Have you ever encounter people trying hard to impress another party and that the person is another person in front of you and a totally different person in front of the person they are trying to impress?...i honestly have chills seeing such people...sometimes things like that are easily felt...whether it was obvious or not...i admit there are people i would like to impress too sometimes...but at most times i would try my best to be the person i am meant to be as much as i can...not to say i am a super perfect person or put myself above anyone, but its just that i want to be as honest as possible to myself and others...but sometimes....this could be a bad thing...you tend to lose your sensibility of being sensitive to what others feel then...because all you wanted was just to be honest with everything....am still working on this area of my life...
i find myself being very sensitive about this issue recently. because at times i feel there are a lot of scenarios like these going on...someone is trying to impress A and A trying to impress B, B trying to impress C, C trying to impress A and so forth...its like a cycle...and it is true that you can't be fair to everyone..sometimes you tend to treat certain people better than others....but special treatment is not the issue here...
the issue here is to act unusually different in front of the person you are trying to impress....to me sometimes i can feel it is quite fake for a person to be another person, or rather an ideal person in front of the person this particular person want to impress...wouldn't it be hard to not be yourself?...wouldn't it be hard to be someone else and not someone you are meant to be? in fact it is quite sad to deny the person you are meant to be isn't it?
to me i prefer people who are real...people who are not afraid to be themselves, as bad or as flawed they might be...be honest with who they are, be honest with their weaknesses..and perhaps strive for a change...i would feel more comfortable being around such friends...nonetheless i should not judge...perhaps sometimes, i might be too sensitive...perhaps i watched too much dramas...haha....however, it is sometimes not easy to be ourselves especially when we despise the person who are inside of us...nonetheless, we are called to live life the best we know how...and the best way is to live as the person you are meant to be...the person you know how to be...don't live differently from yourself because you want to earn acceptance from others, or from a particular person, ingroup, or etc...instead, dare to be different because you know you are different for a reason...in this diversed community we are living in.....we are all special...and trust me, when you try to impress others...people can sense it...heee...BE YOURSELF unless being yourself means being abnormal =P
