more to increase the meat on my cheeks...hrmm....and sleep more to unswell my eyes.

4. Camwhoring terribly...took so much pictures...Lazy to upload...

5. Why?...becase the post effect ot assignment is setting in....the migraine starts now.

6. Why blog? because i know my loyal friends who "secretively" peep at my bad haircut (jenny, viry :P :P :P) blog will peep again! =P hahaha...sorry ya no pictures :P

7. Blogging to make blog active

8. lalalala...

9. I am really out of coordination now. Don't know what i am talking about. Brain and body not working coherently. I am going off to bed, yes!

10. Before end, the main purpose i am blogging tonight is to announce something important. Those who constantly peep my blogs :P here here (hopefully the MINT, SMU & LU cluster leaders will read :P)...i shall share this with you:

All cluster, BEWARE!! VU shall by faith 

win once again this year!....

muahahaha!

VU....CHARGEEE!!!

- i have now announced...so VU

got no choice but to buck up ya! =D

- ok nitey nite-

Bad Haircut?! +P

I did something brave today...:) I walked into a hair salon back in hometown and asked the hairdresser to cut a new hairstyle as I was getting rather bored with the old one. And lo and behold, he did cut a new hairstyle alright!....but one that is really really shocking to me. Hahaha....reason being I asked for the thick fringe cut so that I can try seeing myself having fringe. Trusting the hairdresser who claimed that I would look good in it, I allow him to cut! But...yea...it didn't turn out as I expected...so right now, I sort of "regretted" having have my fringe cut and decided that I should keep it pinned up for the next few weeks until it grow a little longer...=D

The amazing thing is this....As I was travelling home in my brother's car today...looking out the window watching the highway cars passing by i switched into my "thinking" mode as usual driven by the mood to daydream...flashbacks and activated neurons fired rapidly laying out pictures after pictures in my head (*wow..drama =P)....I used to be so overwhelmed by bad haircuts....Each "horrible" haircut (as I assume it to be) would cause me to bug my mom or my friends....asking them the same ol' question over and over and over and over and over and over and over *gasp gasp*...and over and over and over again...."how ya? how? I look very ugly now"......."how how...howww???"

But today, having a bad haircut...(i knew it was a bad haircut because I don't look better or as good as when I was in the previous haircut)....I was amazed at the fact that it didn't bother me much. I don't ask mom questions, i don't bug people about it, instead I accepted the fact it was a bad choice, and i even laughed at how i look right now. Totally not my style...but yea...could get used to it though =D... the crazy thing is this....hahaha...i even tell a few of my close friends that I have changed my status from "hot chick" to "xiao ke ai" (little cutie)...:P:P:P:P ...my goodnesss! My roommates could not stand my overly self-proclaimed high self esteem....muahahaa...just kidding. Sometimes remarks like these help spice up conversations you see? =P...

My point is, I just felt a change in me, that I am no longer the old Hazel who used to condemn herself very much. The old Hazel felt inadequate for almost anything in life....looks, achievements, requirements, family's expectations, lifestyle...and many many more...The Hazel today, is NOT PERFECT, but is comfortable being who she is. The one thing that I realized throughout the journey thinking was that...without God, I was totally confused of who I was and who I could be.....but as I allow God to truly come into my life....things become different...I become assured of myself, I am more comfortable of the person I am made to be, and most important of all, I am not afraid to try new things and fail at it (eg. the bad haircut)...it is an amazing feeling to be able to look at the face of mistakes, laugh about it and move on...

Of course there are still moments of weakness whereby doubts and discouragements inevitably set in. Everybody, including the greatest preacher alive will have this so-called "moment of weakness"...But the differences in the strategies you employ to face these moments today, will cost your destiny tomorrow......there can be voices of condemnation trying to diffuse your attention and distract you from what is truly important, but when you guard your heart, refuse to allow yourself to be overwhelmed, you will triumph over these condemnation sooner than those who dwell and worry about it. Just like Pastor Kevin always said : Worry gives you something to do, but gets you nowhere...it is like a rocking chair....

And to overcome condemnation in life....one secret weapon you really need to have...is to know who you are meant to be, and who you are in God's eyes...and to be assured of who you are in Christ, we have to take that ONE step toward God (which will eventually lead to God taking a thousand steps toward us)....That one step is to allow God to come into your life...and know you :) ...that includes Him changing and moulding you....

