Emotions....can be really scary
They can be your best friend....and make you feel really good.
Or they could be your enemy...toiling your heart up and down, juggling act of clown.
But, emotions is one thing that differentiates us from the non-living things around us. Emotions allow us to be human, allow us to understand, to love, to laugh...to LIVE.
Without emotions, we are all dead. So celebrate having emotions!
But....be cautious about being emotional.
The smartest communicators are those who are able to MANAGE emotions, take control of it...and not make emotions their master.
How does it feel like when emotions are your master? You listen to it...do what it ask you to do...most of the time, you don't think...you just FEEL...and that is enough to drive you to act.
Master your emotions. Feel what you need to feel, by all means feel it...but not follow its lead. You are the leader. Not your emotions.
But there is a fine line to it. To be emotionally controlled, and emotionally rigid.
Emotionally rigid is a result of shutting off to avoid oneself from feeling more pain...and eventually numb out other feelings from entering the heart. This is danger. This could make a person a cold-hearted robot instead of being human.
So how to be healthy emotionally? Ask God... :) And never ever act based on your feelings. You always end up regretting. Act according to the Word of God, and according to the right principles and virtues. Be an honorable person, respect others and respect yourself.
The quote of the day: Master your emotion, and not make emotion your master :)
With this....live life without regrets.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Perfect
You are not perfect..
But you are made perfect in Him :)
You do not need to try very hard to be someone else
You do not need to try very hard to be righteous or accepted
It is done for you. You are made righteous, accepted, made in the image of God.
The realization of this is important....to HUMBLE one person, and to make him/her more and more in love as well as dependent on God.
Seek not perfection in life. Seek His face and you'll find perfection in His Joy.
Psalm 51:17
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,
A broken and a contrite heart—
These, O God, You will not despise.
But you are made perfect in Him :)
You do not need to try very hard to be someone else
You do not need to try very hard to be righteous or accepted
It is done for you. You are made righteous, accepted, made in the image of God.
The realization of this is important....to HUMBLE one person, and to make him/her more and more in love as well as dependent on God.
Seek not perfection in life. Seek His face and you'll find perfection in His Joy.
Psalm 51:17
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,
A broken and a contrite heart—
These, O God, You will not despise.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Happy New Year 2011!!
So, this is it! 2011! Woohoo...
This year I plan to blog more. Oh well, we shall see :)
2010 has been an amazing year for me. Went through many ups, many downs...learning how to live life, and be more like myself...be who God wants me to be. Juggle between many huge transitions of life. Successes, failures, hopes, disappointments....you name it! Told ya 2010 isn't gonna be the same when it came last year.
Now it is 2011. And I think it is going to be way different and whole lot more amazing than before.
In 2010, I did a thorough research on quite an interesting specimen. Yes. Human specimen. Don't worry, I got all the paperwork straightened out. No ethical issues involved. But mine, she is quite amusing.
Introducing.....tat tat tat daaa *trumpet blowing*
SPECIMEN S355164!!
I know right? so cute...Applause please!
I often hear of people saying...actions speaks louder than word. So throughout 2010, I studied S355164. As she lives on the motto "actions speak louder than words", the motion of action, keep doing and doing and doing and doing became so much more significant than years before.....it is good I would say, but not all good (trust me, I experimented with it). People who keep going and going without stopping to think or ponder, begin to become more robotic, more technical, saying more of "it must be done now", more impulsive, feeling more and more busy (but are they?)...less relaxed, more uptight, results-oriented.- Labeled as the Type A Behavior (wow, I remembered! :P)
Often time, life isn't suppose to be that dead serious. See, people could miss out fun...but they thought they were doing something real important that could seriously cause world doom's day, should they stop being serious for a minute. So they punish themselves, and abstain from fun. Or rather, thinking they were being useful, so long as they are not associated with fun.
Ah! Humans....pfftt....the measure they would take just to feel a little better about themselves....LOL...I finally get to see what it is like for S355164, working...white collar world, being in the "career-y" environment. When the office attire is put on, many specimens, including S355164 suddenly just transform into another person. Reminds me of the Zimbardo's famous experiment (of wardens and prisoners). Even mindset could be transformed in mere split second.
