Monday, July 27, 2009

Mission Trip updates - REAL & RADICAL

Some updates on the mission trip we went. We were really excited about this.

The past week had been a challenging week for my cell members and I. All of us for the first time, were involved as a whole cell group in outreach event as well as mission trip to another church. It was indeed an eye opening experience. On Friday, a bunch of us traveled down in two separate cars. Upon arrival, we were treated to a delicious dinner before retreating to our respective place to rest our heads for the night.

The next morning, all of us woke up at 6 and began our briefing and prayer sessions after our own personal quiet time. We went into the church to run activities at about 9. People started arriving at approximately 9.30am.

The Early Birds

The Registration Counter - Nicky, Annie, Christy and Ann

my beautiful, anointed girls with amazing Joanna

The Team

We started off with some games and ice breaker. Daniel did a great job engaging the people. Everybody loves the game. After which Charis took over to teach about prayer. She was amazing. Nervous at first, but got hold of the stage after awhile. Pastor was impressed with her and asked if she could be one of the facilitators during their annual camp.

Daniel the game master

The "Kalah" People

Jireh and Matthew comparing the bounciness of their tummies

Game time

Charis teaching about prayer

After a short lunch, it was the main preaching about real and radical. Ben did a great job worship leading. The presence of God was so strong in that place. All of us were very much engaging in bringing up the atmosphere. Even though the projector could not start up throughout the praise and worship but the presence of God is still tangible in that place.

Praise and Worship
The singers - Ann and Ben
Guitarist - Daniel
Multi-tasker (Bongo and Drums) - Linet

Right before preaching, the projector started up. And thank God for that, else it would be really difficult for the preaching to go on. I was  extremely nervous as I have been having a terrible cough for the past one week. That day, I told God that I would fully rely on Him and to heal me so that I can preach comfortably and use me to at least plant something there that day. God was indeed faithful..The moment I started preaching, my cough subsided a little (which came back later after two sessions with the people).
Roy took the children who were too young to take part in this message down for games. He was super loved by the children over there.

Roy, Pierre and the Kids

Run run run!

The crowd was very open, as the preaching goes on, the presence of God became stronger, and I just felt a sense of openness in the crowd. When they are being challenged to live a real and radical faith of Jesus practically almost everyone come forward, responded to the altar call to be prayed for. So many of my members have to step out of their comfort zone and began to minister to people in response to the big numbers of people to pray for. A lot of people began to break down and cry. I believed that day many broken lives in that place were being restored by the presence of God....

In total, there were close to about 40 people responding to the ALTAR CALL to be real and radical in their faith, and 6 SALVATION DECISIONS. Praise God! This was beyond my imaginations.

Altar Call




Ministering

Broken Hearts

The altar call took up some time, so we only had enough time for one more workshop, then Pastor wrapped everything up and  told us how he was so amazed by the excellence practiced in City Harvest Church. We were glad to have this experience as we were amazingly blessed ourselves. Pastor gave me a really big hug. He said he could not believe that I was the same form 4 girl who walked in church few years back....hahaha...all glory to God

Pastor and me

As for my cell members, they were all blown away. Very much loved by the people there. Finally they stood out into a realm of unknown by faith...whereby God used them to be a blessing to others. In turn they were very much blessed in return. A lot of them told me that this trip had made them even more excited about doing things for God and having a closer relationship with God.  We were all really tired but we really don't mind going back again and again.

Farewell hugs

Everybody

The people I am always proud of =))
First Row (from left): Roy, Christy Annie Daniel
Second Row (from left): Linet, Sharon, Pierre, me, Charis Ann, Ben
Third Row (from left): Jireh and Melvyn
 
And it just dawn upon me that we do not need to be ordinary. We can all leave a legacy. We can choose not to ONLY be receivers in cell group. We can be a giver too. But the choice is ours. =) Let's  run this race well and do greater things for Christ. We are indeed ambassadors of Christ.

E30 & E45 thank you for being so cooperative and making this trip a success. You guys are gems in my heart. Truly proud of all of you.

Be real, be radical!!