The revelation I got from the retreat in Fraser's Hill during devotion. It is the word "know" standing between the word "you" and "God". There are two kinds of knowing....1. You know God...2. God knows you....To know God is to know what is His likes and dislikes as well as His desire and calling for us. To allow God to know you is to allow God to come into your life to do a new work in you that you may be Christlike and be new! The second knowing, which is God knowing us is the hardest type of "knowing" among the two as it requires rebukes, shapings, mouldings, and character building.

Funny, how a simple haircut can really lead to such a long thought and flashbacks of my life....But this also show how a simple thing like haircut can indicate changes in your walk of life. Or at least the previous reaction to a bad haircut and the recent reaction to a bad hair cut...hahaha....this is cool....I really had a wonderful journey thinking through a lot alot alot alot.....This trip back to hometown I believe is a very divine one. Not only I am able to celebrate the joining of my two very close cousins who are one of the first christians in my family (They have impacted my life alot), but this trip, I am able to really just love my mom, my dad and my brothers in a very different way. More than being a dutiful daughter, it is the joy of seeing them happy and really spending time talking to them for hours and hours...

So those who desire to see my new haircut....no way man! hahahaa...even though i have accepted the fact i have a bad haircut, i will also still try to rectify it you see? So until my hair grew longer the pin shall stay....muahhahaa....;P

In conclusion, to know God is one thing, to ALLOW God to know you, is another =)

So, the million dollar question is this. Do you want to know God? And if you already know Him, are you willing to open up yourself to allow God to know you as well? Choices are yours.

Your destiny tomorrow is the choices u make today. Be blessed!

OK! Here's the picture!!

Before

 

After

Rectified! ..yay!

=)

I just felt different after the three weeks holidays in hometown...

And especially after my subzone retreat. But in a very good way :) I believe.

The hazel before: Has no time for anything

The hazel now:

- Does her laundry regularly (in comparison to once in one or two weeks previously)

- Has timetable on her bedroom wall

- Studies regularly everyday

- Calls home three times a week

- Make her bed when she wakes up

- Has a tidy study table (haha :P)

- Is CRAZY about people ministry! (LOL...scary!)

- Gets frustrated about her phone bill

- Makes an effort to keep every relationship intact

- Sleeps at 12am, wakes up at 6am!!!!!!! (wow...this one i am amazed myself..healthy :P)

- Boils water to drink (haha :P)

- Did not leave her hairdryer and mirror on the floor after using

- Keeps her charger after charging :P

- Does not put her laptop on her bed, but on the study table!

However don't get me wrong. I have not become perfect...lol...This list...is what I have been TRYING to KEEP in practice for the past two weeks (and knew i had to deal with it for years but never had the momentum to keep it going :P). So far it is getting along quite well. But, at times i do struggle really hard to really manage all these as those bad habits have been following me for years now. But i really want to improve myself. I want to run my life well as i help others in managing their lives. So now as i multiply it here on this blog...i cannot escape but to hold myself accountable to the public. Haha...keep me in your prayers.

What i have yet try to do but i want to:

- regular exercising

- proper meal at proper time

- cut off total afternoon nap

- reading textbooks and not notes only

- cut down on my phone bill

- to love love love, spend time with people, and love love love...(haha..anna chuah and crystal low must have gotten the most loves then...)

- etc etc (cannot think of any now....however there are still some number of things i want to accomplish though)

I want to be a better me =) And truly, the subzone leader's retreat in Fraser's Hills really changed my life. I feel like the capacity of my love and desire to do what i need to do just grow to the next level. Its like an extra boost to go all out and be more courageous in every area of my life. Commiting each and every area of my life as a divine offering for God. And the instant we touch foot of the hill, I just feel an immediate urge to just change the way i have been. And i find this journey amazing...Because truly it blows my mind how just ONE NIGHT strongly encountering God can bring so much realization and changes in the way i see things ...it is really amazing...and especially at this point, i cannot slack.

I shall blog about how amazing the retreat has been in the next blog. The encounter with God was real and so strong that nobody came down from Fraser's Hill the same person as they went up. Right now, i think i have spent enough time online. So i shall see you all in the next blog ya?

