Friday, October 14, 2011

What Faith Can Do

Everybody falls sometimes,
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes, to make a new beginning .... :)


For the past one year, so many things had happened. Today as I was doing my devotion, I realized how far I have come this one year. Further than all my christian years added together.

I treat my family different, I approach my leaders, my members, my situation, my workplace...everything becomes different. My worldview, my perspective changes. And I began to realize, I can let go bit by bit, what I WANT what I NEED in life....and began to let others have what they need, what they want first. Not always successful of course. But something just changes in my heart. Supernaturally beyond words.

In my Christian walk, it is never an easy one. I am not talking about the persecution or the taunting, but the battle within self that is the toughest. The habits, the stubbornness, the ego, the certain thing you always feel you shouldn't give in....in this walk, you have to give it all away. For a good cause of course.

But each time, a situation challenges us to do something more, something of the unfamiliar, something of discomfort to our natural habits, we are scared to death, we squirm, we whimp....but then, the moment a step is taken, everything becomes easy, everything is taken care of.

All these while, the "aftermath" I often expect after I took a step of faith, is never as bad as I have always imagined. Every single time, things are taken care of. How can I then deny, that my God will not take care of me? Surely enough each step I take, He was there with me...

Today, after this one year of moulding God has done to prepare me for the next phase of my life...I have learned to give, to love, to forgive, to step back, to submit, to honor, to let go, to be less legalistic, more gracious, more loving, more balanced...more excellent.

In this chapter, I have many ups, many downs, many regrets, many lessons, many blessings, many heartaches and pain... much more accomplished from here, I have gained many insights, revelations, and much courage to be bold, to live like there's nothing lose. Still a lot to improve of course, but I am getting there.

It is in this chapter, that I experienced true brokenness, where the situation forces you to either be broken and give it all to God, trusting Him and living for Him alone...not for your self.....OR, I choose to let go of God, let go of all these crazy stuff I need to deal with and go through, and just live for my self.

It is in this chapter of my life, I have learned, that I am totally far....far off....very very far, from perfection. And precisely because of this, I cannot live without God. I wouldn't have the stamina, strength, and courage without Him. I am grateful that I went through all I need to go through. I couldn't thank God enough for seeing me fit for the test. I want to keep going....but this time, hand in hand....with my Daddy in heaven :)

You...you who are reading this...

Don't you give up now...
The sun will soon be shining :)




Even when you fall sometimes, You gotta find that strength to rise...
Just keep believing. You can never imagine, what FAITH can do =)

Love always.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Rock of Ages

I read Isaiah 26:4 today. The word "Rock of Ages" jumped at me (related to Verse 4).

What does it mean?

Then it sinked in. Rock of Ages...
Rock is something that does not rot nor decay.
Rock is firm
Rock is hard
Rock is the foundation to many buildings, and to many building materials.

Rock signifies strength
Rock signifies dependability
Rock signifies solidness
Rock signifies an anchor

Rock of ages is our God.
Our strength, our hope
Our foundation, our truth
Our anchor, our root

One we can depend throughout all ages
One we can trust for the rest of our lives...
Yesterday, today and tomorrow.

MY ROCK OF AGES....ROCKS!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Live Like There's Nothing to Lose

The news just declared today, that Steve Jobs passed away...
The man who made APPLE famous in the world, and change the world's view on technology advancement...

These are his words that gave me an impact today:
Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose...

Living like there's nothing to lose...

Recently in my life, there has been a lot of experiences that brought me to a cross road.  - to stay safe, or to risk it all.

Those who knows me well, know that I am a terrible worrier, afraid to take risk, calculative of my gains, and fearful of the unknown. These two months, God had really pushed and taught me what it means to STEP OUT and live like there's nothing lose.

I am proud to say...even though I am not perfect, and compare to many others I am totally far out of line. But I have given my best, and I have risk it all the best I know how. I have begun to understand what it means to conquer my fears, rather than letting them conquer me.

I invested, loved, given, embraced, cared less about persecutions, embarassment, being accepted.
Toward my family especially, my friends, my leaders, my members, my career...

Even though the return is one that is unexpected, not enough or negative. I am no longer bounded by the fear of those results.

Now, in preparation to step out beyond the familiar circle....to the strangers on the streets, the needy, the hurt. Gotta really prepare my heart for that. I am ONE step closer.

Live like there's nothing to lose. You will never know if you ever lived to see the sunrise tomorrow :)

Signing off. With love.