And thank you Roy and Melvyn for helping out in this trip. You guys are awesome supporters.

till the next blog....toodles~

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Now is the Time!

This is it....my one week marathon....

I have been sick for the past two days. So have my members and interns. Well, I am grateful that at least it is before the crazy week starts. The marathon has begun. To me this week is the one week that will sum up the whole season and bridge forth a new beginning. I have been planning this for such a long time. Now finally it is about to come to pass...

I am so excited. I have seen many revelations and build my expectations upon this. This is going to be a week of BREAKTHROUGHS. E30, E45, Outreach members, are you guys ready to shake this TOWN?!

Tuesday-Friday: morning prayer
Thursday: Outreach Big Day
Friday-Saturday: Mission Trip
Sunday: Gala Dinner & Mission Weekend

Charge up guys! It is going to be faith-filled, stretching week...But it will be the most amazing time of your life. Your time is NOW! =)) Through this, you will discover your destiny. Seize the moment. Don't miss the hour!

:)) REAL & RADICAL!!!









Sunday, June 21, 2009

A Time and Season for Everything

There is a time and season for everything.

2007- Season of breakthrough
2008 - Season of moulding and shaping

2009
This season, is a season to focus and build and plan on the dreams and visions in life.

1. Salvation in family
2. Graduate Second class upper in college - no more compromise / skipping classes
3. Grow CG and  multiply end of this year
4. Grow choir and increase in the discipline, unity and love for God in choir
5. Growth and plans for outreach (more people praying, more open doors)
6. Mission work with cell group successful
7. Management of time, finances, and discipline
8. Grow and draw more from my leaders, and impart to my members
9. Touch lives through community care.
10. Sing better (improve) that my voice will be a vessel
11. Preach better that my message will be a vessel
12. Learn make up
13. Eat proper meal and have a healthy diet
14. Reduce the tummy - EXERCISE!!!
15. Grow my hair
16. Visit Singapore CHC at least once this year (passport mari mari mari)


I need to keep improving. no more slacking! Hazel. time to CHARGE!!


Acts 5:38-39

38Therefore, in the present case I advise you: Leave these men alone! Let them go! For if their purpose or activity is of human origin, it will fail. 39But if it is from God, you will not be able to stop these men;

you will only find yourselves fighting against God."



Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Devotional Drawing

Some drawings I drew occasionally with my computer during my devotions this year

Previously, I was so self- conscious in showing these. Haha. But I'd figure out it would be fun to read back and remember all these moments in the future. Since blog can be considered a cyber diary (well, only in displaying exposable things of course!) it would be a great personal record. And who knows somebody would want to buy over the copyright and sell it! Then I would be rich! Hahaha. Oh well, if you really consider doing it, do leave me a comment! :P

Meanwhile, enjoy my childish little drawings!


                          
26th January, 2009


Aspired by the need to see salvation in my family.




27th January, 2009
Aspired by the desire to have a child-like faith and to walk closely with God in our garden everyday.




18th February, 2009
In the midst of brokenness, disappointment and weakness. The desperation of drawing strength, energy, inspiration and joy from Him.




21st April, 2009Aspired by the love and the need to lay down my life at the altar for Him to use, change and mould, for a vision greater than life itself.

 


7th May,  2009
Aspired by the overwhelming presence and power while praying for the vision of Campus Outreach



One thing I learn beginning of this year, that when we have run out of ways or words to express our love, gratitude, feelings or anything to God, creativity is always the key. Personally, I find myself being able to liberally express how I feel by painting a picture like those above. Some write songs, some write poems. It doesn't have to always be only prayer and essays. Anything goes! Imagination can be allowed to roam freely (but appropriately). So, when we use our creativity to worship God, it can be really fun and don be surprise that our perceived creativity can be stretched to the point that is beyond what we think we are capable of.

So my conclusion is, devotion can be fun!! Very very fun and expressive, when we are creative. Treat God like your lover :) Have an intimate and fruitful relationship! Just as people always say that love for a life partner motivates and inspire one to be creative (people probably write more songs and paint more when they are in love), Love for God all the more can do that too! Amen? =D


Friday, April 24, 2009

Revive the Call - SPEAK FORTH!