Amusing, isn't it? So in 2011, Specimen S355164 informs me that she is about to try something new. The art of balancing reality and imagination. Why you might ask? Specimen S355164 see the importance of equipping herself with the world's knowledge.....necessary details to allow her function in society. Yet, Specimen S355164 wants to live in a world where she is STILL allowed to dream and see those dreams come to pass (breaking away from rigidity - side effect of aging). Not something easily done. A little mix of hard work, perseverance, faith and hope.
Ooo...she is gonna add on the FUN factor into everything she does as she accomplish her 2011 resolution! Hmm....I wonder how. Oh well, let the creative juice flow as the year unveil its surprises...! Well, it is not easy for mankind to notice the dominion of one side of the world, in all honesty. I consider Specimen S355164 quite blessed to have noticed this in the early stage (before rigidity becomes a permanent disease).
Rock on Specimen S355164! You made it to this point, thus far. Great 2010! Yay....now get ready to dive!
Welcome, 2011! Woohooo
*wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle*
This year I plan to blog more. Oh well, we shall see :)
2010 has been an amazing year for me. Went through many ups, many downs...learning how to live life, and be more like myself...be who God wants me to be. Juggle between many huge transitions of life. Successes, failures, hopes, disappointments....you name it! Told ya 2010 isn't gonna be the same when it came last year.
Now it is 2011. And I think it is going to be way different and whole lot more amazing than before.
In 2010, I did a thorough research on quite an interesting specimen. Yes. Human specimen. Don't worry, I got all the paperwork straightened out. No ethical issues involved. But mine, she is quite amusing.
Introducing.....tat tat tat daaa *trumpet blowing*
SPECIMEN S355164!!
I often hear of people saying...actions speaks louder than word. So throughout 2010, I studied S355164. As she lives on the motto "actions speak louder than words", the motion of action, keep doing and doing and doing and doing became so much more significant than years before.....it is good I would say, but not all good (trust me, I experimented with it). People who keep going and going without stopping to think or ponder, begin to become more robotic, more technical, saying more of "it must be done now", more impulsive, feeling more and more busy (but are they?)...less relaxed, more uptight, results-oriented.- Labeled as the Type A Behavior (wow, I remembered! :P)
Often time, life isn't suppose to be that dead serious. See, people could miss out fun...but they thought they were doing something real important that could seriously cause world doom's day, should they stop being serious for a minute. So they punish themselves, and abstain from fun. Or rather, thinking they were being useful, so long as they are not associated with fun.
Ah! Humans....pfftt....the measure they would take just to feel a little better about themselves....LOL...I finally get to see what it is like for S355164, working...white collar world, being in the "career-y" environment. When the office attire is put on, many specimens, including S355164 suddenly just transform into another person. Reminds me of the Zimbardo's famous experiment (of wardens and prisoners). Even mindset could be transformed in mere split second.
Amusing, isn't it? So in 2011, Specimen S355164 informs me that she is about to try something new. The art of balancing reality and imagination. Why you might ask? Specimen S355164 see the importance of equipping herself with the world's knowledge.....necessary details to allow her function in society. Yet, Specimen S355164 wants to live in a world where she is STILL allowed to dream and see those dreams come to pass (breaking away from rigidity - side effect of aging). Not something easily done. A little mix of hard work, perseverance, faith and hope.
Ooo...she is gonna add on the FUN factor into everything she does as she accomplish her 2011 resolution! Hmm....I wonder how. Oh well, let the creative juice flow as the year unveil its surprises...! Well, it is not easy for mankind to notice the dominion of one side of the world, in all honesty. I consider Specimen S355164 quite blessed to have noticed this in the early stage (before rigidity becomes a permanent disease).
Rock on Specimen S355164! You made it to this point, thus far. Great 2010! Yay....now get ready to dive!
Welcome, 2011! Woohooo
*wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle*
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Christ ALONE
Greatest moments in life, are not one that allow you to have all the riches of the world.
