my early birthday surprise

Last Sunday was one of the most awesome day I had the entire semester. After a crazy time of spending the many many weeks doing assignments, meetings, etc etc etc....finally....sunday came...and my disciples a week earlier book me on Sunday claiming that they want to bless me me because I have worked so hard as a cell leader.

seriously to me the reason was valid...but a bit weird...out of a sudden wanted to bless me...and wanted me to dress nice nice some more...seemingly like we were all going to a high class restaurant. at that point of time i was a little worried. so i asked them if their building funds are ok and it is ok if they want to bless me i can go to places that are cheaper and etc...

HOWEVER, my beloved intern...cell leader already now...Charis Tan proclaimed: don't worry! we surely know how to budget one! it is only a few of us core members want to bless your heart. just dress your best and we will bring you for a day of fun, ok?!

So the day came...anticipating...wondering where they were bringing me...had an amount of suspect yet unsure about it...i began to dress up nicely...in a yellow dress! Ann and Christy...the two make up queens in the cell group began dolling me up...putting make ups for me.

So looking at my members dressing so prettily and the guys dressing so stylishly...i asked them..."are we going clubbing?"....charis and ann burst into laughter....

Ann: Wah Hazel! we where dare bring you go clubbing? later we get chopped.
Charis: haha....clubbing at 4pm? i step on you, you step on me?
Hazel: =_="""....okk i stop guessing! then Christy? You not joining us? how come you are not dressed?
Christy: Oh...no lor....i have already have appointment with friends to watch movie.
Hazel: Friends ya? Who are they jek?
Christy: (Change topic)....aiya why the curtains keep flying...very bright and hot in here!
Hazel: (suspicious...and think in the heart: going out with another guy? paktor ah? never tell me? hmmmm....)

Anyway, we continued our journey....here is the beginning of the drama they stage up for me...wuah.....salute them...after planning for two weeks (taking the chances while i am busy and not around to plan and plan and plan)....here is the story

you guys ready?

presenting the casts:

Ann Lang - the drama queen


Charis Tan - the great liar



Benjamin Yaep - the "innocent" actor (i will never expect if he lies to me. he is just too honest)

Jireh Tay - the driver

On the way to the "wherever" place in the car....i find the drive quite long....and suddenly we passed Batu Caves!....then i asked:

Hazel: Eh, where are you guys bringing me? bringing me back to Taiping ah?
Charis: Haha...no la...you wait and see la
Ann: We are bringing you to KL
Hazel: Don't bluff me. KL don't pass by Batu Caves wan.
Ann: Using another road ma. the road that pass by Cheras. so we can have more time spent with you!
Charis: Ya Ya!
Jireh: LOL..i think it is good that you cannot recognize road...we are bringing you to sell!! muahahhahaa
Hazel: =_='''' eh so where are we going? Are we going genting?
Jireh: Nola...you wait and see la

then as we drive and drive...then we went up a hill!

Hazel: eh! we are going up genting! i recognize this road!
Ben: nola this is not the way to genting
Hazel: not meh?
Charis: (kept quiet)...eh Jireh why you all going to Genting oh?
Ann: Yalor....(look shock)
Hazel: huh? So this is genting?
Charis: I thought we already plan to go Cameron? We didn't bring sweater leh...thats why we wear like taht cos cameron not that cold. aiyooo
Hazel: you all miscom issit?
Ann: yalar...i thought we going to cameron?ish...
Hazel: LoL...Jireh...are you feeling bad now?
Jireh: huh? why should i?...hahaha..its ok la same wan. there also got restaurant
Charis: But i book a nice restaurant there d! nevermind lah...
Hazel: then how charis?
Charis: I sms to cancel la...
Hazel: (think in the heart: wuah...quite canggih this restaurant can receive sms wan)
Jireh: Hazel....i think you should learn your geography all over again la
Hazel: (don't understand but didn't bother)

as we were talking chatting and driving. Ann suddenly kept quiet.