Finally, the finals and the busy hectic life is over. I was able to breathe again! *phew*



Yesterday, as I was traveling back to Taiping in the car, I was caught up with thinking about a lot of things in life. A lot of recent happenings, and how I have learned so much from it. Uh. And I was also reading Harvest Times. An article by Dr. Yonggi Cho especially impacted me inside out in the car, that I began visualizing and reviving the old dreams. Not that that they were gone, but reading the article refreshed the big picture!



As Shirley had been very busy preparing for her wedding, there were tons of things she needed to be handled. She was amazing. Throughout the period of her wedding preparation, I wasn't involved in the events planning. But, as I was talking to her, I knew her vision, and the certain things that she was going through in the crucial period of her time...wow..not easy. There had been some hiccups here and there, not in her wedding (hmm..maybe there are some minor decision making here and there, that i'm not sure)....but in the life of the people she was taking care of.


Seeing how she stood by her vision even when it is understandable if she breaks just for a few minutes (but she did not give in at all!)...was really inspiring.


Looking back at all the hiccups I have to deal with in campus outreach, sometimes I am desperate for God to just come down and take everything into hand. "Come, God...show the people you are real! Then everything is solved. I don't need to work so hard or get discouraged or crack my head anymore!"...i said. LOL...God can do that I know...but I believe He wants to use the people in the campus. Using lives to change lives. With that, it can be evident that God is living in the INSIDE of us.

I was talking to one of the church leaders the other day. She was talking about the issues that were going on in campuses and her cell group. How local university students were so much simpler and easier to engage. Well, I talked to Shirley about this. She told me one thing: "Hazel, you have no idea how many many years ago, professors, lecturers, students from local universities come together, praying praying and praying, breaking the and plouging the ground...and now it is so easy because they are reaping the fruits from the previous batch of people who engaged so deeply for their campus. you are only seeing the fruits. Likewise, for you...in your campus. That is the reason why I asked you to adhere to the two pillars...to pray and then only to evangelize. You have to prepare and break the ground. Then, it would be easier for the generations after that."

Wow...I was inspired. I honestly didn't know that :)) I am dying to share this with my outreach members. Wanting to tell them to keep going and keeping the big picture in mind. Shirley taught a group of us another thing the other day over the breakfast table. I am amazed how she can continuously impact the lives of others with her words, with just the short time she had with us. She was so busy! But  yet when she shared, it seemed like you have sat with her for the WHOLE DAY. You just naturally draw so much.

She was sharing about the stronghold in a city. Whereby in the enemy's kingdom, there is a very very very structured and orderly system...in fact more orderly than the human world. The "Stronghold" is like the zone supervisor. Taking care of the city...each city had different strongholds (that's why God works through changing city. you conquer the stronghold, you conquer the city)...and underneath it would be the many many other small little "soldier", each taking its own role. As in the campuses, the deceitful spirit would be that of the wisdom of the world. Whereby every wisdom obtained is used to counter and refuse the existence of God. That is what we have been facing in most of our campuses. People question the need of God. And it is really not easy to break.

Nonetheless, three of us especially, did not give up. We kept doing what we were suppose to do. Every week just pray and pray. To break and bind all the other power that is not from God. To prepare the ground. True enough, there had been a lot of open doors. I personally find it really very difficult to invite people to events without them feeling threatened or suspicious of my intention. People always give me the reaction..."Hazel no way I am going to attend any church events. Don't think I do not know your intention"...some were very skeptical. Well, can't blame them. I am known to be very active in church activities. Who could blame what suspicions they have?

However, these days as we fervently gather to pray, there had been breakthrough in the atmosphere. I personally find there were more openings where I can get involved personally in the lives of my other friends (believers or non believers alike). There were outings that I could join, there were people opening up to me about their problems. And from there, I engaged...and it became so much easier. I have also learned tremendously from these friends recently. Somehow previously it didn't occur to me that bonding of relationship could be the KEY to people feeling less threatened!

