Random Rants of Psychology

Officially the most hectic week of my life. A lot of major assignments due this coming week.

But on the contrary, I am thankful that God showed me many things this week. Showed me that the coming days are gonna be exciting, shown me that there are things forming even in church...and that things are all within His hands, everything in control.....and that nobody needs to give up anything.

Good things come to those who waits.

I am also thankful that this week, my lecturer spoke about how as therapists, eventually we will not be satisfied with just individual therapies. Because we begin to realize that the bigger picture affect the individual. Hence the involvement in family therapy, eventually community, and eventually nations.

I am blown away that clinical psychology can actually go to the extent of nations. I mean I know that psychologists are needed for nation work, but never occur to me clinical psychologist. Because dealing with trafficked victims, relief work, forensics, even conflict management between nations...all comes under the umbrella of clinical psychology.

So suddenly the puzzle is pieced together. I answered to God's question...to what extent you want to love....and not realizing how vast this field can be. Attaining this knowledge is just the first step. From there forward, there are many ways I could go. But I am going to cling close to Jesus. Wherever He leads, wherever His will is....there is the best place to be.

Like this clinical psychology....honestly I am dreading and dragging my feet now...having difficulties finishing my assignments and finding researches. Yet at the same time, it feels complete even in the midst of all these worries....because I know I am in His will...

And precisely because of that....I should never give up.

Ok, enough of time dragging and sulking. Haha! Time to go back to work....
For His Kingdom.

Galatians 2:20....remember, Hazel.

Happy Valentine's Day, Hazel! ^^

AAAAAAAAAAAA........
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...*takes deep breath* ....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Hahaha....! What an undignified way to start a blog.....NONETHELESS!

Let me tell you what's with all ze screamingzz......oh boy oh boy oh boy, I have been skipping around (inside my little mind of course...can't possibly do that in public) since last night. Because, I really cannot contain these miracles that God has placed in my life....like.....oh Lord, You to love me so extravagantly....REALLY!! You surely know how to spoil a girl, aye? *grins*

So, why am I here going all bonkers writing this blog when my assignments (final presentation for one of the class to be exact) is due in like 2 days? Cos I really cannot contain. Haha! Write first, regret later.

No, I am not engaged. Neither am I attached. But....I am drenched with the love of my LOVER


So recently Shirley and David has been eyeing on this conference called....Kingdom Invasion. Boy, I was dying to go. But you know....students now....classes, assignments etc...what are the odds I can join right? But I am dying to go....so how?

Miracle #1
I went and check the dates....
Man...I checked 5 times, because I cannot believe my eyes. That week....JUST THAT WEEK.....no assignment due (except the weekly one), and no classes Wednesday onwards. Wah.....ok...

So, then I began declaring to everyone I am going to Singapore, but only for night session. Morning session need to be paid...so I just thought, its ok as long as I can go night session...its worth it. The trip is worth it. Mind you morning session is about RM500....and I am already paying for my flight and expenses....so....okla...be contented.

So on valentine's day I made a prayer like this:

And in my lovey dovey moment with God, I posted this facebook status whereby I evoked some concern among caring people....stating that I seem to be staying single forever. LOL....don't worry....I am just in love, ok? I want to have a family still. No question. Being a mama, psycho-ing my child, nagging em and smooching them with kisses have never ONCE escape my mind.

So in reciprocation of my lovey dovey-ness with my Daddy King and Lover of my soul, He gave me the best Valentine's gift ever!

So....yesterday, I had a God appointment. I was suppose to go for a facial appointment with Miss Shaboon. Ended up she couldn't make it on time, I cancelled it and had dinner plans with some other friends.


Miracle #2
So these amazing friends...as we were talking about Kingdom Invasion, one of them realized I was not going to the morning sessions because I couldn't afford. With all my heart I never thought sharing this would mean someone is gonna bless me. In all honesty (repent) I never imagined anyone around my age would afford such a big sum, let alone for the person himself and me! So..... yes, I shared...and guess what....conference fee.... PAID FOR IN FULL....

