Recently, after Destiny has went to be with the Lord in heaven on 20th May, 2012....I have began to view life very differently.
I have yet to tell you how much this little girl has impacted lives around her. I will...in the next blog.
At this moment, I just feel heaviness within my heart. For so many things, looking at so many pictures....I see pictures of people doing so many things, things that they enjoy....these are all happy pictures. They are genuinely loving life.
I am happy for them....
Yet, deep within me is this deep sense burden. Burdenned by the fact that most of them, have not known Christ yet....or rather have once knew Him but now have walked away.
Will they ever know that God is real? Will they ever wonder if there is more to life? Will they ever find out about this eternal life?
How can I tell my family that I care if they knew this God who gives eternal life?
How can I tell my best friend that this God she introduced me is more real than ever today, from the years before?
How can I tell or make my friends comprehend, that I did not suddenly just become religious. Instead, I have found this ONE source of strength, source of hope that the world can never understand? That if you find it, you will never want to exchange Him for anything else too.
How can I tell the world, that everything else in this world is temporary...but there is ONE who offer eternal love, who loves and cares for them more than anyone can love and care for them?
I am burdened....but I know, all in all....my God will never change. I take joy in that, and I believe, one day many will see it. I wished for them to find even greater JOY when they have found this eternal hope.
At this moment, I can't think of doing anything else, but to pray. =)
Friday, May 25, 2012
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
:)
February 25th, 2012.
A date I will never ever forget.
A song inspired:
Today, I made a choice to live for You
Today, I come a child of God in freedom,
Today, I cast all my fears to You
Today, this day
My heart belongs to You
Today, I know of Your great love, my God,
I’m standing strong, standing tall because of You
Today, I found a brand new start with You
I can’t deny, in You I’ve found my hope…
Faithful
For the past 10 years being a Christian, going through the circumstances of being mocked, persecuted....Finally, this year, my family and most others begin to accept me as a Christian.
My God is faithful...who has seen me through many circumstance. Not only in the area of my family and friends, but also in my life.
He was faithful when I was undergoing depression, with countless suicidal plots and attempts.
He was faithful when I was dealing with my imperfection, and struggles with self-worthiness.
He was faithful when I sinned, yet He still gladly accepts me with open arms whenever I came running back.
He was faithful when I was going through trouble in my relationships.
He was faithful when I was weak and timid.
He was faithful to give me courage and strength that I needed to walk on daily.
He was faithful when I was in my lowest pit.
He held me together. There were so many things I am thankful for.
So many things I used to pray for, yet nothing happened...And I wonder if He ever heard me or cared? Today, most of them has been answered in His perfect timing, crafted plans. Major one being accepted in my very own home and being baptized....bringing my family a step closer to Him.
Ahead for me, there are still so many uncertainties, and so many things that I can truly worry about. But, I will always remind myself, He has been faithful. And nothing should ever change my confidence / faith in Him. So, I will trust, not because it is my obligation, but because His nature is constant forever. :)
Because, when I am faithless, He is STILL faithful....
My God is faithful...who has seen me through many circumstance. Not only in the area of my family and friends, but also in my life.
He was faithful when I was undergoing depression, with countless suicidal plots and attempts.
He was faithful when I was dealing with my imperfection, and struggles with self-worthiness.
He was faithful when I sinned, yet He still gladly accepts me with open arms whenever I came running back.
He was faithful when I was going through trouble in my relationships.
He was faithful when I was weak and timid.
He was faithful to give me courage and strength that I needed to walk on daily.
He was faithful when I was in my lowest pit.
He held me together. There were so many things I am thankful for.
So many things I used to pray for, yet nothing happened...And I wonder if He ever heard me or cared? Today, most of them has been answered in His perfect timing, crafted plans. Major one being accepted in my very own home and being baptized....bringing my family a step closer to Him.
Ahead for me, there are still so many uncertainties, and so many things that I can truly worry about. But, I will always remind myself, He has been faithful. And nothing should ever change my confidence / faith in Him. So, I will trust, not because it is my obligation, but because His nature is constant forever. :)
Because, when I am faithless, He is STILL faithful....
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Would you change your mind...?
What is your opinion on abortion?
Are you Pro-life?
or
Pro-choice?
Are you causing a holocaust in our generation today?
Could you be the next Adolf Hitler?
Watch this video:
Make a difference today.