So as I was saying, I was reading this article about the power of words in life. Scientist recently found that the speech area in your brain governs the nerves in your body. So whatever you speaks, your life will react according to it. Dr. Yonggi Cho was talking about how last time when he preached, he used to have pictures of people healing and he thought it was the enemy's ploy. So he rebuked those thoughts in Jesus' Name because it was distracting to his preaching in services. Nonetheless, God told him this one day: that the presence of God, the Holy Spirit is in his church. But nothing could happen, the Holy Spirit cannot work unless he SPEAKS! So whenever he speaks, the Holy Spirit begin to work (healing works) and people get healed. Those pictures were revelation from God those who were being healed. God was just wanting him to acknowledge the healing and testify to the rest in the congregation.

Likewise, before God created earth. Holy Spirit was already incubating there. But no creation were formed. until GOD speaks! So it was the same here. Knowing this, it was really inspiring to me. I just imagined myself praying, and preparing allowing the Holy Spirit to incubate in my campus. And when I begin to speak, then the work could happen! How cool is that?! The Holy Spirit needs us to speak so that He can work. Likewise with preaching in cell group. So we cannot take the word lightly. It is the basis where the spirit can work. That is why one evidence for Christians when they receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit is to speak in tongue! It means the Holy Spirit is already taking control of your tongue. And when we work according to the prompting of the Holy Spirit, He will work on the basis and foundation of the word we speak forth!

So speak forth, people! It brings life! And one more thing I learned was the fourth dimension. About how Dr. Cho was engaging in the fourth dimension, which is working through visions and dreams. Dr. Cho, since the Holy Spirit worked through that dimension, visions and dreams, he began using the fourth dimension to overrule what was going on in the third dimension (the real physical world) when he was praying one time. And as he was engaging himself there, he was imagining the solution to the problem, he was imagining a healing of a broken relationship of one of his church members who was at the verge of divorcing his wife. As he imagined...he told God...yes God...let it be that  way. And he left to see that member of his.

As he was there, stepping into the apartment, the atmosphere communicated tension and hatred among the husband and wife. Then, the couple began hurling insults on one another. Both were right in their own opinions. Dr. Cho felt sandwiched in between. Both agreed that their relationship was beyond repair, and they wanted divorce. They didn't want Dr. Cho to reconcile them, but they just wanted him to pray blessing for their divorce. Dr.Cho amazingly just held both of their hands together and began to speak of words of binding all hatred and the ploy of the enemy. commanding both of them to be reconciled and be joined as one. tears just began streaming down the couple's face the moment he said that.

Dr. Cho then said in the magazine, he already overruled the broken relationship in the third dimension in his fourth dimension. So what was needed was a word from him...then the Holy Spirit can work! And it did! the weekend, the couple told Dr. Cho that as he spoke, both of them felt a wall being broken and they didn't even know why they fought so much in the first place. now they are more in love than ever.

Wow...Now, imagine us doing that in campus outreach. Having the faith and the courage to speak. I really feel I should implement this. With words, lives and things can change because the Holy Spirit is given a ground to work with. I am so excited and psyched over this.

And for the vision and dreams to keep going on, we really need to know what to imagine so that the Holy Spirit can work according to our fourth dimension and overrule our third dimension! Here are the slides of what I have been imagining all the time since I started outreach. We really need prayers to break the bondage of the wisdom in the world...that eyes may be opened to what is true and real.

Outreach members. As small in numbers as we may be, let's begin to engage the fourth dimension and to use our tongues to speak forth faith, life...creating the foundation for the working of God. Here are some pictures for us to imagine and visualize on. If we can all be united to do that...there will be an awesome breakthrough! I really believe that. I am seeing that. It shall come to pass..

Don't give up! =)) we are not alone.

Monday, April 13, 2009

birthday celebration continues...