Greatest moments in life, to me....is the time when I realize I just cannot do without Jesus. He becomes the most precious.
Living a life for Christ, traveling down the road of salvation, isn't at all easy. The initial humble you could be eaten up by the hustle, bustle and events of life...living you with nothing much to give back to the One who deserves it all. Jesus.
You could have been relying on Him to pull you through certain issues of life, and have learnt up prinicipalities, and how they work. You have won a few battles, and know how to counter a few things in life. Then you got proud. You thought you knew it all. Do they still work today? Yes! Simply because they are God's principles. But there is no longer a need to depend on God to bring us through, because His principles work just the same.
And it builds up within you. If you are not careful, you don't even knew it exist. You didn't know you were beginning to depend on yourself. The line becomes really thin. You can claim you are doing things for Christ. But really, asking yourselves in all honesty. Is it really that way?
MEEKNESS. The strength in humility...the cloak of humility...is the one thing that fix our eyes on Jesus. Helping us to stay in focus, on the right things in life. Helping us to realize we need Him every step we take. Help us to realize, we are nothing but just a human, and we need a Savior.
The greatest battle to fight, the greatest enemy, are those whom you cannot realize or see. And they are the scariest, in disguise, deceiving you. We need to depend our lives STRONGLY SOLELY on Him alone...Christ alone, will have all the glory, Christ alone is the source of strength and hope, Christ alone deserves all things, Christ alone is the One that will teach us to find life.
Lets not gain everything and lose our souls. The greatest giant in life...is SELF. We need to die to self, realize that we no longer live, but Christ who lives in us.
The higher you go, the more battles you win, the harder to realize that pride is overtaking. We need to constantly bring ourselves down, and remind ourselves, battles won has nothing to do with our ability, or capability. It is all to do with Him.
In Christ alone...I place my trust...
and find my glory in the POWER of the CROSS
In every victory let it be said of me
my source of strength, my source of hope
Is CHRIST ALONE...
When you think you know it all, is the beginning of understanding you know nothing at all.
I pray that I will remember this for the rest of my life...Hope you are blessed!
Greatest moments in life, to me....is the time when I realize I just cannot do without Jesus. He becomes the most precious.
Living a life for Christ, traveling down the road of salvation, isn't at all easy. The initial humble you could be eaten up by the hustle, bustle and events of life...living you with nothing much to give back to the One who deserves it all. Jesus.
You could have been relying on Him to pull you through certain issues of life, and have learnt up prinicipalities, and how they work. You have won a few battles, and know how to counter a few things in life. Then you got proud. You thought you knew it all. Do they still work today? Yes! Simply because they are God's principles. But there is no longer a need to depend on God to bring us through, because His principles work just the same.
And it builds up within you. If you are not careful, you don't even knew it exist. You didn't know you were beginning to depend on yourself. The line becomes really thin. You can claim you are doing things for Christ. But really, asking yourselves in all honesty. Is it really that way?
MEEKNESS. The strength in humility...the cloak of humility...is the one thing that fix our eyes on Jesus. Helping us to stay in focus, on the right things in life. Helping us to realize we need Him every step we take. Help us to realize, we are nothing but just a human, and we need a Savior.
The greatest battle to fight, the greatest enemy, are those whom you cannot realize or see. And they are the scariest, in disguise, deceiving you. We need to depend our lives STRONGLY SOLELY on Him alone...Christ alone, will have all the glory, Christ alone is the source of strength and hope, Christ alone deserves all things, Christ alone is the One that will teach us to find life.
Lets not gain everything and lose our souls. The greatest giant in life...is SELF. We need to die to self, realize that we no longer live, but Christ who lives in us.
The higher you go, the more battles you win, the harder to realize that pride is overtaking. We need to constantly bring ourselves down, and remind ourselves, battles won has nothing to do with our ability, or capability. It is all to do with Him.
In Christ alone...I place my trust...
and find my glory in the POWER of the CROSS
In every victory let it be said of me
my source of strength, my source of hope
Is CHRIST ALONE...
When you think you know it all, is the beginning of understanding you know nothing at all.
I pray that I will remember this for the rest of my life...Hope you are blessed!