Stop MURDERing the future of your nation.
Friday, October 14, 2011
What Faith Can Do
Everybody falls sometimes,
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes, to make a new beginning .... :)
For the past one year, so many things had happened. Today as I was doing my devotion, I realized how far I have come this one year. Further than all my christian years added together.
I treat my family different, I approach my leaders, my members, my situation, my workplace...everything becomes different. My worldview, my perspective changes. And I began to realize, I can let go bit by bit, what I WANT what I NEED in life....and began to let others have what they need, what they want first. Not always successful of course. But something just changes in my heart. Supernaturally beyond words.
In my Christian walk, it is never an easy one. I am not talking about the persecution or the taunting, but the battle within self that is the toughest. The habits, the stubbornness, the ego, the certain thing you always feel you shouldn't give in....in this walk, you have to give it all away. For a good cause of course.
But each time, a situation challenges us to do something more, something of the unfamiliar, something of discomfort to our natural habits, we are scared to death, we squirm, we whimp....but then, the moment a step is taken, everything becomes easy, everything is taken care of.
All these while, the "aftermath" I often expect after I took a step of faith, is never as bad as I have always imagined. Every single time, things are taken care of. How can I then deny, that my God will not take care of me? Surely enough each step I take, He was there with me...
Today, after this one year of moulding God has done to prepare me for the next phase of my life...I have learned to give, to love, to forgive, to step back, to submit, to honor, to let go, to be less legalistic, more gracious, more loving, more balanced...more excellent.
In this chapter, I have many ups, many downs, many regrets, many lessons, many blessings, many heartaches and pain... much more accomplished from here, I have gained many insights, revelations, and much courage to be bold, to live like there's nothing lose. Still a lot to improve of course, but I am getting there.
It is in this chapter, that I experienced true brokenness, where the situation forces you to either be broken and give it all to God, trusting Him and living for Him alone...not for your self.....OR, I choose to let go of God, let go of all these crazy stuff I need to deal with and go through, and just live for my self.
It is in this chapter of my life, I have learned, that I am totally far....far off....very very far, from perfection. And precisely because of this, I cannot live without God. I wouldn't have the stamina, strength, and courage without Him. I am grateful that I went through all I need to go through. I couldn't thank God enough for seeing me fit for the test. I want to keep going....but this time, hand in hand....with my Daddy in heaven :)
You...you who are reading this...
Don't you give up now...
The sun will soon be shining :)
Even when you fall sometimes, You gotta find that strength to rise...
Just keep believing. You can never imagine, what FAITH can do =)
Love always.
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes, to make a new beginning .... :)
For the past one year, so many things had happened. Today as I was doing my devotion, I realized how far I have come this one year. Further than all my christian years added together.
I treat my family different, I approach my leaders, my members, my situation, my workplace...everything becomes different. My worldview, my perspective changes. And I began to realize, I can let go bit by bit, what I WANT what I NEED in life....and began to let others have what they need, what they want first. Not always successful of course. But something just changes in my heart. Supernaturally beyond words.
In my Christian walk, it is never an easy one. I am not talking about the persecution or the taunting, but the battle within self that is the toughest. The habits, the stubbornness, the ego, the certain thing you always feel you shouldn't give in....in this walk, you have to give it all away. For a good cause of course.
But each time, a situation challenges us to do something more, something of the unfamiliar, something of discomfort to our natural habits, we are scared to death, we squirm, we whimp....but then, the moment a step is taken, everything becomes easy, everything is taken care of.
All these while, the "aftermath" I often expect after I took a step of faith, is never as bad as I have always imagined. Every single time, things are taken care of. How can I then deny, that my God will not take care of me? Surely enough each step I take, He was there with me...
Today, after this one year of moulding God has done to prepare me for the next phase of my life...I have learned to give, to love, to forgive, to step back, to submit, to honor, to let go, to be less legalistic, more gracious, more loving, more balanced...more excellent.
In this chapter, I have many ups, many downs, many regrets, many lessons, many blessings, many heartaches and pain... much more accomplished from here, I have gained many insights, revelations, and much courage to be bold, to live like there's nothing lose. Still a lot to improve of course, but I am getting there.
It is in this chapter, that I experienced true brokenness, where the situation forces you to either be broken and give it all to God, trusting Him and living for Him alone...not for your self.....OR, I choose to let go of God, let go of all these crazy stuff I need to deal with and go through, and just live for my self.