March 31st, 2009

We were all in church, attending the Caring System seminar....right after Caring System, I was in the Church Cry Room talking to my cell group about certain issues. Coming out from the room, I was immediately asked to meet up with worship team for a meeting. Then, tadaa....there appears a birthday cake, and the worship team sang a birthday song, and we cut our birthday cake. Abel prayed for me and Hendra before we quickly dispersed to our zone leaders’ meeting.

After that, my subzone decided to sing me a birthday song, and added in to another birthday cake! Haha…prosperous with cakes this birthday. Then, after praying and giving presents, I was already suspicious that a sabo might happen (due to some mis-sent email, muahahaha) They tried convincing me that there will not be any sabo for me anymore. However, I was suspicious. Sophia, suddenly asked me to go to Sharon’s car in order to get the choir list. I responded: it’s ok Sophia. You already sent me the name list via email, I don’t need the original copy anymore. Sophia: oh okay…

Then she went off talking to Sharon…muahahaa…I saw you guys, ok!  I knew there was a plan already. After that, they told me they are going to sabo Anna, so I need to help them bring Anna over. So, I wasn’t sure of what to expect. Since I promised them I would help them with Anna’s sabo, I went together. I knew I was at risk of being sabo…but I never thought that I would be alone. I thought they would sabo us together.

So there the whole bunch appeared while we were talking outside the car. With tins and water in their hands. I clung on to Charis Lian. I thought that way, I would escape the sabo… however, before all these happened, Yunny drove to the back of the church and told me pastor was looking for me! And Sophia who was holding a tin of water in her hand, confirmed it. So here goes the conversation:

 
Hazel: Wait wait! I know you guys wanna sabo me. Let me go see pastor first!
Clement: Ok Ok I protect you. You go! (actually wanted to help them sabo me)
Sophia: (quietly lifting up the tin while I was walking in front)
Hazel: (quickly turn around)….ha! what is this! Tin lifted up!
Sophia: (Stares blankly with the tin up high then put it down again)
Hazel: After I see pastor first la…I promise I will come back (lol…in my heart….lari lo after this)
Sophia: go see pastor after we sabo you la
Clement: Hazel, cannot escape d la…just give in la
Hazel: Ok Ok….wait wait wait (panic, as more tins came out and surrounded by a bunch of people)….you see I got handphone or not first. Take my handphone first (take out and give it away)

 
Then I stood there with my hands open to receive….I said: come lah!

Itu lah masanya….Elvis from behind pour coke la, some sweet water, and plus sabun water…goodness…I was drenched….and when I walked into church, pastor was driving out. He stopped when he saw me. Wind down his window, and drenched with coke and water and everything I tiptoed toward the car and asked

Hazel: Yes, pastor you looking for me?
Pastor: What happened to you?
Esther: (laughing beside pastor looking at me)
Hazel: Kena sabo lor
Pastor: Who sabo you? All the guys who sabo Hazel must run around naked!
Hazel: Yes Yes Yes!!!
Jireh: (innocent looking)…I am innocent…
Pastor: You are the most suspicious one! (looking at Jireh)
Everyone: (laughing)

LOL….bagus ada support pastor. Nahh…sabo me some more la! :P after a short talk with pastor, pastor drove off, and I changed and went home washing all my sweet clothing, and sweeten hair. Boy tough job!

 
April 3rd, 2009

This is the real day. Was so busy trying to finish up the final project. Yi Zhen and Lynnette both decided to give me a secret recipe cake each with a birthday cake. Since outreach meeting cannot be held that day because of the final project submission, Yi Zhen came all the way just to pass me her cake and Lynnette’s cake. Another two cakes! Woohoo!   And after that, I rushed to prepare my sermon, I was so exhausted. However, it was really a great sermon that day. After preaching. Charis Tan told me to go into the room for a short evaluation with her as she had just preached and run her cell group for the first time the Thursday before. I knew they were preparing something for me though. It was just a trick that she wanted me to go into the room. Hahaha…


Then when I come out…wuah…too my disbelief, Anna Chuah was there also. And they prepared me a very touching song. Aww…and another secret recipe cake…hahahaha…View the video here:


Boy I sounded annoyingly high pitched in this video. LOL!


they decided to give me a appreciation postal messages each as part of the present =D



April 4th, 2009


After a tiring day in college, finally I rushed to church. After service, I did a short evaluation with my choir members, suddenly Faith said: and let’s celebrate someone’s birthday today! And the birthday song proceed….another cake! woohoo! So we sang and we celebrated…wow….it was awesome. Felt really loved.