Friday, December 10, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Nothing...
Who am I?
Nothing....
Without Him....nobody.
Fallen nature, fallen short in every way... of His glory...
I now finally understood what it means, that we need to live by His grace every single day, every single step of our way in our lives.
Because no matter how hard we try...we are imperfect. Fallen short.
And that's the beauty of it all...that there is nothing we can do, to earn ourselves this grace.
Absolutely nothing.
It is a gift...and all we need to do is receive
Now this life...
No longer I who live, but He who lives in me... =)
I am blessed. Beyond word...blessed...
Thank You...Thank You...Thank You for all that You are. And all that I am. And the realization of who I really really am, without You =)
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Do you dare?
Last night, I pledged my love to God. It was amazing. I was in awe with all that God has done in my life. Truly there is no other place I would like to be in, than in places where He is. I will not go where His presence is not.
As I was counting my blessings, I was brought to a remembrance. I have been a Christian since Dec 1 2002. Gone through, ups, downs, time when I backslide, and time when I came back to God. Today as I was worshipping God, reflecting on His goodness in my life...laying my prayers and all I could offer on the altar for Him, I asked God: God, have I done You proud? Have I answered Your call and the vision You have given me? Have I done Your will,. Lord? What can I give or do for You?
God brought me through a flashback in my walk with Him. Truly, I m totally amazed by how God has shaped a big part of my life. How my life has been so impacted by visualizations, imaginations, and passion in my life. I came to realize, that our passion is actually very very close to God's will for us in our life!
When I first became a Christian, I looked at those singers on stage...I visualized that one day I want to be able to sing and make people cry and touched. Back home, I often sing to the mirror...hahaha! But, months later, I was the worship leader in my youth church. And during my first worship leading, number of girls cried. You know when you are a baby Christian....the childlike faith truly could move the hands of God!.....I remember I was praying for my family to get saved one day because I don't want to be an underground Christian my whole life. So I was praying and praying, and by faith I believe that year itself, one of my family member will get saved. In 2003, I boldly approach one of my cousin and shared the gospel with her. Guess what? That day itself, as I was praying for her (take note I was only a few months old christian)...deliverance happened. From that day onwards, my dearest cousin who was like a sister to me, came to Christ. Today, she is an amazing church leader in Penang engaged to a mighty man of God as well.
Eventually as time passes, the desire of the flesh came in.... when I saw the passionate seniors serving God in such a big way...I told myself...I want to be a leader in church too! Of course my motivation back then was about being glamor...True enough I became a youth leader...but eventually backslided, because it was all for the wrong motive. Even though I was a youth leader, but my life with God was totally unfruitful...nothing was left of me for the next generation. No inspiration. Nothing.
However, surprisingly, eversince I got saved, I have always wanted to be a pastor....not to say that it was a glamor job...but I just wanted to be able to help others change their lives for better. Since my parents forbid me from attending bible school, I chose the next course nearest to bible school pastors...that is PSYCHOLOGY :) Hence, I enrolled and my journey in KL started.
As I came to KL in October 2006, I was totally lost and under depression. I wanted to come back to God, but I do not know how. I couldn't bring myself to tell my hometown pastor anything. Praise God, I stumble upon a bunch of housemates who were city harvesters back then. They were eager to bring me to their church! I was rather cynical as I wanted to attend my church.....not theirs...However, it was in CHC KL that I finally found my way back to God. In December 2006, I told God...I want to be a person that would be able to use my life story (real life story) to encourage another person. I want a breakthrough with God. True enough, God made that happen. in 2006, I came out of depression and sucidal tendencies, and this stories had been a great tool for me to motivate members I counsel eversince.
Then eventually, I asked God for opportunity to serve Him more, but this time...not with a wrong motive. I want to serve Him but I want the right heart.. Not for fame or glamor...but to really do His will. In 2007, Shirley offered me to be an intern. Out of fear, I rejected it because I was afraid that I may be overwhelm by the glamor and leave God again. Nonetheless, as Shirley spoke to me, I took up the challenge and I made a promise with her...that whenever she finds me serving God for the wrong purpose, for fame, for glamor, that she would stripped me off immediately. She agreed.
