I'm in a season whereby there are many crossroads, many decisions, sacrifices.
The question that constantly haunt my mind: How long more do I have before time runs out? (Lol...sounds like I am dying, aye?) ...Am I making a full use of it? What am I called to do? What can I do to build on my passion, to fulfill the destiny and the purposes I have been called to? I want to give my best in this life to do all it takes to fulfill the call of life.
Jesus often answer: Great! But the question here is, are you willing to lay down your precious, for the course of My call?
Last Sunday was really faith-stretching for me, when I decide to give my precious to God. Tears just streamed non-stop down my cheek, as I hand over what I have considered to be truly all I have had for a future I am looking forward to the comng year.
As I gave it away.....there's a strong pull in my heart. Haha. Because this is really very precious! I feel the pain in giving it....and as I kept praying and casting my trust toward God, God's peace came upon me....and a certain realization came into my mind.
In life, treasure and precious could be anything. Precious doesn't mean just the material possesions, nor does it only come in monetary form. Treasure could be anything. Anything that is dear to your heart. Sometimes we are willing to sacrifice certain areas of our lives for God to move. Sometimes, we refuse God to touch some other areas of our lives.
"God this I can give. No, that I can't...not that...Oh, this, You can take it...."
Aren't we just so contradicting sometimes? We often tell God...we will trust Him with every step we take. But along the way, we begin grabbing things and insist, these are the areas we expect a certain result so much so that we refuse God to touch that part in fear of another result. The common struggle between the human flesh and the human spirit. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.
I have been meditating on Gal 2:20-21. A verse that encourages us to be selfless. Selfless is not just about putting others first. When life does not sail the direction you expect it to be, laying down all the struggles in your mind, just trusting God, and His sovereignity. That is being SELFLESS.
Trusting God cannot be just a saying. Confessing with your mouth have to couple with believing it with your heart. If you do not believe, whatever confessed is void. Faith is the currency where exchange of heavenly fruits begin to occur.
This year, the theme of my life, is to: DIE to self. It doesn't matter what I feel, or what I want, or what I expect. I want to place all my worries, my circumstances, my doubts on the altar....and trust Him each and every step. No matter how frustrated, how unwilling, I will attempt to do what He wants me to do. Ain't it true, that dying to self, simply means dying to the precious in one's life? SELF talks about what is IMPORTANT and PRECIOUS to me is the most important. Selfless talks about what is important and precious to me is secondary.
Not easy. Can we truly DIE to the preciouses in all aspect of our lives....and give it all to Him? I will definitely attempt my best.
Truly, the only way to be selfless, is when we give away our precious, fixed our eyes on Jesus, the source of strength and breakthroughs in life.
Let's lay down our precious. Take up the cross and follow Jesus. One step at a time.