 


April 5th, 2009

Brother came all the way from Taiping just to celebrate my birthday (apart from seeing his girlfriend). We had a splendid time eating Italian food (my favorite!), chatting and talking about what is going on at home. And uh!! My cell members, mom, and my second brother gave me love gift! Woohoo! And, of course, my dearest first brother asked if I wanted crocs. He is buying it for my birthday. However, I could not find a nice suitable one in Midvalley. So we leave it as that. And would buy when I see a nicer one. Hee!

 

So 2009 Birthday Celebration had officially ended. Had a lot of cakes, a lot of presents, and a lot of love. Thank you guys for making my birthday this year meaningful and special. Indeed, I feel really grateful and appreciated. You guys are amazing! Thanks for being in my life. You are  indeed a blessing.

 

Love always,

Hazel Saw (birthday 2009)

 

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

my early birthday surprise

Last Sunday was one of the most awesome day I had the entire semester. After a crazy time of spending the many many weeks doing assignments, meetings, etc etc etc....finally....sunday came...and my disciples a week earlier book me on Sunday claiming that they want to bless me me because I have worked so hard as a cell leader.

seriously to me the reason was valid...but a bit weird...out of a sudden wanted to bless me...and wanted me to dress nice nice some more...seemingly like we were all going to a high class restaurant. at that point of time i was a little worried. so i asked them if their building funds are ok and it is ok if they want to bless me i can go to places that are cheaper and etc...

HOWEVER, my beloved intern...cell leader already now...Charis Tan proclaimed: don't worry! we surely know how to budget one! it is only a few of us core members want to bless your heart. just dress your best and we will bring you for a day of fun, ok?!

So the day came...anticipating...wondering where they were bringing me...had an amount of suspect yet unsure about it...i began to dress up nicely...in a yellow dress! Ann and Christy...the two make up queens in the cell group began dolling me up...putting make ups for me.

So looking at my members dressing so prettily and the guys dressing so stylishly...i asked them..."are we going clubbing?"....charis and ann burst into laughter....

Ann: Wah Hazel! we where dare bring you go clubbing? later we get chopped.
Charis: haha....clubbing at 4pm? i step on you, you step on me?
Hazel: =_="""....okk i stop guessing! then Christy? You not joining us? how come you are not dressed?
Christy: Oh...no lor....i have already have appointment with friends to watch movie.
Hazel: Friends ya? Who are they jek?
Christy: (Change topic)....aiya why the curtains keep flying...very bright and hot in here!
Hazel: (suspicious...and think in the heart: going out with another guy? paktor ah? never tell me? hmmmm....)

Anyway, we continued our journey....here is the beginning of the drama they stage up for me...wuah.....salute them...after planning for two weeks (taking the chances while i am busy and not around to plan and plan and plan)....here is the story

you guys ready?

presenting the casts:


Ann Lang - the drama queen


Charis Tan - the great liar



Benjamin Yaep - the "innocent" actor (i will never expect if he lies to me. he is just too honest)


Jireh Tay - the driver

On the way to the "wherever" place in the car....i find the drive quite long....and suddenly we passed Batu Caves!....then i asked:

Hazel: Eh, where are you guys bringing me? bringing me back to Taiping ah?
Charis: Haha...no la...you wait and see la
Ann: We are bringing you to KL
Hazel: Don't bluff me. KL don't pass by Batu Caves wan.
Ann: Using another road ma. the road that pass by Cheras. so we can have more time spent with you!
Charis: Ya Ya!
Jireh: LOL..i think it is good that you cannot recognize road...we are bringing you to sell!! muahahhahaa
Hazel: =_='''' eh so where are we going? Are we going genting?
Jireh: Nola...you wait and see la

then as we drive and drive...then we went up a hill!