Till then, i shall keep you people anticipating...hahha ~ :P *evil grins*

HOLIDAY!

Helllloooo....!!

I have been in Taiping for a lonnnggg looonnngg looonnnggg looonnngg time.....Holiday is ending soon :( Time in Taiping was limited...however i manage to squeeze in some fun and did many many crazy things. I got a new phone (yay!), I cut my hair, went to museum, and even fix braces!! woohoo....

and my dearest, wonderful, amazing, gorgeous, terrific friends, Anna and Eng Kim came to visit me in my peaceful hometown. It was a fruitful trip. I believe both Anna and Eng Kim agreed! *wink*

here are some of the crazy pictures I have taken throughout the holidays. LOL...can't believe i am posting this up!

Mangosteen

Anna the Sui Sui...

Eng Kim and the Mangosteen...

Ooo...the elephant skull

Ek & Anna

Blow...Blowwwwww...

......=_=''''.....

Ooohhh...Sepia Style

Typical big brother bully scenario!...EK, i have proof! *glares*

Happy Family!

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Yo! Meet the warrior girl beside the meriam!

And then she drives her war chariot...

leggies leggies..

oooo....oooo...oooo....oooo

The masking ladies..haik!

And not forgetting the braces chick now..

So this basically sums up my Taiping Holiday! ahaha....my braces are causing me not able to talk.....goodness...torturous....and the squarish peg thing keep coming out....wonder how am i to fix it (it's the second time!)...oh well...shall have nice smiles in few months time... i shall be grateful...weehee.e.... coming back to KL soon....so all the people out there, don't miss me and don't show any reaction when you see me ya? Except those of happiness and gratitude :P hehehe....Kidding!

Toodles~ Peace

Three Stages to a Cell Group Growth! - People Ministry -

Finally!!!! Finals is over for this semester. Now i need to pray for a good promising results =)

This weekend and the few days to come before i go back to Taiping is going to be fruitful. I have been planning time to hang out with people whom i really care about, just to catch up as my whole of last semester and i believe the semesters to come have been sooo hectic that i didn't have the time to even hang out with close friends of mine....

Last night as we were having a steamboat gathering for the east zone leader, there is something AMAZING that i have learnt from a woman of God...FELICIA CHOONG....i believe it is very good and i really want to write this down for remembrance as well as to share this with all who are currently leading a cell group, or in the quest of training to be a leader....this is really important..Day in day out we have been doing this without categorizing into proper stages...however, after learning about the clear definition of each stage to a cell group growth, things just became clearer and easier to engage:

First stage to a cell group growth:
Sowing
- These are the times that leaders keep sowing sowing and giving generally into the lives of people whether in cell a leader is leading. And the process of it is very much of the leader giving rather than mutual giving. This stage is important to build the rapport of the leader (to know whether this is the leader whose vision you can run together with, and to know the characteristics of a leader), and also for the people who are being led to draw, learn and at the same time understand the whole big picture of what the leader is striving to achieve.

Second stage:
Growth
- This is the time whereby discipleship is done super actively. The leader began to impact the lives of the core members, to go into each and every person's life (people ministry) get their hands dirty, rebuke, moulding, investing. At this time, the crucial thing is about building the lives of EACH and EVERY person and building personal relationship with the sheeps...whereby the person whom you invest your time into will learn about the expectations you have for each and everyone of them, know you more personally rather than just a brief character of a leader, and to understand the depths of the intention of your heart in everything you do for them and for the vision. At this point of time, there will be a lot of people dropping out, and coming up strong. Those who drop out are those who are unable to run the vision that the leader had have and gave up. Those who came up stronger and blossom are those who are really eager to run the vision and want to keep continue growing...Truly only those with strong character can end the race well.

Third stage:
Harvest
- During this time, those you have been building and staying strong with you have been so impacted that they are beginning to be empowered to impact the lives of others in order to continue running the vision you have planted into their hearts (naturally bringing in more friends to be impacted). In cell group context this is where the people begin to pour in and multiply. In other leadership context, this is when your leadership begin to be so influential that people not only just recognize your works, but at the same time, they are eager to be part of the work you are doing so that they can run your vision as well...