Eventually as I followed Shirley, looking at the way she preach, and the way she love and counseled people, I visualized within me, one day I would like to be able to preach and love others like her, where every sermon will cut into people's heart and every act of love will make a person want to change for Jesus. I want that chance to make a difference in the world. 2008, I was appointed Cell Leader.
Then, in 2007 as I joined my first ever emerge, looking at Felicia praying on the stage such a sincere prayer....I told God...God, one day...I wish I m as brave as her, and as impactful as her, that when she prays, Your presence just come down. That day, so many young people being there, whether Christian or not, I believe they would have sensed something different when she prayed. One day...when I m bold enough....in 2008 itself, I was given a chance to lead a cluster, Not only to pray, but to share my testimony to thousands of people.
In the midst of all these, I also often visualize that one day I will be able to preach to hundreds of people, with God by my side, to challenge young people to come to God. This has not come to pass yet, but in 2009, I was a step closer. During a mission trip, even though there were not 100s of young people, but 50 young people responded to the altar call with 6 salvation decisions. I was totally in awe at how God could use such a broken / totally imperfect person like me!
In 2009, as I went through a tough season, crisis in my finances.....I was struggling through with my building fund. By faith, the building fund problem was solved. And I told God...God I believe one day, You will give me a testimony to share about Your goodness through giving. that I refused to be defeated by this situation in life. I will keep sowing until You ask me to stop. In 2010, I was given the chance to share my Building Fund testimony, not only in church, but also in Setiawan, to encourage others in their giving.
Having thought through all these, I realized, that God has planted His call deep in me. And His call is very close to my passion. Everything that I ever dreamt of doing for God (not everything yet, but most of the things) He made it happen. But is the process toward there easy? No...I went through persecution in family, I went through financial struggle, I went through mocking of friends, I had to deal with difficult members.
What I m trying to say...within everyone of us, there is a call of God, close to our passion. We have to decide to water that seed, to not only visualize...(I assure you when you visualize it God will give you opportunities to make it come to pass, if it is in His will). You not only have to believe you can do it in the fourth dimension, you have to take the courage to step out and DO IT. Not just see it or imagine it, but do it.
Our destiny could vary according to the decisions we made in life. If I had chose a different path, perhaps pharmacy, or if I had insisted my rejection on taking up the intern role, I wouldn't have had the chance to do all that I had imagined to do with God with all my might. If I had shut the door of opportunities in front of me again and again and again, I could have big dreams in God, but nothing would get done. If I chose to succumb to the voices of discouragement that says I could not do it, that I m not worthy, I m not good enough...I wouldn't be where I m today..
Friends, to live for Jesus isn't easy. To live for Jesus requires a lifetime of struggles! With the flesh, our personal selfish wants, needs, and feelings. But to live a set apart life for Jesus is a CHOICE. The choices I made, bring me to where I m today...good and bad.....
With that, does it mean I live a perfect life? No...I still make wrong decisions...I still mess up in certain areas in life, I still bang my head sometimes...I m not perfect. But on this journey to perfection, to do the will of God, is not about being ambitious or successful...its about being obedient to the call He has planted within us. Alot of times we can be very passionate about something, but not courageous enough to take a step of faith. The truth is, God has always waited for us to take that one step to be able to manifest His glory.
We are His hands, and His feet....Before He could use em, we gotta surrender these hands and feet to Him..
By all means, dream and dream big for God. My God is larger than my imagination :) He is able to use me for many all the things I could ever imagine. But the question is, m I willing to be where He wants me to be?
I still have big dreams.....to be a nation changer for Christ. I m still very very very very far from it....but is it impossible? Looking back at all He has brought me through...I believe God is trying to tell me....it is totally possible. But it would require obedience and willingness on my part....to die to my flesh and live for Him....The choice is in my hand. The more you ask God to use you...prepare that you would have to go through more too :) ...do you then, dare to dream....but more than that...do you dare to step out?
