A Wonderful Day...

 

Yesterday i had a wonderful time with my mom, shopping, buying things, and chatting about many many things..and my mom also blessed me with two skirts, one bag, and one pair of slippers...Hallelujah!!!

Though, these two days, things were quite challenging for me, and my faith was stretched from time to time, i am really really grateful because i have been blessed in one way or another...things can be different if you choose to look at them from different perspectives...

and i had really alot of fun spending the little time i can find with my mom...my mom is amazing..because she is the only one who will allow me to feel like a child...or rather allow me to be a child :P haha...and yesterday was really a wonderful day because i expected spending a meaningful, fruitful time with my mom...in fact, i think everyday should be expected and proclaimed that way....every bad day on the other hand, should be filled with good thoughts so that the negativity wouldn't be too overwhelming until it chokes our bright side....for a wonderful day is not determined by our current affairs. A wonderful day is lived by choice...

therefore yesterdays and today...could all be wonderful =) in fact, it should be...

p/s: i miss you mommy. thank you :) 

 

 

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Have you ever encounter people trying hard to impress another party and that the person is another person in front of you and a totally different person in front of the person they are trying to impress?...i honestly have chills seeing such people...sometimes things like that are easily felt...whether it was obvious or not...i admit there are people i would like to impress too sometimes...but at most times i would try my best to be the person i am meant to be as much as i can...not to say i am a super perfect person or put myself above anyone, but its just that i want to be as honest as possible to myself and others...but sometimes....this could be a bad thing...you tend to lose your sensibility of being sensitive to what others feel then...because all you wanted was just to be honest with everything....am still working on this area of my life...

i find myself being very sensitive about this issue recently. because at times i feel there are a lot of scenarios like these going on...someone is trying to impress A and A trying to impress B, B trying to impress C, C trying to impress A and so forth...its like a cycle...and it is true that you can't be fair to everyone..sometimes you tend to treat certain people better than others....but special treatment is not the issue here...

the issue here is to act unusually different in front of the person you are trying to impress....to me sometimes i can feel it is quite fake for a person to be another person, or rather an ideal person in front of the person this particular person want to impress...wouldn't it be hard to not be yourself?...wouldn't it be hard to be someone else and not someone you are meant to be? in fact it is quite sad to deny the person you are meant to be isn't it?

to me i prefer people who are real...people who are not afraid to be themselves, as bad or as flawed they might be...be honest with who they are, be honest with their weaknesses..and perhaps strive for a change...i would feel more comfortable being around such friends...nonetheless i should not judge...perhaps sometimes, i might be too sensitive...perhaps i watched too much dramas...haha....however, it is sometimes not easy to be ourselves especially when we despise the person who are inside of us...nonetheless, we are called to live life the best we know how...and the best way is to live as the person you are meant to be...the person you know how to be...don't live differently from yourself because you want to earn acceptance from others, or from a particular person, ingroup, or etc...instead, dare to be different because you know you are different for a reason...in this diversed community we are living in.....we are all special...and trust me, when you try to impress others...people can sense it...heee...BE YOURSELF unless being yourself means being abnormal =P

relationships....IN or OUT?

many of my friends...in college in hometown, and even some family members asked if i am attached...and they find it hard to believe that i am not and not planning to YET...LOL....i don't know why....but you see....i am not that old yet that i need to rush to find a life partner....in fact it is bad even at old age to find a life partner because of the fear of not being able to get married....anyway, i am only 20!!!! i am planning not to get married until i am 26 anyway hee..

don't get me wrong...relationships are sweet....they are wonderful if you find the right person who fits you perfectly well...so you see...many of my college friends ask me why am i so serious about searching for a life partner?...they told me to enjoy and try out a few first before settling for the ONE...oh well....i find myself shivering at the thought of it....i mean....i find myself unable to adapt to the idea of being intimate with many different type of guys who are not potentially going to be my husband...of course yes, if lets say a relationship has already started and it didn't work out, things have to end...but definitely it is always best to start a relationship with the hope that you would last...isn't it?..well...i don't know...thats what i feel...

and the funniest part was when they try matchmaking me with many different types of people by teasing me and another guy...LOL....(cannot take it that i am not putting effort =P)...but anyhow to those who are experiencing the same thing as i am experiencing now...here is what you can do to stop the teasing...just admit that you and that guy has something and exaggerate that you are going to get married with that guy next month or something....LOL...they will stop...definitely. the more you deny the happier they are in teasing...its all PSYCHOLOGY...people tend to believe the opposites.

but i guess what my mom say is very true, that we should never settle for relationship especially during the time when we are desperate...because we usually didn't think much and just grab whoever available who comes along...most of my college mates are at this stage now....looking for love....in all the wrong places....at least that is what i have observed...ok sorry...cannot be so judgemental...LOL...but it is very understandable because everyone is away from home now..surely feel lonely and hope some prince charming would come along and take their hearts away and make them feel complete...it is scary being in such environment...challenging i would say...as it is quite normal as stated in social psychology...when everyone around you are doing and craving for the same thing, and you are not...it makes that particular person comply to the majority...and in my case....makes me wonder if i should be worrying about this matter too...LOL...but of course these thoughts were always temporary....thank God i have Someone in me who constantly reminds me of how unnecessary it is for me to rush into a relationship now...just relax....when the suitable ones come along...i am sure we are all able to sense it..then at that moment we can slowly choose from the list of good choices lah..haha =P

what i learn in one of Pastor Prince's sermon was this....that a partner should not be seek for the purpose to fill the emptiness in us...or to complete us...in fact....we should not have a relationship until we feel WHOLE...meaning we are happy as a single...we don't feel a need for a relationship..we are happy with the idea we are alone...and we are able to function being alone....we don't need someone to save our days....that is when we are WHOLE....then only we are ready for a relationship...i find that very reasonable...

as for me, i don't feel a need for one....i might envy sweet couple being together...but i don't feel i can for now....perhaps not ready?....yea....most probably i am not...i know there are alot of things in my life i have to mend first....if i am not able to take care of myself properly yet...how can i handle another person who comes into my life?...besides, it is important to be the best as well as the right person for your partner..and i think it is also good to take longer time to screen and know people around us before choosing one...HEY...afterall it is not about choosing ANY RANDOM boyfriend....it is about choosing a life partner...one who will last forever in your life....so it is really super important to be careful....

however...hehehe...if a right one happens to come by, and ALL OF A SUDDEN because he came by, i feel ready....triggering my readiness....maybe i would go for it?..well, perhaps the reason why people are not ready is because they could not find one that match them yet?...perhaps so?...perhaps not?....LOL sound so wrong...sound compromising

anyway...  lets abide in Him first =) the One who completes everything...

do write down comments on this....i wonder what interesting ideas or opinions i would get =P this is really a subjective kinda topic...really....do comment...! tell me what you think...can correct me too =) ...haha....