I really want to be a lovesick worshipper of God. A sold-out lover. That's all I want to be :)
I do not need anything else in life. I know when I am first a sold out lover, everything will fall into place. Including what compels me for His cause, the calling He has for me, the destiny He placed in my life...every single details will be taken care of when I just worship Him and Him alone...
I have been in a very different season this past few weeks. Things happened very quickly....Like there is a tunnel of fastforward or something that I have entered. So many things changed. And I am overwhelmed by His goodness and Him pampering me.....And in this moment of my life, I was challenged to build my fundamentals strong. In the Word of God, to be strengthen in the foundations that build me, and to take care of simple and the fundamental of things like house chores, health. Still getting there...but Daddy loves me so much to send so many people into my life who is assisting me and reminding me to take care of all these too.....Really, so so loved.
What did I do different? Nothing. I just loved Him and became crazy in love with Him.
And even when I am suppose to be worried for something, my heart just CANNOT get worried. There is always this permanent peace I am feeling. And it is so cool!!! Love my Daddy!!
I just had a break, and so this break I did many things. I went back hometown, helped out mom with some chores, go home to love my nephew who is in his terrible two (tough love). Haha. And many more.
But one highlight I experienced back in hometown was a worship session that I had alone in my room. It was in the morning, still in my pajamas and smelly breath, hahaha....I locked my room door, on a worship song and plug in an earphone (I cannot play it out loud, parents wouldn't really like it as they are not yet believers), and then I sang from my heart in muted voice...hahaha
And I told God....Daddy, I want to just be like a child to you....I want to come to You like Your little girl...and God said: Yea...then do what you would do as My little girl....and so I did...I began to dance with my Daddy on tip toe..hands reached up high....And at a point...I began twirling and twirling and twirling .....And then I began to sob and weep.....His love was so overwhelming...as though He is telling me....I love it when you do that....I love you so much my little girl...Daddy wants to hold you.....
And I was just crying and crying and crying.
Then it came to choir camp....I just felt so compelled to share about the Heart of the Father. I told the small little number of choir members how God pursues their hearts since the very beginning....and to challenge them to pursue His heart....so we went into an amazing soaking session of worship. So many miracles happened. Healing, joy of laughter, tears, word of knowledge, word of encouragement, revelation....God just showed up! Again He said this....I love it when my children come just to love me. Come as they are. No need to strive :)
And I went to cell group preaching the same message. And then went into a time of worship.....again everyone was compelled by His love....
And what really touched my heart is that, people finally understood.....and they began to carry that heart to love...and began to go love other people as well. They began to understand what being Daddy's child mean. I have a choir member who began to pray for healing for people. And healing happened. He began understanding the authority he can command. Another cell group member who began to talk to Daddy like His little girl....she said she was just telling God how good if there's some rain in this very hot day...and the weather just turned suddenly....rain happened...and she felt so pampered by God.
I am just so happy. I don't need people to thank me for a good message. I really don't. I just want them to know how much Daddy loves them....I really really want the world to know.
So if you are reading this...can I tell you, Daddy has been pursuing your heart even when you didn't know Him, even when you hated Him, even when you don't feel fit, even when you are far off.....even when you are a prodigal son, even when you have done a lot of bad things.....He has been pursuing you. And he isn't gonna judge you. He is gonna love you and shower you with His overwhelming love....
Would you pursue His too? Be His silly son or daughter before Him? Be lovesick for Him?
You are sons and daughters of the MOST HIGH KING. That is a lot of pampering. Heaven's pampering you will be receiving! And that is a lot of authority you can command. Heaven's authority.
I wish you see what I see. Because when you see that.....you experience TRUE FREEDOM :)
Just worshipped yesterday, and I thank Daddy for all that He has given me. Because He took care of everything. EVERYTHING. Every single thing. My family, my finances, my future....all was truly crafted in His perfect plan. I have never seen so much so much so much of His fingerprints and footprints in so many events of my life.....but these days, I have been overwhelmed by the overflowing markings of God.
I am really pampered. I am really loved.
Wouldn't you want to see that too? Go be crazy in love :))
He is crazily in love with you ~