Ben: Ann, why suddenly so quiet?
Charis: Yalor Ann! are you ok?

Ann turned around with tears on her face...
Hazel: Are you ok!
Ann: (shook her  head)
Hazel: Eh tell me leh...
Ann: (kept quiet)
Hazel: (hand Ann the handphone) ....type for me
Ann: (hesitate and return the phone)....i tell you now
Hazel: (shocked with her opennness to tell in the car)...ok tell me
Ann: Actually last thursday, you remember i can't come to cell group and i told you i was working? i lied to you....
Hazel: (heartbreak)
Ann: There's actually this guy...whom i kinda like....we almost started. i actually went out with him....i knew it was wrong..so at first i rejected him...but in the end i cannot resist. i tried...but he was too good...he was there all the time for me....so we sort of held hands and all...but not yet officially start.
Hazel: (heart sank even more)
Ann: Just now he text me....he said that  his ex-girlfriend wanted to come back to him and they are already together...my friends already warned me about him...but i didn't listen...now he asked me to be his second girlfriend...underground
Hazel: Then what did you answer? what are you going to do?
Ann: I don't know...I need time to think
Hazel: (heart felt like being hammered!..sank into deep silence into the car seat)

so i text Ann
Hazel: too many people. i talk to you later
Ann: ok...sorry hazel
Hazel: talk to you later
Ann: OK

Charis: Actually Hazel. i feel Ann is not the only one with pastoral issue. Linet also. she told me for the next whole month she is not coming to cell group because she is going to prioritize and concentrate on her studies and all...she doesn't want cell group to be a distraction to her
Hazel: (heart shattered)....i will text  her
Charis: Christy also...i think she is seeing someone...secretly
Hazel: (thinks in her heart: how come they want to bring me to Genting and yet give me news that really cause me to be unable to enjoy...)

And i text Linet rebuking her for her wrong priorities. And Linet insisted that she would not be coming. and refused to reply me after that. wuah...immediately i texted shirley boon...too heart broken already.

Nonetheless, in the car that was a deep intensed silence. I was praying to God...i somehow wasn't that convinced that Ann was in love because there was no sign of backsliding and so forth...But i could not take the risk seeing that she did cry. So i was praying in the car...God, whatever it is...my members intended me to have a good time...so i decide i must be happy when i reached up there

As soon as I reached Genting, I changed the mood and became cheerful. According to my members they were shocked that I was not affected. LoL...so Charis said that since we were in the wrong place...they will go hunt for restaurants first while i talk to Ann...

So as I was talking to Ann...counseling her...I noticed she kept smiling...so I wasn't sure if  she was being truthful. I poured out my vision and my disappointment....and before the last closing of the counseling, I asked Ann: Why are you smiling?....Ann turned to me, and dropped a few more tears...wow...i was so confused...anyway, i did not want to take the risk...so i just counseled my heart out....and she ended the counseling with the fact that she learnt her lesson and she wanted to be more accountable and come back...so that was why she opened up to me...

only after that, we realized that she was suppose to act so blur that she didnt want to get out of the relationship to make me feel so so so so sad that all i wanted to do was get home and not enjoy the evening anymore...however...according to Ann...she couldn't do it because she felt her heart sinking seeing my disappointment....(hahahaha :P) so it proves how much she loves me then! :D

so..since the counseling was a success...we moved on together...and go to a nice restaurant to eat....tadaaa: don't know what restaurant is this called. some shaghai thing..

good food! nyiaaahhahaha

the greedy Jireh


and we indulge in some photo taking sessions

hee...i think Ann's camera made me look good :P...

So Ann had been the photographer throughout the night. We had meaningful sharing about spirituality, vision of the church and etc...it was really inspiring, fun and fruitful. Duing the sharing, Ann Lang was busy taking our candid shots...

sharing...

happy listening...Jireh: hmm...i want to be THAT MAN *thinking hard*

Charis: I m so inspired. wush!

another candid shot. the makeup is so deceiving!

