It is really late right now, but I have just had an amazing time chatting with Crystal with Clement as the silent listener. I am amazed at how God had truly turned a person from how she was when I found her...now, a totally transformed person. I have asked God for this week to reveal to me the revelations I can get to preach in cell group this week. I believe I have found it. I think starting the year off with such amazing realization, I am totally blown away.
She was talking to me about certain ongoings that were happening recently. And how she had her vision for outreach and all. And I am really blown away at how God would constantly use her as the confirmation to the work that He is doing in my life. A lot of times, I have ideas on how the outreach should go about in college, or in cell group...asking God...God is this Your will? If it is not, let me know. And God amazingly always use this girl...Crystal...as a confirmation to a lot of the visions I have. Sometimes even rebukes from God that she is confirming. I believe that is the reason why she is here in my life. At times, when I felt she might be struggling with certain things...she would naturally confirm it herself and do the right thing. I am really proud of her. Somehow there is always a connection triangle between me, her and God...
And speaking of this, I remember Charis, my beloved intern. How she will always back me up in the many things I need to attend to....I am really proud of her. She has been rising up from glory to glory. A lot of time when somebody ask me, how do you build a strong cell group? The key is always strong discipleship. Not one way, but two. Charis is willingly wanting to be discipled all the time...and she will update me, learn new things, follow up, help me and back me up, and knock on my door like crazy even when I am busy. The backbone of the cell is in a lot of these follow ups and support. Cell leaders are not robots or machines, a lot of times they need support too. Be a support today :) Sometimes it is a choice to create a good reason why you are placed in a particular person's life.. =) Supporting and loving is the best gift. That is her place in my life.
Ben, another beloved intern. As reserved and quiet as he is, he is the one who always will find the time to ask me if I need anything, notice that I am tired, coughing, sick....and really meet my needs. Apart from all these, he always surprises me with the many appreciations he did for me. This is the another part of support, of word assurance, of comfort, of making you feel appreciated when you least expected...The surprise during Christmas party despite all the tension, was really a blessing to my heart...Ben is the one that always read the intentions of my heart and will say yes to any vision I want to put the cell group through. As crazy as it may seem sometimes. Although he may doubt, but he will get it done. He will run the vision. He will take up new challenge...And that is already the greatest gift I can ever wish for. And that is his place...
I remember Felicia telling me about a person who will somehow always appear and be a joy and a comfort to her whenever she is in frustration or in deep stress. Well, to me, that person is always my mom. The silent supporter. Sometimes when I am upset I just want to talk to her. She might not have all the answers of the world, but it is relieving to have her around. Feeling safe...Another person would be Anna. Anna has been around countless times when I am not feeling good. Sometimes just watching TV together in frustration, or a prayer, or a maggi cooking...or a big time complaining then moving on...haha...that was to me the greatest comfort. I find joy whenever I look at her. I remember I am tensed up sometimes. Then suddenly out of noweher she would appear...and I would scream and just pour out how nervous I am...and she would just encourage me...speaking of this, Shi Yun is also another person whom I constantly feel happy to be around with whenever I am with her. The same resons as with Anna. Probably because both of them were my housemates. haha.. I am blessed to have them around. It is really amazing....my mom, Shi Yun and Anna, have the same reason to not only be the silent joy, but also to nurture me...ahakz =P...ok but I believe I was there to nurture Shi Yun instead (she will kill me if she reads this =P)
And speaking of dreams and visions....Shirley would be another person who always confirms my dreams and visions...She will say...go for it...I will back you up! Do what you want...I will support you!....and a lot of times...the thing that she plan for the year, or in the cell group she preached (which I also attended at times) I always find a connection to it. I don't know just how God works...but it always works that way as a confirmation for me. Whenever God told me about the long lost dream...and I asked Him...God how can I start working on it again? And then poof...Here comes Shirley telling me what she wants me to do for that period of time....and that is exactly where I feel God want me to be...It is unexplainably amazing...But I guess I agree with Crystal, that godly people are the ones that bring us to our destiny. And I am always blown away at how God always uses my leaders to confirm His word and help me grow. I think this is the triangle thing again between me, my leader and God. When He tells me, perhaps He tells her too? =)
Shirley has been the every good reason that has brought me and my life to where I am today...She's simply amazing...and definitely a destiny definer.
Shirley fulfilled my dream, by supporting my outreach when nobody accepts us. Then I remember I was watching Asia Conference on live telecast when I couldn't be there. I saw how the Community Services were doing there...and when Shirley came back I told her...whenever you do counseling, bring me...I believe this is the revived dream God gave me...and suddenly, the church is establishing City Care. And a lot of other things...that always seem like a coincidence to me...even emerge was a dream come true to me....I never imagined myself getting raised in my dominance personality through that way...
One word to describe everything. Mystical. And realizing this, that at times a person can be placed in your life for a reason to cause you headache, havoc, and pain, so that you can be stronger. But I do not want to be that person. I realize now, that knowing this fact, I can choose to be a good reason why I am placed in a person's life.
And this year's biggest new year's revolution I want to have is whatever reason I am placed in a person's life, I want to be the GOOD REASON to exist in the lives of those around me. To make a difference in a person's life...One at a time.
to my leaders, my members, my disciples, my friends, my family, my parents, my college, my lecturers, my housemates...etc...
Bit by bit, people around me begin to reveal to me the purpose of the reason to my existence. And each day I find the excitement in unravelling them little by little. And as much as God has use others to define my destiny and visions and dreams....I pray that God would use me to bless others that way too. It is truly a wonderful blessing...and it would be an honor for me if I am able to be that person all the days of my life.
What about you? Why are you placed in another person's life? You can choose... =)