Learning these few stages have really got me thinking about the place where my cell and other people ministry groups i am leading are at right now. And truly understanding the stage of where you are at allow you to be able identify the needs as well as knowing what to do and how to deal with things. And despite of all that could have happen, the knowledge of the stages of growth of the group we are leading is able to help us to stay strong, focus and unshaken in the midst of circumstances. However, there is nothing as rigid as one stage after another. The overlapping of any stages are really for the leader to discern and identify.

This have been a fruitful weekend for me. I learnt a lot and in fact it is so much more easier to draw and learn especially when I am more relaxed right now...haha....after all, finals had ended! And time to focus on the restructuring of the other things which are crucial in my life. Like pastor always say, whatever you focus on will grow! In this season of my life, apart from my studies, which is my crucial priority to God, myself, my future and my family....the other most important thing i need to focus on right now are these growths! The rest of the other things shall has its own place and time to be considered important at other points of my life. I really want to learn the many ways i can really use in engaging the people ministry. If you have any idea...feel free to contribute! :) It will really really be an honor for me to learn! :)

Freedom of choice (Easter)

As i watch the easter drama being played in church services over and over again, my mind began to race and ponder upon my life. How far have I run, and how much have i become more like Christ. Last weekend has truly been a season of breakthrough for me. I just felt like a totally renewed person after everything. Truly easter is not just a day to remember what Christ did on the cross, nor it is the ONLY time for us to bring our friends to learn the message of easter and get saved. Easter, is also a day for you and I as christians to be changed and transformed if you allow the Word of God to speak to you. Easter is a message of a LOVE so strong...that it shows the desire of God wanting more than just a salvation! Above our salvation,...our RELATIONSHIP with God means the world to Him.

As I broke through in certain areas, I began to see everything else around me in a very different perspective....and the feeling of being able to be a little bit more like Jesus and a little bit less like myself was really awesome. However, my breakthrough had brought me into greater tests in life. I can be honest with all of you that I am pure human and my heart breaks at things that intended to hurt me. But as i woke up to a fresh start this morning, there is a sudden realization that i really felt a need to blog it down. I hope it would be an encouragement to all who would be reading this. Christianity is not a bed of roses, but an assured victorious relationship at the end of the race. Yes....there are many times when you had decided that you want to do something because you love God, or you want to change in your certain areas (those are all breakthroughs, because you CHOOSE to step out)...then out of nowhere, all the trials and testings come throwing themselves at you.

A lot of times we are so eager to keep walking and running after God because times are good, blessings are in abundance. But what about those times when we are opposed for the cause of God? Will we still walk on strong and fix our eyes on the assured victory at the end of the race....or we prefer to walk on paths that will only gives us pleasure at that point of time. Friends, victory with God is eternity...but pleasures are momentary...will you keep running when all that you do is just running in circles and circles of unending road? will you keep going when going seems like the hardest thing to do? will you keep on believing even when things seem unbelievable...will you still trust when all else around u turn their backs against u...will u still stand strong, even when everyone around you wud understand if you fell....CHOICES are yours really. It is the gift of freedom that allow you to choose who you want to be. The choice to keep walking forward and be happy no matter what, does not require much of you except a decision to be what you want or need to be.... knowing that things will turn out alright for you no matter what. However, this decision requires your faith and your courage to work hand in hand in the phase of yielding the response.

the message of easter is not only about God becoming man dying on the cross for us so that we can receive salvation.The message of easter is about God loving us so much, that He gave us choice to choose...and He cares so much about us havin a relationship with Him. The message of easter is not only for those who are unsaved....but for you and i.........True enough, pressing on during tough times would seem like the hardest thing to do even when you realize how much God loves you...but truly God is not concern about the results of the things you achieve...but rather your JOURNEY as you walk on with Him. Will you still press on with God in good and also bad times? Choose for yourselves what matters most to you? The instant result? or the journey with Christ....For, to those who require much, much more is required of him.

It is never true when people say you are MADE to be the way you are...These are the words of those who are never brave enough to step out and be different in the face of circumstances...I never believe in fate. Truth is, you are who you CHOOSE to be. We can change our own destiny. And understanding this truth, will truly change your life.

