Doing it Right!

I learned a really really valuable lesson today. Last night, as I was challenging my member to do the right thing, the morning, I was faced with the dilemma of doing what is right but could possibly jeopardize the trust of another person, or keep the trust, and just ignore doing the right thing. Then I repeatedly questioned myself, if I was in the position of advising a member, what would I have asked him or her to do?

Then immediately, I decided, I wanted to do the right thing. Regardless of the consequences, I just want to live up to my words, and also because I truly truly want one thing only. That my focus would be God. Doing His will, doing what pleases Him. Not the world. Not an easy decision, as I would honestly admit that the moment it was done, there were so many things running through my mind. Negative consequences, and what possibly would happen.

Then, I suddenly was reminded by my member, telling me that he could not bear the thought of his future. And it struck me like a rebuke. Immediately I texted a best friend, and I prayed. God spoke one thing to me: "Hazel, it is no longer about whether people would understand or not, it is about doing the right thing. Your focus is Me, and nothing else." Right then, I just felt peace, I moved on and I was happy. Liberated that I have done the right thing, and I no longer want to allow whatever thoughts to make me worry about something that has not even happen. Or rather, worry about things that should not even affect me. I just find peace that I have done the right thing. And that's it. No burdens!

I was very happy with my new found peace. Few hours later, I received a call from a person, and find that everything was totally awesome. My suspicion of negative reactions of consequences were way pass behind. God made it all happen for good. The person was blessed, I was blessed. I felt so much better that I was not just a kisser, but I did what was necessary for a good cause. Then, minutes later, I received a call from my member. He told me he did the right thing, and it turned out well too.

That moment, I felt the presence of God overwhelming me. It was an assuring feeling that doing the right thing can never go wrong. That I have lived up to what I preached. That He always have my back. Even though if it is a risk, even though others may not understand...But when you choose to act beyond your emotions, beyond your imagination, beyond your perception of how the consequences would be, beyond what you can comprehend....(JUST DO IT RIGHT)....and when your focus is right, it all turned out just so amazingly well.

Truly, I emphasize, it is not always comfortable, easy or popular to do the right thing. But when you choose to do it despite of the risk you are putting yourself into, you will never regret it. Because you rest in the fact, that you have done what is necessary, and you have done the will of God. No burdens....=)

God is so amazing. I love life, and I love learning so much about all these. I may make mistakes at times, but I m really enjoying this journey so much. I can't wait to see what He has in store for me in times to come. And most of all, I want to fall in love with Him...again and again.

Learning to Surrender

A baby step at a time.

Learning to surrender totally, knowing that my future will be taken care of.

Doing what I can on my part, and letting go what I cannot hold on to.

Humbling myself....shedding off the worries.

Finding rest in the place I surrender.... =)

Feels awesome!

Journey of E30 and E45

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Another song!

Entitled: Closer

Inspired by Min-ie Choong through a telephone call.


Uuhh...ooohh...and I am graduating soon! YipeeeEEee!! May not be one of the best students nor the creamsss of the crop, but I am satisfied with the results I get. Goal achieved! One of 2009 resolution ACCOMPLISHED! Yeah! =))))

Transition Period & Missing you missing me!

Past few weeks till the very day, I have received many messages and posts about my members missing me. So to E30 and E45, just so you guys know, I miss all of  you very very very much as well. You guys are like family to me. 2010 is a bigger journey for all of us. So sad beginning of this year I am unable to be there to experience the heat together. But, I believe you guys can feel my 'kerinduan' from afar. Haha. And I have heard so many stories, breakthroughs, passions and fire about all of you. I m really really proud of how all of you have grown.

Thank you guys, for always sustaining me, running my vision, and making things happen. I truly truly appreciate you guys so so much. *sobs*

Truly the best is yet to come, amen? 2010 we are going to penetrate new areas and do greater things for God.

Currently in hometown, and I love being at home. So relaxed, so taken care of, and prone to laziness...hahaha....However, this holiday, I have learned so much, that I believed it is preparing me for the next season. I have gone through things here, as well as have many realisations. Like I always say, I love holidays. It is these times that I am not occupied by too many things, and are able to draw near to God.

I have also been preparing myself for a transition season to the working world, working life. Cannot be not disciplined anymore. Need to sleep early. Have to learn to manage finances even more now, since I am already taking full responsibilities of my own finances, and also have to learn to adapt to the working world (don't know what to expect as I always say that I m not street smart). Learning to be practical!

Going through this period, I realized that I can be overly worried about things at times. I often have the inclination of wanting to plan and make things perfect! No room for mistakes! But the fact is human will make mistakes and it is okay to bang a few walls and learn from them. So I have decided to be less judgmental about my capability in adapting to the working world, and less fearful of consequences that are not even happening! I indeed cannot do much, but with God....I am limitless, man! Haha...I can do anything. I am invincible :P

So here it is! I am preparing myself....and I believe I am gonna be awesome. I will learn and do great. I am believing God for a great experience and journey with Him once again this year in 2010. I have a feeling I am gonna really be directed toward my destiny this year. It would be a clearer picture. CAN'T WAIT to see what is in store! It's gonna be the best year yet. Like what Pastor Derek said: Glory to glory...Woohoo! I am excited! And I am excited about seeing my college mates, cell members, choir members, outreach members, friends, leaders again!

With Love!

It's not easy....

I was just chatting with a very close girl friend last night.

It is not easy we both agree....

To live in a non christian setting where there is little grace and mercy,
Trying to live an example in a place where there is little support,

Reason why?

All our lives living in that same home,

We have gotten used to the environment,

We have gotten used to the way we talk to our siblings, our parents....and it is very difficult to change it
Gotten used to the fact that we are brought up in a certain way,
And when we stepped home, somehow the OLD TIME laziness creeped in,

But those things we never experience when we are far from home! Somehow when you get into the comforts of home, everything else seems to be harder. And it hits you even harder when your family begin to connect your weaknesses and your bad habits with your beliefs!

But both me and my dear friend agreed. That these are all merely excuses. Truly, as in psychology we study,  it is very easy to be susceptible to your old habits when you are in a familiar environment (for example, drug addicts are much more inclined to their drug habits when they take it in a familiar place).....But home is where we always have to go back. And we definitely need to shine in there. So we have to all make a decision!

What do we do? We fight! The flesh and the weak will. And we pray even more. And we depend on God even more. And everyday waking up, we have to decide to make a difference and kick off old habits. At times, we fall, at times we may not do well....but tomorrow, we try again. And we keep trying until we succeed.

The danger does not come when you are faced with temptation, nor when you fall...the danger comes when you gave up trying...and just succumb to whatever comes, and stop caring about what is most important

So don't give up my friend. Whatever battles you are fighting. It is worth it :))

Ya Chaaaa!

Just wrote a song....

It is called....All for You

A dedication to the Greatest Love I have ever received.

Job Interviews

The Job interviews were so interesting and such an eye opening experience!

Wow...more open doors!!! And I have finally realized stepping into interviewing and the working world is not that scary after all...

ahhaa...thanks to all those who have prayed and supported me. You guys are gems!