LOL..Ann Lang's hasil kerja...

And he ponders...

After sessions of sharing...we decided to take a stroll around Genting. And take some pictures...(took picture with mimer also...where is that pic? hmmm) the intention was to drag the time...and torturing me...by asking me to walk outdoor..in the cold...without sweater and with my four inches heels...boy.....i was like..so desperate to sit down! but tried to be grateful that they were giving their best to spend time with me...little did i know, it was all staged!


Ann's favorite shop. Asked us to take picture with it so much...hmm

LOL i seriously find this  cute

some "ghosts" in the ghost house who asked us to come up...and we in turn ask them to jump down :P oh well..cheeky us

the restaurant that got a little upset when we went up to take picture...didn't know it was a restaurant wert...



and we walk...and we walk

oooo...teddies!!

so my very kind interns deceived me after that that we needed to find a place to sit down...in starbucks. we were in first world hotel..and i insisted that starbucks was in first world...they insisted they wanted to go to another starbucks in highland hotel...so we walked...OUTDOOR...me without a sweater...my goodness....i was shivering crazy....and finally we came back to first world starbucks..and i told them...i told u guys it was in first world...hrmmpph!

And then they bought me some drink and distracted me...when suddenly...tadaa....the rest of my cell members appeared from behind singing birthday song to me...boy i was so touched...but hush...i tried to swallow my tears...hahaha.....i sorta guessed there was something going  on with the excessive calls and smses they were making....however....hahaha..it was still moving for me to see them travelling all the way down...Christy confessed that she did had an apppointment...with jeffrey and eng kim...LOL....hrmmmphh...and charis ann ben and jireh had to confess their sins and repent for lying...tsk tsk tsk

and ofcourse they finally revealed to me that it was impossible that we were going to Cameron since it is in Pahang or near Perak....lol...which was something i was unaware of...no wonder Jireh said i had to go geography lessons.

then there was a session of sharing...whereby they broke to me all the pastoral issues and all the walking around outdoor genting was a sabo for me...and there were heart moving sharing with one another...from each member to me and from me to them -- appreciation time they called it...(got it recorded all on video!) :) and touching moments...cry cry..before we all went back home....lol...sorry guys, i know you intended to make me cry...but i don't cry that easily...however i was still very very moved and touched!

these are the few shots....there were more, but not sent to me yet...will upload once i get it...

the moment we reveal all the sabos!

Clement spoilt our picture

overall it was a blessed time i had with my members. just felt so blessed and loved with all of them coming all the way to celebrate with me...with the help of few drivers of course...thanks to jeffrey, eng kim and clement...

thank you guys for making my birthday memorable ... apart from the pastoral issue sabo! ish ish...hahaha...i still wonder how did Ann made the tears drop...fuh! shud suggest her for drama team...

just four words. really really felt loved  :) will update more pictures once i get hold of it.. still haven't receive the group pictures...

so stay tune for more! :D

goodness...after typing so long forget to click publish! thank God it is still here leaving for church now! caring system seminar tonight :)) see you guys there!

the spark of God's heartbeat

something that really sparks God's heartbeat within me.

i watched these videos way back in 2006. the time when God nudge me real hard to move to the mission world. that was the time, after watching i began crying afraid that i cannot do what God wants me to do. immediately i called my leader. hahaa...but those were the silly days...

something to share and to inspire:


Jim Elliot's story




Rachel Joy's story



because of her death....during her funeral, thousands of people responded to take up her call to continue on carrying her torch on beginning a chain reaction....a man who was watching CNN that night, with a gun on his head, gave his life to Jesus watching her funeral service. Her cousin, Jeff, finally gave his life to Jesus when she died...more than that, she started a totally new ministry motivated  by her six diaries and essay...to change the lives of the teenagers today.


i admit i am not as brave as Jim Elliot or Rachel Joy Scott. they had been martyred for Christ. But i am truly inspired by how they pursue the will of God with just their lives that they do not fear losing their lives for others. Rachel even knew she was going to die as she wrote in the diary...whoa...this is truly the heartbeat of God...someday i wish i can learn to be brave to take up the call of God...i know greater things can still be done! =)

be blessed by the videos.