Hazel: eh! we are going up genting! i recognize this road!
Ben: nola this is not the way to genting
Hazel: not meh?
Charis: (kept quiet)...eh Jireh why you all going to Genting oh?
Ann: Yalor....(look shock)
Hazel: huh? So this is genting?
Charis: I thought we already plan to go Cameron? We didn't bring sweater leh...thats why we wear like taht cos cameron not that cold. aiyooo
Hazel: you all miscom issit?
Ann: yalar...i thought we going to cameron?ish...
Hazel: LoL...Jireh...are you feeling bad now?
Jireh: huh? why should i?...hahaha..its ok la same wan. there also got restaurant
Charis: But i book a nice restaurant there d! nevermind lah...
Hazel: then how charis?
Charis: I sms to cancel la...
Hazel: (think in the heart: wuah...quite canggih this restaurant can receive sms wan)
Jireh: Hazel....i think you should learn your geography all over again la
Hazel: (don't understand but didn't bother)

as we were talking chatting and driving. Ann suddenly kept quiet.

Ben: Ann, why suddenly so quiet?
Charis: Yalor Ann! are you ok?

Ann turned around with tears on her face...
Hazel: Are you ok!
Ann: (shook her  head)
Hazel: Eh tell me leh...
Ann: (kept quiet)
Hazel: (hand Ann the handphone) ....type for me
Ann: (hesitate and return the phone)....i tell you now
Hazel: (shocked with her opennness to tell in the car)...ok tell me
Ann: Actually last thursday, you remember i can't come to cell group and i told you i was working? i lied to you....
Hazel: (heartbreak)
Ann: There's actually this guy...whom i kinda like....we almost started. i actually went out with him....i knew it was wrong..so at first i rejected him...but in the end i cannot resist. i tried...but he was too good...he was there all the time for me....so we sort of held hands and all...but not yet officially start.
Hazel: (heart sank even more)
Ann: Just now he text me....he said that  his ex-girlfriend wanted to come back to him and they are already together...my friends already warned me about him...but i didn't listen...now he asked me to be his second girlfriend...underground
Hazel: Then what did you answer? what are you going to do?
Ann: I don't know...I need time to think
Hazel: (heart felt like being hammered!..sank into deep silence into the car seat)

so i text Ann
Hazel: too many people. i talk to you later
Ann: ok...sorry hazel
Hazel: talk to you later
Ann: OK

Charis: Actually Hazel. i feel Ann is not the only one with pastoral issue. Linet also. she told me for the next whole month she is not coming to cell group because she is going to prioritize and concentrate on her studies and all...she doesn't want cell group to be a distraction to her
Hazel: (heart shattered)....i will text  her
Charis: Christy also...i think she is seeing someone...secretly
Hazel: (thinks in her heart: how come they want to bring me to Genting and yet give me news that really cause me to be unable to enjoy...)

And i text Linet rebuking her for her wrong priorities. And Linet insisted that she would not be coming. and refused to reply me after that. wuah...immediately i texted shirley boon...too heart broken already.

Nonetheless, in the car that was a deep intensed silence. I was praying to God...i somehow wasn't that convinced that Ann was in love because there was no sign of backsliding and so forth...But i could not take the risk seeing that she did cry. So i was praying in the car...God, whatever it is...my members intended me to have a good time...so i decide i must be happy when i reached up there

As soon as I reached Genting, I changed the mood and became cheerful. According to my members they were shocked that I was not affected. LoL...so Charis said that since we were in the wrong place...they will go hunt for restaurants first while i talk to Ann...