So who do you want to be? CHOICES are yours =) Seize it! "Your calling is through the act of your hands."

Revelations PAT MESITI CONFERENCE

Pastor Pat Mesiti's Conference has really been changing lives. Sometimes to me it is scary in a good way to go to conferences like these. I would feel afraid to go because  know at the end of the day i will end up feeling SUPER CHALLENGED....but yet at the same time i really want that challenge to come. And no doubt about it, the conference had left me dumbfounded and stunned. Words cannot describe the things God spoke to me when Pastor Pat was preaching. A lot of people received words and prophesy from pastor himself as well. Some people actually told me that they wished to have someone prophesying over their lives. it was cool....I used to think that too...But then I realized that the best way is always to hear from God Himself if possible. Wouldn't it be better to hear from God directly rather than to hear from the man of God, the channel? What Shirley taught me was that each time a person receive a prophesy, there are 3 reasons. 1. The person cannot hear from God directly (meaning no relationship with God), 2. The person needs encouragement, 3. The person needs confirmation...So it is always best to hear from God yourselves.

And as Pastor Pat was preaching and the presence of God on Monday and Tuesday night was moving so greatly across the congregation. It was unspeakably amazing....i received a strong word of revelation and vision from God Himself. Words that i have sometimes tried to ignore (in fear of the expectations required of me). However, this time I cannot and must not leave it be....i have chosen to receive the challenge, be bold and courageous...and step out in faith. So this is my covenant today....

and these dates are to be remembered always!

Monday, 10.3.2008 - Receive

Tuesday, 11.3.2008 - Confirmation 

Wednesday, 12.3.2008 - More mind boggling confirmation through another unexpected person.

Pastor Pat's conference have been full of challenge and goosebumps to me...A good way to push me forward to kick off the rest of the year. However, one thing that was really revealed to me this season was this. Like Pastor Kevin said, a lot of time, we go receive a good preaching, attend a good conference...coming home all charged up....received the word from God...But after awhile, fear creeps in and we began wondering if it is real or if it is really us that God is speaking to...then we abandon God's vision for us and just walk away. Alot of times we are overwhelmed by circumstances and began to lose faith halfway through....but this is the thought that have struck me when i was speaking to "Rev. Dr. Neoh" (ahhahaa) that Monday....was that...callings and visions from God are not forced upon us. We are still the ones making the choice whether we want to carry the torch and run the vision, or turn away and live a normal life. Choices are ours really. But then again, God is not hard up for us to respond to Him. If we don't want to, God can CALL SOMEONE ELSE who are more willing to run the vision.

This really struck me HARD. I was thinking to myself that night. If God calls a person and that person does not want to respond it is really not God's lost but rather that person's lost..because he or she is unable to move to the level that God wanted him or her to....Even Pastor Kong as so i heard...was not the first person that God called. God called someone else before Pastor Kong to start a church like City Harvest. Pastor Kong was God's plan B...but he responded....now today...look at how City Harvest has grown and impacted people in the world? And how Pastor Kong has grown in pursuing his calling and vision. Truly....God's calling is to no avail, for our benefit and not His. He is truly not the respector of men, but respector of principles. And the principles of God no doubt has everything to do with the magic substance word, called FAITH. Think about it and ponder this through....

Are you willing to be BOLD and COURAGEOUS, STEP OUT with faith as God calls? =)

Stressed~

Well, midterm is officially OVER today! And i am in the library happily celebrating and blogging (due to the fact that there is no more internet line at home...sigh)...but well, don't be fooled! The ending of midterm is only the beginning of a more stressful time! With tons and tons of college projects, community services...etc etc etc....busy busy busy!

So sorry for the long "silence" in my blog. I think i need 30 hours a day to get everything accomplished. Oh well...even though times are stressful but i am glad that i have something to do...and at the same time it has been a good stretch for me...Learnt so many things! So turn to your neighbor and say...stress is good! However do learn to regulate your stress. Else according to the psychology book which i studied...too much stress will cause a certain hormone called cortisol to be released and then it will cause your health to deterioriate due to the fact that your body is always on the verge of "flight and fight" response (stress is an indication of the need to fight for something...so energy in the body will only be concentrated on gettting your body ready to fight and ignore your health!)