Joy of a Leader -empowered divine LOVE-

hectic semester...tight schedule....limited resources....restricted jobseeking...therefore, sum the conclusion of the lagging in blog post. =P

nonetheless, this is one of the semesters where i grew the most and more in love with the One above...so this is my recent updates. I personally feel a need to blog this down as a significant event of my life in this season. well the writing style is going to be a little different as I intended to only pour the story before I forget any details...and off to rest my heavy head =P....here it goes

Last week all cell groups are to preach on "Finishing Well"....as I was preparing the sermon, flashbacks upon flashbacks ran through my mind. I was not only brought to the remembrance of how Shirley, my dearest leader picked me up from brokenness....but also to the times when she was teaching us about how being a leader it is not easy as it takes one's willingness to open up a really smelly, rotten, worm-filled can...emptying it with your bare hands and cleaning it up. One question she asked: will you clean up the mess in the lives of the people you lead if you find them all smelly and stinky? do you reject them? or do you take them in and clean them up?

As I was preaching the point on accountability to leaders, apart from the arise and build pledge, I just felt there is a need to address to my cell group members....that I am called as a leader at this point of time, not as a judge, or to be more superior than them....but called to serve, love, shepherd and guide them the best way I know how. As I was preaching this point of the sermon, I reassured my members again and again, that as ugly or unworthy they feel they might be,  I am willing to be the person who does the cleaning, listen to them and help them through. Good or bad, I will still love them. And that in the long race to run, if anyone gets tired, let the whole cell group be their strength, if someone cannot have faith, we will be their faith, if someone cannot run, we hold them hand in hand and run together until we all cross the finishing line....assuring them in good and bad times, season of strength or weaknesses or defeat, leaders are equally interested in all seasons and all times of their lives....the response for both cells were indeed touching to me.

moving on after cell meeting last friday, I met up with a few of my disciples to discuss on some personal issues. One significant feeling I felt throughout the talk was that as I was with them, there was an extraordinary, divine energy and power to just love and nurture, seeing the brokenness and hurts carry deep within for so many years. God was indeed refreshing and amazing. I just knew there and then that the heart and strength to love is not from me as it was at a different level of capacity and faith. Again, with the prompting of the Holy Spirit, I decided to reassure them that I am not just a leader who wants solutions and lives to be set straight, all in all I still care and love them for who they are. And I want the best for their lives. In my spirit, I just felt that these were the words they needed to hear

Eversince, I just felt there is a breakthrough in the atmosphere of the whole discipleship system....after the short discussion we had, the disciples involved began opening up bit by bit of their lives, smses and emails of reports after reports came in over the weekend concerning struggles and needs for breakthroughs from different different cell members - those I have never expected from (usually only my interns and uprising leaders send me reports), my interns are also receiving reports after reports from their disciples wanting to be guided, msn was a great tool for more issues to be tapped in, twitter became a good tool too for prayer requests and keeping touch with me....there was just so much trust and openness these five day (either to me or to one another in the cell). The dynamic took a change. Truly, indeed...just as Shirley had told us over and over again....love conquers all. love covers a multitude of sin...love sets people free, gives people the courage, and even break walls! Love is powerful! = people do not care how much you know, until they know how much you care=
 
I really want to believe with all my heart that we are moving toward the vision and the direction of running the race strong together as a cell, into the realm of faith and unity, supporting one another. my dearest members, if you are reading this, I want you to know how much I am touched by the eagerness to be discipled and accountable, and I am truly honored. Let this be a commitment to fight the good fight until we all reach the finishing line! =))

thank you for your trust. I love you. and I always always pray that this is the one thing that our cell group will never be lacking of...not today, not tomorrow, or in the near and far future...let this be the season we decide to fight together and keep fighting on no matter what happens. Unity stems from trust, trust and love intertwined, are weapons we can use against our enemy. Stay strong together, ok? Don't drop out halfway through the race...!

WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER! walk not, run this race together. you are not alone =))

I truly thank God that despite such a crazy season with so much hecticness, problems, persecutions and difficulties I faced, I did not lose my joy....He is truly my only strength and source of hope....and I thank God for strengthening and encouraging me through looking at the lives and growth of the people I am close to....one way or another, He always find ways to bless my heart....hee...just love Him so so much...! (*snuggle*)

He is indeed amazing, aye? =))

Hopefully this is an encouragement to someone ...let's strive to be the multi-type, all season, all-type can openers!

Bless you!

pa, ma!

Daddy, Mummy, I LOVE YOU!!


Can't wait to come home and spend time with you, smell the home-ly aroma, eat the

home-cooked food, drag my feet around, show you all my new clothes, sit down and "keng

kai", drink wine together gether during reunion dinner...and help you do spring cleaning!

(ok, I promise I will try not to be lazy *teehee*)....


miss you all like crazy.


See you Saturday Afternoon! Yay!


Love,

Szee!

Conviction...and Honor (Outreach)

It's an amazing weekend. I was singing on stage this weekend, and both services, Pastor Kevin indeed spoke THE WORD of the season into my life. I am totally blown away. The countless times that Pastor would always somehow answer certain queries I have within me through the sermon preached is truly a blessing. This weekend was no different from those times. Today, I indeed had a very very valuable revelation.

For those who have been reading my blog, you would have known that I have started a campus outreach in college out of a revelation from God. And there was a time when God told me to keep on going, and keep on keeping on having faith, stepping out into the unknown and just trusting God. The start of the outreach was indeed an amazing journey. With Shirley supporting, and everyone being so on fire coming for meetings and pray...

But as time passes, the outreach grew smaller, and less on fire. People began to drop out. Seeing this happening was truly a discouragement to me. I prayed and pleaded with God asking what I need to do....I was really totally clueless. To an extend, i dreaded going to the outreach because I do not feel the possibility of it taking flight, or even seeing a future in what we are doing. Everything just felt  so lost. This is my confession. That week in week out, when I was in the outreach, I just didn't know how should I go on because I honestly did not lead with conviction...I was just doing it out of duty, because I knew this is a vision I received from God and I need to keep it going for His sake...

Nonetheless, today's message totally transformed my life. Something just hit me and my bubble broke. How would I bring conviction and passion to my group of outreach members when I myself who was supposingly the person who had the vision, is not having the conviction that things could happen, situation could change, and we could do something great? On the way home, I prayed, and I really engaged in a deep talk with God in this. One word that I heard from Him that time was this: Start all over! Go back to the first day I receive the vision, go back to the time when we were all on fire....go back there and retrieve the conviction! That...was the one thing that would not only change my outreach members lives, but the lives of those who come in contact with us. Conviction. As we communicate from spirit to spirit, carrying the positive spirit is the key for the breakthrough of anything at all.

I spoke to Shirley last night, about all these struggles and about the conviction that I need to carry. As usual, her ONE WORD is always able to direct you to do what is needed to be done. Shirley told me that it is always easy to run the vision of others, because  everything has already been set....what needed to be done to get to the vision, what  needed to be instilled...etc....but to run your own vision, it is always something tough...and probably along the way people might even hate you for your own convictions or your own revelations. But these words when she said to me, really touched my heart: Hazel, if this is a revelation and vision given to you by God, no matter what it takes you will run it....because it is your own conviction...not  your members' conviction. It is a word God gave to you....so you cannot allow anything to dampen your spirit. Carry your conviction....and JUST DO IT! Rather than living in fear or in disappointments or in uncertainties of how things might work, when we do it....(even if we make mistakes)....at least we will not think of the "what if's" in life.....