When we grow older, when life seems to be so vague with their ups and downs, when things are not really going well, when times are tough, and there seems to be too much risk already, and we seem to prefer stability more.....would we still step out, believe, dream and be bold in our imagination as when we were a child....? Would we remember these dreams, and still hold on to it, believing we would see it come to pass? Would we still have the faith to do His desires and will here on earth?
What then can I do for You, God?...:)....Plenty...He said. The issue is not with the "what" or the "how"....the issue is "will we?"
Something I would love to ponder on too :)
As I was counting my blessings, I was brought to a remembrance. I have been a Christian since Dec 1 2002. Gone through, ups, downs, time when I backslide, and time when I came back to God. Today as I was worshipping God, reflecting on His goodness in my life...laying my prayers and all I could offer on the altar for Him, I asked God: God, have I done You proud? Have I answered Your call and the vision You have given me? Have I done Your will,. Lord? What can I give or do for You?
God brought me through a flashback in my walk with Him. Truly, I m totally amazed by how God has shaped a big part of my life. How my life has been so impacted by visualizations, imaginations, and passion in my life. I came to realize, that our passion is actually very very close to God's will for us in our life!
When I first became a Christian, I looked at those singers on stage...I visualized that one day I want to be able to sing and make people cry and touched. Back home, I often sing to the mirror...hahaha! But, months later, I was the worship leader in my youth church. And during my first worship leading, number of girls cried. You know when you are a baby Christian....the childlike faith truly could move the hands of God!.....I remember I was praying for my family to get saved one day because I don't want to be an underground Christian my whole life. So I was praying and praying, and by faith I believe that year itself, one of my family member will get saved. In 2003, I boldly approach one of my cousin and shared the gospel with her. Guess what? That day itself, as I was praying for her (take note I was only a few months old christian)...deliverance happened. From that day onwards, my dearest cousin who was like a sister to me, came to Christ. Today, she is an amazing church leader in Penang engaged to a mighty man of God as well.
Eventually as time passes, the desire of the flesh came in.... when I saw the passionate seniors serving God in such a big way...I told myself...I want to be a leader in church too! Of course my motivation back then was about being glamor...True enough I became a youth leader...but eventually backslided, because it was all for the wrong motive. Even though I was a youth leader, but my life with God was totally unfruitful...nothing was left of me for the next generation. No inspiration. Nothing.
However, surprisingly, eversince I got saved, I have always wanted to be a pastor....not to say that it was a glamor job...but I just wanted to be able to help others change their lives for better. Since my parents forbid me from attending bible school, I chose the next course nearest to bible school pastors...that is PSYCHOLOGY :) Hence, I enrolled and my journey in KL started.
As I came to KL in October 2006, I was totally lost and under depression. I wanted to come back to God, but I do not know how. I couldn't bring myself to tell my hometown pastor anything. Praise God, I stumble upon a bunch of housemates who were city harvesters back then. They were eager to bring me to their church! I was rather cynical as I wanted to attend my church.....not theirs...However, it was in CHC KL that I finally found my way back to God. In December 2006, I told God...I want to be a person that would be able to use my life story (real life story) to encourage another person. I want a breakthrough with God. True enough, God made that happen. in 2006, I came out of depression and sucidal tendencies, and this stories had been a great tool for me to motivate members I counsel eversince.
Then eventually, I asked God for opportunity to serve Him more, but this time...not with a wrong motive. I want to serve Him but I want the right heart.. Not for fame or glamor...but to really do His will. In 2007, Shirley offered me to be an intern. Out of fear, I rejected it because I was afraid that I may be overwhelm by the glamor and leave God again. Nonetheless, as Shirley spoke to me, I took up the challenge and I made a promise with her...that whenever she finds me serving God for the wrong purpose, for fame, for glamor, that she would stripped me off immediately. She agreed.
Eventually as I followed Shirley, looking at the way she preach, and the way she love and counseled people, I visualized within me, one day I would like to be able to preach and love others like her, where every sermon will cut into people's heart and every act of love will make a person want to change for Jesus. I want that chance to make a difference in the world. 2008, I was appointed Cell Leader.