It is in this chapter of my life, I have learned, that I am totally far....far off....very very far, from perfection. And precisely because of this, I cannot live without God. I wouldn't have the stamina, strength, and courage without Him. I am grateful that I went through all I need to go through. I couldn't thank God enough for seeing me fit for the test. I want to keep going....but this time, hand in hand....with my Daddy in heaven :)
You...you who are reading this...
Don't you give up now...
The sun will soon be shining :)
Even when you fall sometimes, You gotta find that strength to rise...
Just keep believing. You can never imagine, what FAITH can do =)
Love always.
Friday, October 7, 2011
Rock of Ages
I read Isaiah 26:4 today. The word "Rock of Ages" jumped at me (related to Verse 4).
What does it mean?
Then it sinked in. Rock of Ages...
Rock is something that does not rot nor decay.
Rock is firm
Rock is hard
Rock is the foundation to many buildings, and to many building materials.
Rock signifies strength
Rock signifies dependability
Rock signifies solidness
Rock signifies an anchor
Rock of ages is our God.
Our strength, our hope
Our foundation, our truth
Our anchor, our root
One we can depend throughout all ages
One we can trust for the rest of our lives...
Yesterday, today and tomorrow.
MY ROCK OF AGES....ROCKS!
What does it mean?
Then it sinked in. Rock of Ages...
Rock is something that does not rot nor decay.
Rock is firm
Rock is hard
Rock is the foundation to many buildings, and to many building materials.
Rock signifies strength
Rock signifies dependability
Rock signifies solidness
Rock signifies an anchor
Rock of ages is our God.
Our strength, our hope
Our foundation, our truth
Our anchor, our root
One we can depend throughout all ages
One we can trust for the rest of our lives...
Yesterday, today and tomorrow.
MY ROCK OF AGES....ROCKS!
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Live Like There's Nothing to Lose
The news just declared today, that Steve Jobs passed away...
The man who made APPLE famous in the world, and change the world's view on technology advancement...
These are his words that gave me an impact today:
Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose...
Living like there's nothing to lose...
Recently in my life, there has been a lot of experiences that brought me to a cross road. - to stay safe, or to risk it all.
Those who knows me well, know that I am a terrible worrier, afraid to take risk, calculative of my gains, and fearful of the unknown. These two months, God had really pushed and taught me what it means to STEP OUT and live like there's nothing lose.
I am proud to say...even though I am not perfect, and compare to many others I am totally far out of line. But I have given my best, and I have risk it all the best I know how. I have begun to understand what it means to conquer my fears, rather than letting them conquer me.
I invested, loved, given, embraced, cared less about persecutions, embarassment, being accepted.
Toward my family especially, my friends, my leaders, my members, my career...
Even though the return is one that is unexpected, not enough or negative. I am no longer bounded by the fear of those results.
Now, in preparation to step out beyond the familiar circle....to the strangers on the streets, the needy, the hurt. Gotta really prepare my heart for that. I am ONE step closer.
Live like there's nothing to lose. You will never know if you ever lived to see the sunrise tomorrow :)
Signing off. With love.
The man who made APPLE famous in the world, and change the world's view on technology advancement...
These are his words that gave me an impact today:
Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose...
Living like there's nothing to lose...
Recently in my life, there has been a lot of experiences that brought me to a cross road. - to stay safe, or to risk it all.
Those who knows me well, know that I am a terrible worrier, afraid to take risk, calculative of my gains, and fearful of the unknown. These two months, God had really pushed and taught me what it means to STEP OUT and live like there's nothing lose.
I am proud to say...even though I am not perfect, and compare to many others I am totally far out of line. But I have given my best, and I have risk it all the best I know how. I have begun to understand what it means to conquer my fears, rather than letting them conquer me.
I invested, loved, given, embraced, cared less about persecutions, embarassment, being accepted.
Toward my family especially, my friends, my leaders, my members, my career...
Even though the return is one that is unexpected, not enough or negative. I am no longer bounded by the fear of those results.
Now, in preparation to step out beyond the familiar circle....to the strangers on the streets, the needy, the hurt. Gotta really prepare my heart for that. I am ONE step closer.
Live like there's nothing to lose. You will never know if you ever lived to see the sunrise tomorrow :)
Signing off. With love.
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