To have faithfulness and honor in the vision given to us....it is not an easy motivation, but I know at  the end of the day, it is all worthwhile. Last week, in outreach there were only two of us coming together and praying...I know I have mentioned in the previous blog that I will not allow anything to dampen my spirit in the process of making this outreach a success...but as human, I do get demotivated with what seems to be stagnated. I need support, I need encouragement, and people telling me..."Yes,  Hazel! All these can be done! Let's do it! Let's go all out to touch the lives of people and make a difference."

But the fact is, I should be the one who is saying that to God.....and today I hope this will be a long-lasting prayer I will hold on to...that even when nobody turn up for outreach, or when nothing seem workable, or nothing is progressing, I will still turn up for outreach, even when I am alone...and I will keep praying behind that classroom....I will plough the ground, break it and wait.....if this is God's vision...something must, and will happen....I want to start living out this conviction, and I want to be the one that honor the vision that has been imprinted into my life. I will honor His vision.....I want to....and you guys as my witnesses.

This life is His. This life is on the altar.....my life is indeed His song.....He writes, He sings...I will journey =)

Outreach members, let's carry a good convicted, and honorable spirit, finish the race, and support one another as small a group as we are! We are all in this together :)

This could be our Bario Revival! =))

Be blessed.

Why are you placed in my life?

It is really late right now, but I have just had an amazing time chatting with Crystal with Clement as the silent listener. I am amazed at how God had truly turned a person from how she was when I found her...now, a totally transformed person. I have asked God for this week to reveal to me the revelations I can get to preach in cell group this week. I believe I have found it. I think starting the year off with such amazing realization, I am totally blown away.

She was talking to me about certain ongoings that were happening recently. And how she had her vision for outreach and all. And I am really blown away at how God would constantly use her as the confirmation to the work that He is doing in my life. A lot of times, I have ideas on how the outreach should go about in college, or in cell group...asking God...God is this Your will? If it is not, let me know. And God amazingly always use this girl...Crystal...as a confirmation to a lot of the visions I have. Sometimes even rebukes from God that she is confirming. I believe that is the reason why she is here in my life. At times, when I felt she might be struggling with certain things...she would naturally confirm it herself and do the right thing. I am really proud of her. Somehow there is always a connection triangle between me, her and God...

And speaking of this, I remember Charis, my beloved intern. How she will always back me up in the many things I need to attend to....I am really proud of her. She has  been rising up from glory to glory. A lot of time when somebody ask me, how do you build a strong cell group? The key is always strong discipleship. Not one way, but two. Charis is willingly wanting to be discipled all the time...and she will update me, learn new things, follow up, help me and back me up, and knock on my door like crazy even when I am busy. The backbone of the cell is in a lot of these follow ups and support. Cell leaders are not robots or machines, a lot of times they need support too. Be a support today :) Sometimes it is a choice to create a good reason why you are placed in a particular person's life.. =) Supporting and loving is the best gift. That is her place in my life.

Ben, another beloved intern. As reserved  and quiet as he is, he is the one who always will find the time to ask me if I need anything, notice that I am tired, coughing, sick....and really meet my needs. Apart from all these, he always surprises me with the many appreciations he did for me. This is the another part of support, of word assurance, of comfort, of making you feel appreciated when you least expected...The surprise during Christmas party despite all the tension, was really a blessing to my heart...Ben is the one that always read the intentions of my heart and will say yes to any vision I want to put the cell group through. As crazy as it may seem sometimes. Although he may doubt, but he will get it done. He will run the vision. He will take up new challenge...And that is already the greatest gift I can ever wish for. And that is his place...