So as I was talking to Ann...counseling her...I noticed she kept smiling...so I wasn't sure if  she was being truthful. I poured out my vision and my disappointment....and before the last closing of the counseling, I asked Ann: Why are you smiling?....Ann turned to me, and dropped a few more tears...wow...i was so confused...anyway, i did not want to take the risk...so i just counseled my heart out....and she ended the counseling with the fact that she learnt her lesson and she wanted to be more accountable and come back...so that was why she opened up to me...

only after that, we realized that she was suppose to act so blur that she didnt want to get out of the relationship to make me feel so so so so sad that all i wanted to do was get home and not enjoy the evening anymore...however...according to Ann...she couldn't do it because she felt her heart sinking seeing my disappointment....(hahahaha :P) so it proves how much she loves me then! :D

so..since the counseling was a success...we moved on together...and go to a nice restaurant to eat....tadaaa: don't know what restaurant is this called. some shaghai thing..




good food! nyiaaahhahaha



the greedy Jireh


and we indulge in some photo taking sessions


hee...i think Ann's camera made me look good :P...

So Ann had been the photographer throughout the night. We had meaningful sharing about spirituality, vision of the church and etc...it was really inspiring, fun and fruitful. Duing the sharing, Ann Lang was busy taking our candid shots...

sharing...

happy listening...Jireh: hmm...i want to be THAT MAN *thinking hard*

Charis: I m so inspired. wush!


another candid shot. the makeup is so deceiving!

LOL..Ann Lang's hasil kerja...

And he ponders...

After sessions of sharing...we decided to take a stroll around Genting. And take some pictures...(took picture with mimer also...where is that pic? hmmm) the intention was to drag the time...and torturing me...by asking me to walk outdoor..in the cold...without sweater and with my four inches heels...boy.....i was like..so desperate to sit down! but tried to be grateful that they were giving their best to spend time with me...little did i know, it was all staged!


Ann's favorite shop. Asked us to take picture with it so much...hmm

LOL i seriously find this  cute

some "ghosts" in the ghost house who asked us to come up...and we in turn ask them to jump down :P oh well..cheeky us

the restaurant that got a little upset when we went up to take picture...didn't know it was a restaurant wert...



and we walk...and we walk

oooo...teddies!!


so my very kind interns deceived me after that that we needed to find a place to sit down...in starbucks. we were in first world hotel..and i insisted that starbucks was in first world...they insisted they wanted to go to another starbucks in highland hotel...so we walked...OUTDOOR...me without a sweater...my goodness....i was shivering crazy....and finally we came back to first world starbucks..and i told them...i told u guys it was in first world...hrmmpph!

And then they bought me some drink and distracted me...when suddenly...tadaa....the rest of my cell members appeared from behind singing birthday song to me...boy i was so touched...but hush...i tried to swallow my tears...hahaha.....i sorta guessed there was something going  on with the excessive calls and smses they were making....however....hahaha..it was still moving for me to see them travelling all the way down...Christy confessed that she did had an apppointment...with jeffrey and eng kim...LOL....hrmmmphh...and charis ann ben and jireh had to confess their sins and repent for lying...tsk tsk tsk

and ofcourse they finally revealed to me that it was impossible that we were going to Cameron since it is in Pahang or near Perak....lol...which was something i was unaware of...no wonder Jireh said i had to go geography lessons.

then there was a session of sharing...whereby they broke to me all the pastoral issues and all the walking around outdoor genting was a sabo for me...and there were heart moving sharing with one another...from each member to me and from me to them -- appreciation time they called it...(got it recorded all on video!) :) and touching moments...cry cry..before we all went back home....lol...sorry guys, i know you intended to make me cry...but i don't cry that easily...however i was still very very moved and touched!

these are the few shots....there were more, but not sent to me yet...will upload once i get it...

the moment we reveal all the sabos!

Clement spoilt our picture

overall it was a blessed time i had with my members. just felt so blessed and loved with all of them coming all the way to celebrate with me...with the help of few drivers of course...thanks to jeffrey, eng kim and clement...

thank you guys for making my birthday memorable ... apart from the pastoral issue sabo! ish ish...hahaha...i still wonder how did Ann made the tears drop...fuh! shud suggest her for drama team...

just four words. really really felt loved  :) will update more pictures once i get hold of it.. still haven't receive the group pictures...

so stay tune for more! :D

goodness...after typing so long forget to click publish! thank God it is still here leaving for church now! caring system seminar tonight :)) see you guys there!