LOL...i don't know why i did it again...but yah...there i go again with my confusing psychological theories and yaddaa yadaaa yadaa...anyway i am happy! wee~~ cause at least i felt like i have completed my midterms. Sense of relief.. Hence, the blog! hahahaha....

a quote for all of you to ponder on when you are under any circumstances (be it stresses or any psychological or physiological torments you are going through):

IF IT DOESN'T KILL YOU, IT ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER!

and that...applies to almost anything! Toodles!~

Girls Night OUT!!

On January 21st, a wonderful morning with nothing much to do...So i put myself into the "hardworking" mode in begin completing my data entry (after warnings from Shi Yun that she will finish it for me if i don't finish it =P)....So Monday was a good day, to sleep a lot....and do alot of work...the previous night we roomies had planned to go to midvalley so that we can do some grocery shoppings and save up on food...(theresa being the cooker, and we all the dish washers =P )....so yup....i was thinking if i couldn't finish my data entry i will not join them for grocery shopping...But as the clock strike 1pm, data entries had already gotten into my nerves! ARGHH...i have been sitting on my bed the whole day keying in datas...and my butt are beginning to feel the sore from sitting too long....changing positions didn't help much, in turn it causes me to have backache now!...laaa......and as I was grumbling to myself about the amount of work to be done...suddenly there was a moment of enlightenment..."aha"....said my mind...."let's go midvalley and walk a little while..after all the four walls of the room had begun to square my mind"....(LOL, is there such a word as  "square my mind?")...ANYWAY.....my two other roomies reinforce my decision when they opted to get out of the squarish room to do grocery shopping in midvalley....so yup! we decided we MUST go!!!....and then....after waited for MISS LONG SHI YUN to come home, we begun our journey by walking out from our house at 7pm, reached the bus stop, and waited for the taxi...but MISS LONG insisted that she wanted taxi and it wouldn't cost that much anyway....so i gave in to her... (so long as it is within my daily budget :P)....so yup we headed for Mid Valley....and tadaaa......here are some beautiful pictures we had taken in Mid Valley....we should do that more often, eh roomies darlings? *nod nod nod*

Outside Dominoes, as a guy was trying to promote some personal pizza for RM5, with rough gruffy voice and a big papan across his chest:

Hazel: Psst....let's purposely take picture with him la....we might make his day :P *grins micheviously*

Theresa: Don't want laahh!!!....so kesian him already he had to do such thing in public....don't kacau him la

Shi Yun: Yalor...i also feel kesian for him...

Hazel: lerr.....okie lor...

Yeeling: *stares blankly into space*

*ki chiak*...in front of the Dominoe's guy also waaattt...=P

 

Let's puff up....*puff puff*

 

Aa...now we look more like one happy fishy family...muahahaha..(*show L sign and glares*)

So after some walking and some lingering around the shopping mall, we decided to stuff our tummy with some food from TAI YAN CHAN TENG!!

 

ooooo....look at those delicious kicap mee!!!!..Even my eyebags scream for joy. Picture above, from left, Yun, Hazel and eyebags

 

Now look at these two monsters eating all the food on the table!!!! and even finished up our portions of food....tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk....*shakes head*...

(p/s: tsk tsk tsk is the sound made by the cicak, usually made by human when they are shaking heads...sign of slight disaapointment)

 

After filling our tummy with abundance of food....we decided to have a group hug, as meshing our fats together equals to killing our fats! yeaa!!!! KILL KILL KILL...DESTROY!!!

(P/s:WARNING! When women come together to kill fats..DON'T ever try talking them out of it)

 

Now akibat overeating....yeeling becomes........ :P....don't kill me if u see this k? i still love you...heeeee.....weeeeee~~~

 

And Everybody loves hazel....*ki chiak* ..*waves*...thank you thank you!

 

Then the story stops for some personal shootings... Theresa and AH LONG

 

AH LONG and Yeeling

 

And we are back to the meshing fats business...

 

Mesh mesh mesh....mesh more mesh more!

 

Yeeling: I love you!!!.....

 Theresa: Huik!!!...Hi, I am Theresa and I love the camera!! *grins* 

 

Yeeling: Look up man...there's a cow jumping over the moon!!!!!!