I remember Felicia telling me about a person who will somehow always appear and be a joy and a comfort  to her whenever she is in frustration or in deep stress. Well, to me, that person is always my mom. The silent supporter. Sometimes when I am upset I just want to talk to her. She might not have all the answers of the world, but it is relieving to have her around. Feeling safe...Another person would be Anna. Anna has  been around countless times when I am not feeling good. Sometimes just watching TV together in frustration, or a prayer, or a maggi cooking...or a big time complaining then moving on...haha...that was to me the greatest comfort. I find joy whenever I look at her. I remember I am tensed up sometimes. Then suddenly out of noweher she would appear...and I would scream and just pour out how nervous I am...and she would just encourage me...speaking of this, Shi Yun is also another person whom I constantly feel happy to be around with whenever I am with her. The same resons as with Anna. Probably because both of them were my housemates. haha.. I am blessed to have them around. It is really amazing....my mom, Shi Yun and Anna, have the same reason to not only be the silent joy, but also to nurture me...ahakz =P...ok but I believe I was there to nurture Shi Yun instead (she will kill me if she reads this =P)

And speaking of dreams and visions....Shirley would be another person who always confirms my dreams and visions...She will say...go for it...I will back you up! Do what you want...I will support you!....and a lot of times...the thing that she plan for the year, or in the cell group she preached (which I also attended at times) I always find a connection to it. I don't know just how God works...but it always works that way as a confirmation for me. Whenever God told me about the long lost dream...and I asked Him...God how can I start working on it again? And then poof...Here comes Shirley telling me what she wants me to do for that period of time....and that is exactly where I feel God want me to be...It is unexplainably amazing...But I guess I agree with Crystal, that godly people are the ones that bring us to our destiny. And I am always blown away at how God always uses my leaders to confirm His word and help me grow. I think this is the triangle thing again between me, my leader and God. When He tells me, perhaps He tells her too? =)

Shirley has been the every good reason that has brought me and my life to where I am today...She's simply amazing...and definitely a destiny definer.

Shirley fulfilled my dream, by supporting my outreach when nobody accepts us. Then I remember I was watching Asia Conference on live telecast when I couldn't be there. I saw how the Community Services were doing there...and when Shirley came back I told her...whenever you do counseling, bring me...I believe this is the revived dream God gave me...and suddenly, the church is establishing City Care. And a lot of other things...that always seem like a coincidence to me...even emerge was a dream come true to me....I never imagined myself getting raised in my dominance personality through that way...

One word to describe everything. Mystical. And realizing this, that at times a person can be placed in your life for a reason to cause you headache, havoc, and pain, so that you can be stronger. But I do not want to be that person. I realize now, that knowing this fact, I can choose to be a good reason why I am placed in a person's life.

And this year's biggest new  year's revolution I want to have is whatever reason I am placed in a person's life, I want to be the GOOD REASON to exist in the lives of those around me. To make a difference in a person's life...One at a time.

to my leaders, my members, my disciples, my friends, my family, my parents, my college, my lecturers, my housemates...etc...

Bit by bit, people around me begin to reveal to me the purpose of the reason to my existence. And each day I find the excitement in unravelling them little by little. And as much as God has use others to define my destiny and visions and dreams....I pray that God would use me to bless others that way too. It is truly a wonderful blessing...and it would be an honor for me if I am able to be that person all the days of my life.

What about you? Why are you placed in another person's life? You can choose... =)

2008 Final Tribute

2008 has been an amazing year. I have experienced many breakthroughs, many wonderful experiences, knew a lot of great people, and had tremendous numbers of amazing encounters. This blog and slide show is a tribute to all of you as an appreciation for making 2008 a wonderful experience for me. Thank you for adding colors and being the missing pieces that complete the puzzle in my life...I believe 2009 will be even more amazing, and I hope I had been a blessing and will continue being a blessing to all of you as how you all have been a blessing to me time after time :) Let's anticipate greater breakthroughs in 2009....

Happy New Year!! God bless always.

Welcome, 2009!! =))