No, it is not installment. No....it is not borrowing. It is a GIFT. AAAAAAA......
So my friend said this:

Friend 1: Why don't you want to join the morning session?
Me: Aiya....not enough money leh. Quite pricey. Student already ma. It's ok la...night session is good enough.
Friend 1: Hmm....why not you just come. I will pay for you
Me: WHAT?!?! You mean pay FOR me? as in...
Friend 1: As in I pay for you la. You just come its a gift
Me: OMG!! Are you serious?????? REallyyy????? OMG I just prayed about this. Are you serious?? *drama berama*
Friend 1: Ya la.....I invest into you. In turn, you multiply 20 more cell groups....quite a good return right? Haha
Me: ........(omg omg omg omg)

Ok....the 20 cell groups is just a joke ok? That would be too high a KPI. hahaha. But my gosh.....Someone would invest into my life!!! And no, this is not a leader.....but a friend!! I finally understood what it means when the missing pillars of Christianity begin redeeming and loving themselves....people around them (like me) get blessed and loved....

oh...*Cries*

p/s: the person refused to be identified. So in order to protect ze identity, I have excluded the name from the screenshot.

I was about to burst in tears! But...ahem...poised you know? So suck it all in.....a girl's got to look elegant.....As if this wasn't enough..... here comes the next amazing news...



Miracle #3
Friend 2: Hazel...you know what. hearing what Friend 1 said....I too felt like I want to invest into your life...you know....20 cell groups...really worthwhile investment
Me: 20 cell groups....oh my....you both are not really expecting that right
Friend 2: Haha...nola we just really want to bless you. For that, your flight ticket...is ON ME :)
Me: .....(speechless)

p/s: Again...the humble people in my life....refused to be identified. So in order to protect ze identity, I also have excluded the name from the screenshot.

So, I began looking down and wiping tears from the corner of my eyes (oh no...not so elegant now, aye?....LOL)...

This is inssaneeeee!!!!! Me? Me!!!.....

After the many "Are you suresss" and "reallysss" these two miracles came to pass right today. The two amazing miracle workers not only decide to bless me, but pester me to give details and whatnot so they could make necessary arrangements and purchases. Everything paid. Conference fee. Flight ticket. Period. Now....I just need to save up for expenses and pack my bag....




Miracle #4
So I quickly text Shirley to see if I can still join the group registration. Because group registration means I can get to tap on cheaper conference fee. I know now that things are paid for I shouldn't be so kiasu...but hello.....I also want to "love" the "pockets" of my "blessers" bah.....hard-earned money leh!

God cannot be anymore good. Shirley hasn't register for the group yet!! Reason being is because she felt there will be more joining us. So she wanted to wait till this week before she finally register for the group.

Hohohoho......

Happy Valentine's Day to me! From my beloved Daddy, King and Bridegroom....I am SO IN LOVE LAH...!!

This year's Valentine's  has indeed become so much more meaningful with Him. Enjoyed every single moment of the Valentine week much in so many different ways. Must be all Daddy ^^
Oh here goes the pampered little girl twirling and jumping for joy.


So here is to my dearest Daddy and best Lover of my entire being,

How can You be so undescribably beautiful and amazing like that? How can I deny Your love for me? SO EXTRAVAGANT....So pampered, favored and loved. Thank You for loving me, this tiny weenie whiny lil girl like that. Thank You for letting me know that, it doesn't need a lot of yearning, begging, crying, throwing tantrums...It's never always about what I did, what I need....but it's about You wanting me to have the best of everything. You don't just give....You SHOWER. So now I am all wet. Hahaha! I love You so so so so so so much.....And I want to sing and dance just for You all day long......teehee...OK? ....

Oh....I am loved :')
Thank You. *A Kiss to heaven*