 Everyone: *ignores*...camera more important now....*Teehee*

And so, as we move on to do our grocery shoppings, AH LONG decided that we should take some cool pictures....

Shi Yun: Szee...we take cool pictures k?

Hazel: Orr....*nod nod*

Shi Yun: WHAT LAA....i said COOLLLLL!!!!!!!! 

 Hazel: Ok ok...sorry boss!

 

Hazel: I thought you say COOOLLLL!!!!??!!?!?!!!!......

 Shi Yun : Heeeeeee....nerrrr =P

 

Finally!!!!!!!...and we thought that the mandarin oranges would bring up the "cool" atmosphere 

 

Hi! Greetings from Spongebob and Patrick from Bikini Bottom!

 

Uhh...and as we were doing our grocery shopping...we spotted one aunty trying to steal lemonss!!! CHARGEEE!!!!

 

Oh Yeeling rupanye....

Yeeling: Hi! Before you take my picture, how do you think i should pose? Do you think i will look better with lemons on my right hand or on my left hand....if it is on my right.....yadaaa yadaaaa

(*snaps*)

teehee.....ok yeeling is so gonna kill me for this :P but i still love you

 

Oh my goodness....can you imagine??? the watermelon is even bigger than AH LONG's head!!!  *gasp*

 

Hazel: LONG...where do you think Yeeling is ya? 

 Shi Yun: Hrmm.....could she be hiding under that pile of watermelons...let's search!

Hazel: *glares* =_="""

 

Hazel: Yeeling left her trolley...Let's search for her in the toiletry section....*screams* YEELINGGG....where are you?!

Theresa: *looks at camera* Hi! I am Theresa....snap me snap me! =P

 

Hazel: Let's find Yeeling and make her push us while we sit in this trolley!

Shi Yun: Agreed!

 

Hazel: YEELINGG...where are you? I want my yogurt drink!!

Shi Yun: *ignores* I think this is a good position don't you think so?

Theresa: Ya ya...a little more to the right...yup!

 

Hazel: *gasp* Could it be possible that Yeeling has been toilet-papered!!!*screams* YEEELINNGG.....

Theresa: =_=""""" *speechless*

 

And ignoring my quest of searching for Yeeling, they continued taking more pictures....sigh...mean people...Now, Yeeling you know who love you more :P *teehee*

 

Hazel: oh where oh where could my yeeling be?

 

Hazel: I want yeeling!!!!!!!

And so finally when we found yeeling, we have the sudden urge of ditching our grocery shopping and go for real shopping..And true enough, we stopped grocery shopping and begin venturing to the clothing section...WEEEE~~~~ and the chinese new year songs there were so uplifting! and encouraging....buy buy buy!!!

 

Hazel: Shi Yun....i found Yeeling *teehee*

Shi Yun: Ah...Shaddupp lerrr....

 

Hazel: You think this is a good spot, LONG?

Shi Yun: YAP! no doubt bout that!

And after probably an hour of shopping, and the shops begin closing, we decided that it was time to head home...and in the bus.....

*snores*

 

Now now...we have a fruitful trip, didn't we? I mean look at the amount and quality of pictures we have taken!!....not forgetting two shirts....two shirts!!!

 

And the beauties head toward the LRT station

 

I think this is when LONG SHI YUN tripped =P

Shi Yun: Call me hot chick!

Hazel: *stares*

 

Yeeling: Don't I look adorable?

Everybody: Awww.....

Theresa: Eh, Camera! You caught me again....=D

 

Now kelepakan di LRT Bangsar...

 

And more poses.....we are the four angels!

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Now LONG had a very good idea...of taking a series of pictures of same expression....it is called xi, nook, ai, le (mandarin)

Take 1: Xi (mild happiness)

 

Take 2: Xi (mild happiness)

 

Take 1: Nook! (anger)

 

Take 2: Nook! (anger)

 

 

Ai (depressed)

 

Le! (extreme happiness)

 

And this pretty much sums up our girls' night out...the initial plan of grocery shopping ended up with lots and lots of picture takings and clothes shopping.....
*teehee*

it was really fun though...let's do it again, roomies!!...=D..... and before i end, i would like to say.....i heart you all deep deep!!! MWAH!!!.....roomies rawks! if you don't have any, get one today! =P

much love,