Then, in 2007 as I joined my first ever emerge, looking at Felicia praying on the stage such a sincere prayer....I told God...God, one day...I wish I m as brave as her, and as impactful as her, that when she prays, Your presence just come down. That day, so many young people being there, whether Christian or not, I believe they would have sensed something different when she prayed. One day...when I m bold enough....in 2008 itself, I was given a chance to lead a cluster, Not only to pray, but to share my testimony to thousands of people.
In the midst of all these, I also often visualize that one day I will be able to preach to hundreds of people, with God by my side, to challenge young people to come to God. This has not come to pass yet, but in 2009, I was a step closer. During a mission trip, even though there were not 100s of young people, but 50 young people responded to the altar call with 6 salvation decisions. I was totally in awe at how God could use such a broken / totally imperfect person like me!
In 2009, as I went through a tough season, crisis in my finances.....I was struggling through with my building fund. By faith, the building fund problem was solved. And I told God...God I believe one day, You will give me a testimony to share about Your goodness through giving. that I refused to be defeated by this situation in life. I will keep sowing until You ask me to stop. In 2010, I was given the chance to share my Building Fund testimony, not only in church, but also in Setiawan, to encourage others in their giving.
Having thought through all these, I realized, that God has planted His call deep in me. And His call is very close to my passion. Everything that I ever dreamt of doing for God (not everything yet, but most of the things) He made it happen. But is the process toward there easy? No...I went through persecution in family, I went through financial struggle, I went through mocking of friends, I had to deal with difficult members.
What I m trying to say...within everyone of us, there is a call of God, close to our passion. We have to decide to water that seed, to not only visualize...(I assure you when you visualize it God will give you opportunities to make it come to pass, if it is in His will). You not only have to believe you can do it in the fourth dimension, you have to take the courage to step out and DO IT. Not just see it or imagine it, but do it.
Our destiny could vary according to the decisions we made in life. If I had chose a different path, perhaps pharmacy, or if I had insisted my rejection on taking up the intern role, I wouldn't have had the chance to do all that I had imagined to do with God with all my might. If I had shut the door of opportunities in front of me again and again and again, I could have big dreams in God, but nothing would get done. If I chose to succumb to the voices of discouragement that says I could not do it, that I m not worthy, I m not good enough...I wouldn't be where I m today..
Friends, to live for Jesus isn't easy. To live for Jesus requires a lifetime of struggles! With the flesh, our personal selfish wants, needs, and feelings. But to live a set apart life for Jesus is a CHOICE. The choices I made, bring me to where I m today...good and bad.....
With that, does it mean I live a perfect life? No...I still make wrong decisions...I still mess up in certain areas in life, I still bang my head sometimes...I m not perfect. But on this journey to perfection, to do the will of God, is not about being ambitious or successful...its about being obedient to the call He has planted within us. Alot of times we can be very passionate about something, but not courageous enough to take a step of faith. The truth is, God has always waited for us to take that one step to be able to manifest His glory.
We are His hands, and His feet....Before He could use em, we gotta surrender these hands and feet to Him..
By all means, dream and dream big for God. My God is larger than my imagination :) He is able to use me for many all the things I could ever imagine. But the question is, m I willing to be where He wants me to be?
I still have big dreams.....to be a nation changer for Christ. I m still very very very very far from it....but is it impossible? Looking back at all He has brought me through...I believe God is trying to tell me....it is totally possible. But it would require obedience and willingness on my part....to die to my flesh and live for Him....The choice is in my hand. The more you ask God to use you...prepare that you would have to go through more too :) ...do you then, dare to dream....but more than that...do you dare to step out?
When we grow older, when life seems to be so vague with their ups and downs, when things are not really going well, when times are tough, and there seems to be too much risk already, and we seem to prefer stability more.....would we still step out, believe, dream and be bold in our imagination as when we were a child....? Would we remember these dreams, and still hold on to it, believing we would see it come to pass? Would we still have the faith to do His desires and will here on earth?
What then can I do for You, God?...:)....Plenty...He said. The issue is not with the "what" or the "how"....the issue is "will we?"
Something I would love to ponder on too :)
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